I had no sense of time passing as I stared at the wall. I couldn't move, couldn't relax the tight ball that my body was curled into. I tried to think of how long I had stayed in this position. I guessed it had been about two months. It had been two months since I last went hunting. I had gone alone, and when I had come back I had collapsed on the floor, unable to move. I wondered vaguely why I didn't feel thirsty. Then I dismissed the thought, for I couldn't feel anything anymore. I just felt numb all over, except in the one place where I would have welcomed the numbness: my mind.
I could only feel three emotions as I laid there: anger, sadness, and regret. Anger- at me- for hurting Bella so bad. Sadness, because I missed Bella もっと見る than words could ever explain. Regret. Regret for leaving her. I wished I hadn't...
I WISHED I HADN'T!!! The words screamed in my mind. Suddenly, all kinds of emotions broke through an invisible barrier and flooded my mind. Love, despair, sentiment, agony, worry, concern, caring, ...love. Suddenly, I sat up. I realized I didn't want to be in this room...alone...without Bella anymore. I was done. I was giving up. I stood up. I was going back to my love, life, my purpose...I was going back to my Bella.
I was out of the room in a flash. I wanted so bad to be back with her, to hold her, to stroke her, to キッス her. Did she even 愛 me anymore? Would she forgive me? As I ran, I thought of how much danger Bella must have been in while I had been gone. My little danger magnet...could she have lasted this long without me? Was she even alive? The thought frightened me beyond words and I ran faster.
I was almost to Washington によって the sun went down, still obscured behind clouds. A very bleak 日 turned into a hopeful night. I knew that it would not be long before I reached her.
I could feel myself getting closer to her with every speedy step I took. Anticipation swelled within me. I couldn't get to her fast enough...
I ran into Forks at about nine o'clock. I was at her house after a minute. I didn't hesitate, running quickly behind the house and scaling the wall. I clamped my hands on the windowsill and cautiously peeked through the window into her room.
Sure enough, my Bella was there. She was a little different than I remembered...she was skinnier, paler, もっと見る tired-looking. There were dark circles under her eyes. And she looked sadder as well.
She was not alone in her room. I could not recognize who it was at first, but then it hit me... it was Jacob Black, that filthy werewolf. He and Bella were sitting on her bed, talking. They laughed a lot... too much, I thought. Too much for my liking. However, I noticed that when Bella laughed, it didn't touch her eyes. I remembered how when she used to laugh, her eyes would light up and sparkle and melt my heart. But now when she laughed, her eyes remained dull, blank, and... dead.
I could hear Jacob's thoughts. "I think she's finally coming around...but she still looks kind of sad. I wonder when she'll finally get over him..." I tried to tune out the rest of his thoughts, to just focus on Bella, but his mind just wouldn't shut up. It was obvious, hearing his stupid thoughts, that he was in 愛 with my Bella. I wondered if she felt the same way, and was angered yet again that I couldn't read her mind.
As I sat staring at her, I noticed a small scratch on her arm. Suddenly, I was maddened at myself again, because I knew if I had been there with her, I could have prevented whatever had caused the scratch, and she wouldn't have gone through that pain. I was absolutely furious at myself.
Finally the dog left. As he hugged her good-bye, I felt the sudden urge to tear him apart, piece によって piece. Jealousy paralyzed me.
At last Bella was alone. I watched her as she sighed, and laid down on her bed, on 上, ページのトップへ of the covers. Her blank eyes stared at the ceiling. Her face was expressionless. After a moment I couldn't stand it any longer. I opened the window slowly, and stepped into her room. She didn't seem to see me.
I slowly walked to her side. She still stared at the ceiling. I slowly reached out and touched her arm, and at the same time, I spoke. "Bella," I 発言しました softly. I watched as her eyes stopped staring at the ceiling, and focused on me. Her expression was horrified. She moaned saying, "Oh no, not again!" Her voice was pained. "They're getting worse," she 発言しました to herself. She shook her head slowly.
"What's getting worse, Bella?" I asked gently. She stared at me with a pained expression. "The hallucinations," she finally said, quietly.
What??? She'd been having hallucinations??? Oh, how much pain I had caused her!!!
"Bella," I 発言しました hastily, "This isn't a hallucination. I'm really here." She didn't look convinced. "Could your hallucination Edwards do this?" I asked her, as I slid my arms under her and pulled her up, holding her against my chest. Her eyes grew wide. She shook her head again, slowly, her eyes never leaving mine. "No," she whispered. And she threw her arms around me.
