Chapter 20
While Alice was dragging me to see her family I was worried what will happen when I see edward I mean after all this years ,we moved on and stuff……..ooh I'm such an idiot what can happen??? Nothing can happed if he remmembers he left ME! I didn’t leave him! So what does he wants now?.....
I was thinking hard not realizing were she was dragging me when someone hugged me
-oh Bella I'm so happy to see あなた look at you!!! あなた havent changed at all!
Then he laughed his booming laugh,awww I truley miss Emmett he always made me laugh and made fun of me
-Bella honey,how are you?
Esme came closer and hugged me and started subing
-we missed you
Then Carlisle came and looked at me with concern in his eyes and hugged me lightly
-its great to see you
He 発言しました and patted my shoulder
Rosali just smiled at me and she seemed a little guilty about something that I didn’t know about.
Then jasper stepped closer and shook my hand this was the first time he touched me and then smiled
o.h m.y g.o.d
edaward!! What should I do?! What should I say too him………………then someone interupted my thoughts THANK GOD!!
-dear Bella! And Cullen's lets go to the hall!
Aro 発言しました and patted my shoulder and then took my hand probably 読書 my thoughts and then smiled and 発言しました
-your welcom!
Under his breath and left the room and I followed him to the hall
We sat there talking for a few mins and I was avoiding edward not even looking at him
I was mostly talking to Alice,Emmett,jasper,jane and alec and Carlisle and esme and avoiding edward as much as possible
-so Bella are あなた staying with us?!?
Jane asked me with hope in her eyes
-I think I am.
I 発言しました cause I don’t have any other place to stay
-Bella あなた can stay with us if あなた like または visit sometimes??
Esme 発言しました hope in her eyes too
-esme I don’t know …..um…maybe.
I smile at her and she touched my shoulder thanking me
Then Alice spoke
-oh Bella! Lets go and change your dress you’ve been sleeping in that thing for a 100 years!
Oh great Bella バービー again I sighed but she was right I should change as soon as possible
Alice clapped her hands and went to bring her bag
she came back in 1 sec and dragged me again back to my room when we got there she brought out a beautiful black dress
-wow its beautiful Alice!
-you like it?!
-yup!
-oh this is wounderful so try it on and come down ok??? I'm waiting!
She 発言しました and went outside I took off my old dress and took a hot シャワー and put my new dress on and thinked about a paire of black high heels and then wore them. I was brushing my haire when someone knocked on the door.
-come in.
I 発言しました thinking its Alice but someone else came in that I didn’t expected
-you look beautiful
Edward 発言しました and closed the door behind him
-what are あなた doing here?
I was shocked he is such an bas…..
-Bella I came to apologize..
I cut him off
-there's no need to
-Bella I'm sorry I thought if I leave あなた ,you will have a normal life…
-and I had a great life untill…….
Pain filled my eyes I really wanted to cry,….i really missed matt
-Bella don’t be sad
-I am sad! Edward!you always thinked about yourself あなた never cared about what I wanted!have あなた ever thought about talking to me and ask me if I wanted あなた to leave?huh? または あなた didn’t care what I wanted and just left me bleeding!maybe I wanted to be with あなた no matter what!i didn’t even care if I died the 日 jasper ロスト it!because I would have died happy knowing あなた loved me……….
I covered my eyes with my hands and started subbing edward came to comfort me but I flinched at his touch and he took a step back pain washing through his eyes.
-Bella I knew あなた didn’t want me to leave so I made this choice myself I wanted あなた to have a big family…
-and die!
I 発言しました anger in my voice
-no Bella at first that I met あなた I wanted to ask Carlisle to change but that wasn’t faire to あなた that would have been selfish of me
-havnt あなた thought maybe I wanted what あなた didn’t want?!
-Bella I'm sorry I made a mistake! I tried to track あなた down but あなた kept disappearing from place to place………
-Bella I 愛 あなた I cant leave without あなた and these years that we were separate I thought I was dead1everyone tried to cheer me up but…….failed.
I snorted
-I guess Tanya didn’t
I 発言しました bitterly
-Bella I needed a distraction and rose was telling me stuff like I needed to forget あなた live my life…….and all thease crap.im sorry Bella really I cant leavr if あなた don’t take me back!
He cried and held my hand
While Alice was dragging me to see her family I was worried what will happen when I see edward I mean after all this years ,we moved on and stuff……..ooh I'm such an idiot what can happen??? Nothing can happed if he remmembers he left ME! I didn’t leave him! So what does he wants now?.....
I was thinking hard not realizing were she was dragging me when someone hugged me
-oh Bella I'm so happy to see あなた look at you!!! あなた havent changed at all!
Then he laughed his booming laugh,awww I truley miss Emmett he always made me laugh and made fun of me
-Bella honey,how are you?
Esme came closer and hugged me and started subing
-we missed you
Then Carlisle came and looked at me with concern in his eyes and hugged me lightly
-its great to see you
He 発言しました and patted my shoulder
Rosali just smiled at me and she seemed a little guilty about something that I didn’t know about.
