Genyva Salters
Cold Toes

Prologue
June 30, 2004
11:45 Open Door Eating

It’s the worst 日 in the world for a lunch date. I look like hell my light brown hair was frizzing like a poodle. Damn this humid summer, only in Texas the humidity 90% all the time. And this place is like a hut; all the hot air coming from the windows is blowing out the A/C. How is any one able to enjoy lunch when they are drinking the air?

I looked over to Ethan, who was making his way towards the table. We had been together so long in this little town. I 愛 it to death but I think its time to 移動する out. Greene, Texas has nothing to offer me in the medical field. Sure, the college has gotten me started but I want to be an oncologist, and its just not here. Both of my parents had cancer in there lifetime. I just wanted to help other people get through it.

“Hi Rachel, ” Ethan looked hansom, the humidity was gleaming off him. He lived here all his live, I, on the other hand, moved here my junior 年 in high school from San Francisco, California. It wasn’t just the way his perfectly tanned skin glistened in the humidity that made me fall for him, it was that dimple on his left cheek, the baby blue eyes with that messy black hair.

I stood to キッス my wonderful boyfriend, “Hello Ethan, how are you?” I never ask stupid 質問 like this. The world has been trained to answer ‘good’ no matter what. Then again I always ask stupid 質問 when I'm nervous. I have no idea what is going on today and I'm sweating like a pig before the slaughterhouse.

“I'm good, あなた look beautiful.” He smiled, and took a slip of water. Ha! I look beautiful, this dress is much too tight and I'm bloated. Can he not see the swear marks under my arms. I wasn’t looking all that great.

All through lunch Ethan was anxious. What could be oh his mind? He looked down in his lap and at his 食 when he would talk. He was debating telling me something. Oh God, I think he knows about Justin.

Justin was his best friend and 2 weeks 前 I accidentally slept with him. How do あなた accidentally sleep with あなた boyfriend’s best friend. We were at a party and I was drunk we had just got into a huge fight before. I left and went upstairs to a room and Justin was in there what was I suppose to do, talk about my feeling. I feel awful I want to tell him but its too much pain, I cant even thing about it.

“Ok I have to ask あなた something,” he insisted. I don't think he knows. He wouldn’t be so calm. He would be much angrier. My ハート, 心 began to pound when he reached over the 表, テーブル and held my hand. He looked in to my eyes. I didn’t know what I looked like right now. Frighten, nervous, panicked, they were all jumbled across my face. I curved my lips up into a smile, “What is it.” I 発言しました moving a strand of hair behind my ear with my empty hand.

“I want to 移動する to Delaware with you,” he 発言しました breathing heavily. “I know あなた applied there for medical school so I decided I want to go with あなた I mean we just graduated college, and I don’t need anymore school, so there is no point in staying here.” He went on about what his parents think, but I stopped listening.

He knew about Delaware. I didn’t even tell him, I wasn’t even sure if I got accepted to Harp Medical School. I had been looking at schools in the area and I applied to Marlon’s and Harrington’s just outside of the Huston metropolitan area hoping we could stay close to home. He was really going to be there for me. He was going to follow me in my hope to becoming a doctor. I felt my eyes water up, I bit my bottom lip and mid sentence, I leaned over the 表, テーブル and I kissed him. This was the sweetest thing any one has ever done for me.

“Wow I haven’t even gotten to the best part yet.” He mumbled as I sat back down. The best part, there was something better then this. What could be better following me wherever I decide to go? I lightly chucked and whipped the tear from my eye.

He stood up and kneeled beside me. Oh god no this was not happening “Rachel Brian, I 愛 あなた with all my heart. I will do anything for you. あなた are my life and I will follow あなた wherever あなた will go. Will あなた merry me?” he held my ring, the ring I had dreamed of since I was a girl. A ゴールド band with sliver trimming. All my life I hated diamonds and I have never worn any, he new that. New tears welled up in my hazels eyes.

Marriage. The word ran threw my ever fiber turning off all the responses in my body. I sat there in awe. Marriage. I had never thought of this before. I thought it would be an awful thing. My oldest sister had been married 3 time and she wasn’t even 45 yet, I'm 21, I still have my whole life ahead of me am I really ready for this. Marriage. The nerves in my head just couldn’t click to that word. It’s was a bad word. Marriage. I didn’t deserve to use this word. I cheated on him. Will this make it better? Marriage.

If I say yes then what, we stay here till the end of the summer and get married just before school. But if I say no then this will crush both of us. My brain is saying no and that I have so much ahead of me. I'm going to be a great doctor in 4 years why can I just wait. My ハート, 心 is saying you’ve waited long enough. But you’re too young and you’re not ready.

I had been with him since freshmen 年 in college. Yeah, it took 4 years to get to this 日 but I wasn’t ready for this. Do I say ‘not this 年 Ethan, try again in 06’ no I can’t this was it I had to say something now. For better または worst. Richer unto poor. I do. I do 愛 あなた so lets go make a public statement.

The color was draining out of his face “Rachel?” he 発言しました slightly blushing. I'm not ready I don't have my answer yet I need a 分 to think.

I ロスト all connection to my ハート, 心 and brain, my lips took over instead. “Yes Ethan Ellison I would 愛 to merry you” relief took over his whole body as he placed the ring on my left hand.
My brain was screaming idiot and my ハート, 心 発言しました if あなた must. I let out a big breath and hugged my fiancé.