I held her tighter, as tight as I dared. She buried her head into my chest. I heard her ハート, 心 beating frantically. I smiled to myself and kissed the 上, ページのトップへ of her head. She just tightened her hold around me, as if she never wanted to let me go. The thought made me feel happier than I had ever felt before.
After a while I sat down on the edge of her bed. I kept her cradled against my chest. "Bella," I said, "words can never express how sorry I am. I should have never left you, I wish I hadn't. I was wrong... I can't imagine the pain I put あなた through. I know I just came back to you, but I need to ask あなた something. I can't wait a moment longer." She pulled her face from my chest and stared at me, her eyes gleaming. "Bella, will あなた be mine again?" I saw a smile light up her face and touch her eyes. They lit up again, sparkling and dancing in the light. "Yes, Edward," she whispered, "Of course I will."
The feeling that surged through me then was stronger than anything I'd felt before. A million emotions swam through me, relief being the main one. I held her tighter, and bent my head down to キッス her cheek. I pressed my face into her hair, and sighed contentedly.
Finally, I asked her, after a little bit of hesitation, but with true curiosity, "So, how many near-death experiences have あなた had while I've been gone?" This seemed to be a 質問 she didn't want to answer. She finally did though, reluctantly. "Just two. I was almost killed によって Laurent, and I almost drowned." She flushed. "Oh yeah, and one of Jacob's werewolf friend tried to attack me," she added. There seemed to be something she was keeping from me. I noticed a faded scar on her forehead. I shuddered. I could have prevented all these things, and she was almost...killed...because of me. Yet again.
My Bella sure was a little danger magnet. I was never going to leave her again.
I could only feel three emotions as I laid there: anger, sadness, and regret. Anger- at me- for hurting Bella so bad. Sadness, because I missed Bella もっと見る than words could ever explain. Regret. Regret for leaving her. I wished I hadn't...
I WISHED I HADN'T!!! The words screamed in my mind. Suddenly, all kinds of emotions broke through an invisible barrier and flooded my mind. Love, despair, sentiment, agony, worry, concern, caring, ...love. Suddenly, I sat up. I realized I didn't want to be in this room...alone...without Bella anymore. I was done. I was giving up. I stood up. I was going back to my love, life, my purpose...I was going back to my Bella.
I was out of the room in a flash. I wanted so bad to be back with her, to hold her, to stroke her, to キッス her. Did she even 愛 me anymore? Would she forgive me? As I ran, I thought of how much danger Bella must have been in while I had been gone. My little danger magnet...could she have lasted this long without me? Was she even alive? The thought frightened me beyond words and I ran faster.
I was almost to Washington によって the sun went down, still obscured behind clouds. A very bleak 日 turned into a hopeful night. I knew that it would not be long before I reached her.
I could feel myself getting closer to her with every speedy step I took. Anticipation swelled within me. I couldn't get to her fast enough...
I ran into Forks at about nine o'clock. I was at her house after a minute. I didn't hesitate, running quickly behind the house and scaling the wall. I clamped my hands on the windowsill and cautiously peeked through the window into her room.
Sure enough, my Bella was there. She was a little different than I remembered...she was skinnier, paler, もっと見る tired-looking. There were dark circles under her eyes. And she looked sadder as well.
She was not alone in her room. I could not recognize who it was at first, but then it hit me... it was Jacob Black, that filthy werewolf. He and Bella were sitting on her bed, talking. They laughed a lot... too much, I thought. Too much for my liking. However, I noticed that when Bella laughed, it didn't touch her eyes. I remembered how when she used to laugh, her eyes would light up and sparkle and melt my heart. But now when she laughed, her eyes remained dull, blank, and... dead.
I could hear Jacob's thoughts. "I think she's finally coming around...but she still looks kind of sad. I wonder when she'll finally get over him..." I tried to tune out the rest of his thoughts, to just focus on Bella, but his mind just wouldn't shut up. It was obvious, hearing his stupid thoughts, that he was in 愛 with my Bella. I wondered if she felt the same way, and was angered yet again that I couldn't read her mind.
As I sat staring at her, I noticed a small scratch on her arm. Suddenly, I was maddened at myself again, because I knew if I had been there with her, I could have prevented whatever had caused the scratch, and she wouldn't have gone through that pain. I was absolutely furious at myself.
Finally the dog left. As he hugged her good-bye, I felt the sudden urge to tear him apart, piece によって piece. Jealousy paralyzed me.