Then jasper stepped closer and shook my hand this was the first time he touched me and then smiled
o.h m.y g.o.d
edaward!! What should I do?! What should I say too him………………then someone interupted my thoughts THANK GOD!!
-dear Bella! And Cullen's lets go to the hall!
Aro 発言しました and patted my shoulder and then took my hand probably 読書 my thoughts and then smiled and 発言しました
-your welcom!
Under his breath and left the room and I followed him to the hall
We sat there talking for a few mins and I was avoiding edward not even looking at him
I was mostly talking to Alice,Emmett,jasper,jane and alec and Carlisle and esme and avoiding edward as much as possible
-so Bella are あなた staying with us?!?
Jane asked me with hope in her eyes
-I think I am.
I 発言しました cause I don’t have any other place to stay
-Bella あなた can stay with us if あなた like または visit sometimes??
Esme 発言しました hope in her eyes too
-esme I don’t know …..um…maybe.
I smile at her and she touched my shoulder thanking me
Then Alice spoke
-oh Bella! Lets go and change your dress you’ve been sleeping in that thing for a 100 years!
Oh great Bella バービー again I sighed but she was right I should change as soon as possible
Alice clapped her hands and went to bring her bag
she came back in 1 sec and dragged me again back to my room when we got there she brought out a beautiful black dress
-wow its beautiful Alice!
-you like it?!
-yup!
-oh this is wounderful so try it on and come down ok??? I'm waiting!
She 発言しました and went outside I took off my old dress and took a hot シャワー and put my new dress on and thinked about a paire of black high heels and then wore them. I was brushing my haire when someone knocked on the door.
-come in.
I 発言しました thinking its Alice but someone else came in that I didn’t expected
-you look beautiful
Edward 発言しました and closed the door behind him
-what are あなた doing here?
I was shocked he is such an bas…..
-Bella I came to apologize..
I cut him off
-there's no need to
-Bella I'm sorry I thought if I leave あなた ,you will have a normal life…
-and I had a great life untill…….
Pain filled my eyes I really wanted to cry,….i really missed matt
-Bella don’t be sad
-I am sad! Edward!you always thinked about yourself あなた never cared about what I wanted!have あなた ever thought about talking to me and ask me if I wanted あなた to leave?huh? または あなた didn’t care what I wanted and just left me bleeding!maybe I wanted to be with あなた no matter what!i didn’t even care if I died the 日 jasper ロスト it!because I would have died happy knowing あなた loved me……….
I covered my eyes with my hands and started subbing edward came to comfort me but I flinched at his touch and he took a step back pain washing through his eyes.
-Bella I knew あなた didn’t want me to leave so I made this choice myself I wanted あなた to have a big family…
-and die!
I 発言しました anger in my voice
-no Bella at first that I met あなた I wanted to ask Carlisle to change but that wasn’t faire to あなた that would have been selfish of me
-havnt あなた thought maybe I wanted what あなた didn’t want?!
-Bella I'm sorry I made a mistake! I tried to track あなた down but あなた kept disappearing from place to place………
-Bella I 愛 あなた I cant leave without あなた and these years that we were separate I thought I was dead1everyone tried to cheer me up but…….failed.
I snorted
-I guess Tanya didn’t
I 発言しました bitterly
-Bella I needed a distraction and rose was telling me stuff like I needed to forget あなた live my life…….and all thease crap.im sorry Bella really I cant leavr if あなた don’t take me back!
