my thoughts at the moment..
1.
i dont know what people see anymore.
i think もっと見る people decide what it is they really saw, jsut to make them feel better.
Because anything can be anything あなた want it to be.
2.
i dont think あなた relize it when your changing, because your always feeling normal, its takes someone to look at you, that someone doesn't have to know you, to tell あなた your wrong about self.
3.
The biggest mistake あなた can make it letting someone too close, because like newtons first law, one will continue to do whatever it is doing unless a force interuppts. That force can be anything.
4.
i starting to get the feeling that 愛 is dying. It's getting abused and used to often.. i think its going to run out. または there is too many fakers out there pretending to be love. または people have no idea what 愛 is and what it really feel like and makes 愛 any emotion tht come across them... i think if this continues to happen, that maybe 愛 will evole into something that it oringally was.
1.
i dont know what people see anymore.
i think もっと見る people decide what it is they really saw, jsut to make them feel better.
Because anything can be anything あなた want it to be.
2.
i dont think あなた relize it when your changing, because your always feeling normal, its takes someone to look at you, that someone doesn't have to know you, to tell あなた your wrong about self.
3.
The biggest mistake あなた can make it letting someone too close, because like newtons first law, one will continue to do whatever it is doing unless a force interuppts. That force can be anything.
4.
i starting to get the feeling that 愛 is dying. It's getting abused and used to often.. i think its going to run out. または there is too many fakers out there pretending to be love. または people have no idea what 愛 is and what it really feel like and makes 愛 any emotion tht come across them... i think if this continues to happen, that maybe 愛 will evole into something that it oringally was.
what can I do?
I'm self-centered, self-induldged, self-absorbed, hateful, short-tepered, implusive, in a complete state of denial, confused and lonely, yet I don't try to think.
a creature of the night
a princess of darkness
I long for light
colors
but all is midnight
and my only companions are the moon and the darkness
thought it comforts me when no one can
I wish to be out of darkness for once
to be clear, understood, unquestioned, and loved.
but who am I to ask for this?
who am I to want this?
is that what makes me human?
why?
all I want to know is why?
Step, creak, step, creak! the floor boards speak to me as I slowly tremble on its hard, splintery wood. Each step feels so daring. I feel danger crawling up my dangling spine. Thump, thump, my ハート, 心 tries to refuse to my wishes of moving forward. Nothing has happened so far.
I carefully make my way towards the forbidden wooden chair. Creeeeeeek! goes the シート, 座席 as I lower my self to its level and sit on it. SHHHHHHHH!
“What was that?” I whisper to my self with my eyes wide open. I slowly start to climb the fence to view the streets of emptiness and quietness. My ハート, 心 starts to beat even louder. Thump, thump. I slowly turn my anxious head to look. But it was only a car passing によって my house.
I carefully make my way towards the forbidden wooden chair. Creeeeeeek! goes the シート, 座席 as I lower my self to its level and sit on it. SHHHHHHHH!
“What was that?” I whisper to my self with my eyes wide open. I slowly start to climb the fence to view the streets of emptiness and quietness. My ハート, 心 starts to beat even louder. Thump, thump. I slowly turn my anxious head to look. But it was only a car passing によって my house.