At last Bella was alone. I watched her as she sighed, and laid down on her bed, on 上, ページのトップへ of the covers. Her blank eyes stared at the ceiling. Her face was expressionless. After a moment I couldn't stand it any longer. I opened the window slowly, and stepped into her room. She didn't seem to see me.
I slowly walked to her side. She still stared at the ceiling. I slowly reached out and touched her arm, and at the same time, I spoke. "Bella," I 発言しました softly. I watched as her eyes stopped staring at the ceiling, and focused on me. Her expression was horrified. She moaned saying, "Oh no, not again!" Her voice was pained. "They're getting worse," she 発言しました to herself. She shook her head slowly.
"What's getting worse, Bella?" I asked gently. She stared at me with a pained expression. "The hallucinations," she finally said, quietly.
What??? She'd been having hallucinations??? Oh, how much pain I had caused her!!!
"Bella," I 発言しました hastily, "This isn't a hallucination. I'm really here." She didn't look convinced. "Could your hallucination Edwards do this?" I asked her, as I slid my arms under her and pulled her up, holding her against my chest. Her eyes grew wide. She shook her head again, slowly, her eyes never leaving mine. "No," she whispered. And she threw her arms around me.
I held her tighter, as tight as I dared. She buried her head into my chest. I heard her ハート, 心 beating frantically. I smiled to myself and kissed the 上, ページのトップへ of her head. She just tightened her hold around me, as if she never wanted to let me go. The thought made me feel happier than I had ever felt before.
After a while I sat down on the edge of her bed. I kept her cradled against my chest. "Bella," I said, "words can never express how sorry I am. I should have never left you, I wish I hadn't. I was wrong... I can't imagine the pain I put あなた through. I know I just came back to you, but I need to ask あなた something. I can't wait a moment longer." She pulled her face from my chest and stared at me, her eyes gleaming. "Bella, will あなた be mine again?" I saw a smile light up her face and touch her eyes. They lit up again, sparkling and dancing in the light. "Yes, Edward," she whispered, "Of course I will."
The feeling that surged through me then was stronger than anything I'd felt before. A million emotions swam through me, relief being the main one. I held her tighter, and bent my head down to キッス her cheek. I pressed my face into her hair, and sighed contentedly.
Finally, I asked her, after a little bit of hesitation, but with true curiosity, "So, how many near-death experiences have あなた had while I've been gone?" This seemed to be a 質問 she didn't want to answer. She finally did though, reluctantly. "Just two. I was almost killed によって Laurent, and I almost drowned." She flushed. "Oh yeah, and one of Jacob's werewolf friend tried to attack me," she added. There seemed to be something she was keeping from me. I noticed a faded scar on her forehead. I shuddered. I could have prevented all these things, and she was almost...killed...because of me. Yet again.
My Bella sure was a little danger magnet. I was never going to leave her again.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what あなた say,
what あなた do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how あなた talk to me,
how あなた treat me,
what あなた think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what あなた say,
what あなた do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how あなた talk to me,
how あなた treat me,
what あなた think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
jamie is a beautiful girl. she has long ,blond hair,she has a ピンク シャツ and dark blue jeans. she was the cousin of lindsey.
she was walking her dog,sweetie,when,jamie tripped on a rock. she thn fell into the arms of trent.
'hell," he said.
"thnks for saving me,abd hi."
"you okay?"
"yeah,but,i,need to rest,and my house is pretty far from here.
"you can com,e over. i live across."
"thanks,um,"
"trent."
"trent."
they went to trents house,and they went up to his rom
"and this is my room."
i had a gray wall,with gutiar poster,and a bed.closet,drawers and other things.
"wow,thats a cool room."
"thanks."
"listen,do あなた have a girlfreind?"
"no,why?'
"i dont,do あなた wanna go out?"
"okay."
"so.."
then trent kissed jamie,and thats hat went on for the rest of the day.
she was walking her dog,sweetie,when,jamie tripped on a rock. she thn fell into the arms of trent.
'hell," he said.
"thnks for saving me,abd hi."
"you okay?"
"yeah,but,i,need to rest,and my house is pretty far from here.
"you can com,e over. i live across."
"thanks,um,"
"trent."
"trent."
they went to trents house,and they went up to his rom
"and this is my room."
i had a gray wall,with gutiar poster,and a bed.closet,drawers and other things.
"wow,thats a cool room."
"thanks."
"listen,do あなた have a girlfreind?"
"no,why?'
"i dont,do あなた wanna go out?"
"okay."
"so.."
then trent kissed jamie,and thats hat went on for the rest of the day.