He cried and held my hand
Is it possible to fall in 愛 with someone you’ve never met
Your only knowledge stemming from information you’ve seen または read
Before I knew of his existence I would have stated no
Yet the first time I saw him my ハート, 心 begged to never let go
It isn’t rational
または logical
Though 愛 rarely is
I can’t make my ハート, 心 stop wishing that I held his
And I know it's stupid and silly to believe
In some kind of fairy tale
The perfect prince for me
But every time I see that smile
I can’t help but feel
That one 日 we could share
A 愛 that is real
Your only knowledge stemming from information you’ve seen または read
Before I knew of his existence I would have stated no
Yet the first time I saw him my ハート, 心 begged to never let go
It isn’t rational
または logical
Though 愛 rarely is
I can’t make my ハート, 心 stop wishing that I held his
And I know it's stupid and silly to believe
In some kind of fairy tale
The perfect prince for me
But every time I see that smile
I can’t help but feel
That one 日 we could share
A 愛 that is real
ON STORMY CLOUDS
I’VE SEEN HIM SIT
THIS DARK エンジェル FAIR
WITH FOLDED AND SHIMMERING
GOSSAMER WINGS
AND MOON BEAMS IN HIS HAIR
WITH BURNING EYES
TO EARTH HE SLIDES
SEEKING TO FEEL THE GROUND
THEN SPREAD HIS
RAVEN FEATHERED WINGS
CASTING HIS MAGICK SHADOW ‘ROUND
THIS 天使 TOUCH
IS A COMFORTS SONG
SOFT AS A VELVET CLOAK
AND WHEN HE REACHES
TO RIGHT THE WRONG
HIS WORDS ARE FEELINGS SPOKE
ON HOOF AND WING, I WATCHED HIM SAIL
MY DARK エンジェル FAIR
TO SOME ARCANE ABODE
WE KNOW NOT WHERE
TILL HIS 次 ASSIGNMENT
AND THE FUTURE HAS BEEN FORETOLD
FOR THE LAST FLIGHT
THIS DARK エンジェル TAKES
IS A PIED-PIPERS GATHERING
FOR ALL THE SOULS HE’S TOUCHED
LISTENING TO THE SHADOWY
SONGS THEY’LL NOW SING
I’VE SEEN HIM SIT
THIS DARK エンジェル FAIR
WITH FOLDED AND SHIMMERING
GOSSAMER WINGS
AND MOON BEAMS IN HIS HAIR
WITH BURNING EYES
TO EARTH HE SLIDES
SEEKING TO FEEL THE GROUND
THEN SPREAD HIS
RAVEN FEATHERED WINGS
CASTING HIS MAGICK SHADOW ‘ROUND
THIS 天使 TOUCH
IS A COMFORTS SONG
SOFT AS A VELVET CLOAK
AND WHEN HE REACHES
TO RIGHT THE WRONG
HIS WORDS ARE FEELINGS SPOKE
ON HOOF AND WING, I WATCHED HIM SAIL
MY DARK エンジェル FAIR
TO SOME ARCANE ABODE
WE KNOW NOT WHERE
TILL HIS 次 ASSIGNMENT
AND THE FUTURE HAS BEEN FORETOLD
FOR THE LAST FLIGHT
THIS DARK エンジェル TAKES
IS A PIED-PIPERS GATHERING
FOR ALL THE SOULS HE’S TOUCHED
LISTENING TO THE SHADOWY
SONGS THEY’LL NOW SING
19 December
It's been almost a 年 since Freak died. For a while, people always used to say to me, "I'm sorry." I hated that. I yelled at them, "Feel sorry for Freak! I'm still alive!"
They shouldn't feel sorry for me. Freak taught me what it meant to walk tall. He tought me that remembering is only an invention of the mind, and if あなた try hard enough, あなた can remember anything. I try to remember everything Freak told me; and sometimes, it works. Then it slips away.
For a while after Freak died, I went back to being the critter hiding out in Down Under. Then one day, it hit me, and hard. If I had died, I wouldn't want Freak to do what I was doing. I would want him to continue Freak The Mighty.
And that made all the difference.
I try to make Freak proud; maybe I'm even succeeding. I just know that Freak changed the way I saw things, and I owe him that much; to keep Freak The Mighty alive.
-Max-
It's been almost a 年 since Freak died. For a while, people always used to say to me, "I'm sorry." I hated that. I yelled at them, "Feel sorry for Freak! I'm still alive!"
They shouldn't feel sorry for me. Freak taught me what it meant to walk tall. He tought me that remembering is only an invention of the mind, and if あなた try hard enough, あなた can remember anything. I try to remember everything Freak told me; and sometimes, it works. Then it slips away.
For a while after Freak died, I went back to being the critter hiding out in Down Under. Then one day, it hit me, and hard. If I had died, I wouldn't want Freak to do what I was doing. I would want him to continue Freak The Mighty.
And that made all the difference.
I try to make Freak proud; maybe I'm even succeeding. I just know that Freak changed the way I saw things, and I owe him that much; to keep Freak The Mighty alive.
-Max-
Me and Those
Ever noticed that in this life
Everyone wants あなた to do something,
または be something
That sometimes あなた don’t want to be?
They are those!
あなた know them!
あなた probably have those in your house.
They are those who expect あなた to take a path,
Even though,
Sometimes,
あなた don’t want to take.
They are those who expect あなた to be great,
Even though,
Sometimes,
あなた prefer to be small and humble.
But do あなた think,
For the slightest second,
That they care about that?
They don’t!
They are your parents,
Your grandparents,
Your Uncles and aunts,
That since あなた were born,
Came up with a path for あなた in life.
But know this,
And say it to yourself:
They are those, they matter,
But me is I,
And I’m the main character.
Sitting right where あなた are
あなた have no claim on me
I know my own path
I am my own guide
あなた are nothing to me
No matter how あなた try
What do あなた care?
If I'm not doing it right
I'm not following you
I know my own path
I am my own guide
あなた don't know me
No matter how あなた try
Why are あなた here?
あなた know I don't want you
I told あなた to leave me
I am my own path
I know my own guide
あなた can't mold me
No matter how あなた try
Why do I feel compelled to write angsty poetry? I swear I'm not even that angsty. lol Oh well, I hope someone out there enjoys it.