I was still in his tight embrace. I never noticed how warm he was. Well maybe because I have never really hugged him like this before. I was just happy to have him back.
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this または not.
Granted, I did say that I do 愛 him like 愛 him, 愛 him, but at the same time I 愛 him as my best friend and right now....I think i 愛 him もっと見る as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off によって it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to あなた Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship または just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure または anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker あなた will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I 愛 him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do あなた want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I 愛 you. I have always loved you. あなた know that. あなた are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether あなた stay my best friend または be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken によって surprise によって the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful エンジェル face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being もっと見る than your best friend." I topped that off with big 子犬 eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my ハート, 心 first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I 発言しました these words. The 秒 was the amazing キッス he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best キッス yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If あなた are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support あなた in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every 分 with him. He took me ホーム and gave me a light キッス before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do 愛 him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this または not.
Granted, I did say that I do 愛 him like 愛 him, 愛 him, but at the same time I 愛 him as my best friend and right now....I think i 愛 him もっと見る as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off によって it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to あなた Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship または just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure または anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker あなた will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I 愛 him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do あなた want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I 愛 you. I have always loved you. あなた know that. あなた are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether あなた stay my best friend または be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken によって surprise によって the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful エンジェル face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being もっと見る than your best friend." I topped that off with big 子犬 eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my ハート, 心 first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I 発言しました these words. The 秒 was the amazing キッス he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best キッス yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If あなた are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support あなた in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every 分 with him. He took me ホーム and gave me a light キッス before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do 愛 him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
The Man With No Eyes Collection (1): The Actor
Sundown, sunrise.
Big smile!
(Tired eyes.)
I vanish into thin air.
An actor never fails.
(Lies.)
To give the world a rousing show
(While begging to be recognized.)
To shine as brightly as the sun
Upon the 王位 that we’ve devised.
A patchwork-quilt protagonist
A villain from the shadow realm
The work of the illusionist
When I, the actor, take the helm.
“Hey, wouldn’t it be cool to see…”
The whisper marks my story’s birth.
The audience will gather ‘round.
(The jury to decide my worth.)
"The Man With No Eyes" is a series of poems, all of which are unfolding from one character's point of view. They are meant to represent an ongoing journey. So if あなた liked this one, stay tuned for more. :)
Sundown, sunrise.
Big smile!
(Tired eyes.)
I vanish into thin air.
An actor never fails.
(Lies.)
To give the world a rousing show
(While begging to be recognized.)
To shine as brightly as the sun
Upon the 王位 that we’ve devised.
A patchwork-quilt protagonist
A villain from the shadow realm
The work of the illusionist
When I, the actor, take the helm.
“Hey, wouldn’t it be cool to see…”
The whisper marks my story’s birth.
The audience will gather ‘round.
(The jury to decide my worth.)
"The Man With No Eyes" is a series of poems, all of which are unfolding from one character's point of view. They are meant to represent an ongoing journey. So if あなた liked this one, stay tuned for more. :)
I'm setting here looking at a paused テレビ screen and i soon think to myself is that the way that our life is life when we are put on hold.
If tht's the case then why are we not able to do the work that we have been meant to do forever,
how can the people in our lives trust us for the decisions that we make in our daily lives that we live.
are we really meant to be th people that we are meant to be または are we just passing through this earth with no-where to go but down, that is what i think about when i see a paused tv.
so what do あなた think about this journal entry that i just wrote あなた need to think about what i 発言しました and give me your best anwsers that あなた can give.
thnx erie モーガン, モルガン maples
If tht's the case then why are we not able to do the work that we have been meant to do forever,
how can the people in our lives trust us for the decisions that we make in our daily lives that we live.
are we really meant to be th people that we are meant to be または are we just passing through this earth with no-where to go but down, that is what i think about when i see a paused tv.
so what do あなた think about this journal entry that i just wrote あなた need to think about what i 発言しました and give me your best anwsers that あなた can give.
thnx erie モーガン, モルガン maples
Why, do things have to be so hard
In life?
Why can't things be easy
And everyone could just enjoy
Their short lives.
Betrayed
によって an old friend
によって an old boyfriend
It feels like the whole world
Has gone on the enemy's side
Why do things have to be so complicated?
Tears are rolling down my cheek
As life goes on,
That's what I do.
Because I feel unused, unhelpful, abandoned.
Life goes on
And even though I try
To shrug off the troubles I have had in the past,
Smiling,
Inside, I am extremely hurt
Stabbed によって my own friends
I am deserted
Even though I smile
I am hurt
I am betrayed.
In life?
Why can't things be easy
And everyone could just enjoy
Their short lives.
Betrayed
によって an old friend
によって an old boyfriend
It feels like the whole world
Has gone on the enemy's side
Why do things have to be so complicated?
Tears are rolling down my cheek
As life goes on,
That's what I do.
Because I feel unused, unhelpful, abandoned.
Life goes on
And even though I try
To shrug off the troubles I have had in the past,
Smiling,
Inside, I am extremely hurt
Stabbed によって my own friends
I am deserted
Even though I smile
I am hurt
I am betrayed.
Hate.Disappointment.Regret.They all make up some of the worst thing in our lives...then why can't we just give it up?Give it up and just throw all our problems away?The answer is simple because this,this is reality not a fairytale または some fiction story,where the writer can just have their way over their characters like puppets.No.Not at all in reality does one have their way to control their life または the lies that people tell them.There's no stopping your troubles in life または changing the regret you've made in the past ...it's life.