I started realizing that I had feelings for people, I have had boyfriends and they make me smile and feel happy and not alone. But every time I have a boyfriend I never feel right, I think that they are kind funny smart and many もっと見る but I never actually like liked them, I always 発言しました that I did. I never knew why. Until I met this one guy, he was perfect I thought I really liked him, he was everything and we started talking a lot, we dated and then one 日 we broke up. I felt torn. But I still went on. I like watching things like Victoria's Secret shows and the live shows from them, and I always like watching. My dad 発言しました that its just for guys because of the body, but I didn't care what he thought, I 発言しました I just watched it to watch it, but I feel all idk when I watch it and see that they are pretty and perfect I really like everything about them. When I was 14 I transferred school and I have a best friend, she's pretty, and I dated guys if they asked me out but again like before I never really was interested in many, it just felt wrong. I think I like girls but I want to like guys because I'm afraid that if I like girls that people will make fun of me and call me names. And I would loose my friends... I really am scared and confused. Please I need advise how do I know what is going on?
a rose,
to a person,
is that meaning something?
a gift,
to a person,
is that hiding anything?
a smile,
to a person,
it is もっと見る that just a friend?
a laugh,
to a person,
is that teasing them?
a book,
to a person,
is that called insulting?
everything must have the negative thought によって people surround me.
they ask me, "is that just a friend?"
and i will say, "yes, why not?"
they again will ask, "are あなた like him?"
and i will answer, "people always thinking in negative way. how if i give that to my best friend, is that still meaning something? is that still hiding anything? is that still もっと見る than a best friend? is that still teasing? is that still insulting?"
and then, i will continue........."no, it is just a friend."
*my life full with untrusted friendship. i don't think they will assume me as their best friend, but if anyone seeking for a trustful friend, i'm here to help you.*
to a person,
is that meaning something?
a gift,
to a person,
is that hiding anything?
a smile,
to a person,
it is もっと見る that just a friend?
a laugh,
to a person,
is that teasing them?
a book,
to a person,
is that called insulting?
everything must have the negative thought によって people surround me.
they ask me, "is that just a friend?"
and i will say, "yes, why not?"
they again will ask, "are あなた like him?"
and i will answer, "people always thinking in negative way. how if i give that to my best friend, is that still meaning something? is that still hiding anything? is that still もっと見る than a best friend? is that still teasing? is that still insulting?"
and then, i will continue........."no, it is just a friend."
*my life full with untrusted friendship. i don't think they will assume me as their best friend, but if anyone seeking for a trustful friend, i'm here to help you.*
