Looking around the dark, inviting room, thinking of life. It’s funny how あなた get thrown into things. The room あなた are in, for whatever reason. The things around you. あなた must’ve came to like them in some way, how though? Did it capture interest? Is it something a friend has gave you?
How did I get to this point? Feeling fiction from 読書 または 書く is life, instead of my own. Wanting to be cast as characters in stories, but not my own life. Anxiety grows to be もっと見る like fictitious characters. I don’t understand my own life these days. All jumbled up, and disconnecting.
Anxiety like panic attacks hit me randomly. Especially when thinking of fiction. ハート, 心 races, nausea, dizzy spells, sometimes hallucinations, mainly when up a three a.m.
Closed-off, grumpy, thoughtful, manipulative, private, shy, ignorance despising, hypocritical just a few words to describe me. Everyone can be hypocritical. We are all so cruel in our own way.
No one can comfort me, nor do I feel anyone will listen. The ones who would, I’m terrified to talk to. I’ve driven myself to the point I feel like 愛 isn’t real, and I’m silenced, and broken. I’m a fake, supportive, third wheel. I’m a sad head case that’s why I refuse to unload on anyone. I seem pathetic, even to myself.
I want to sob, yet I can’t seem to find tears anymore. They’ve evaporated. A few people make my ハート, 心 crack when my eyes fall upon them. もっと見る tears gone. My hate toward 愛 grows.
A close friend, she jumps on me for treating guys as if they’re disposable. I know she is right. Why do I? No one holds interest, commitment problems, scared, annoyance, I don’t know! I don’t know if I believe in love, または not. I want to, but its risky.
What is love? An orgasm with a lover? An I 愛 あなた from your mother? A pat on the back from your best friend forever? A peck on the cheek from the boy 次 door, または the last キッス on the lips from an older couple saying goodbye? But there is no goodbye. For, we 愛 even in death. There is no till death do we part.
Life will neve ber fully comprehendible. Never an answer to the why. Live, and don’t wait to die! Push it back, for it will cause worry, and anxiety. Live with happiness, not fear, and think about this for you’ve never thought of it before. Though, its has been 発言しました more, and more.
You only live once. あなた have a good forty years at the least. Four decades if your lucky. If your really lucky, longer. Then, your gone, no house, no friends, no air, no body, nothing, but your soul, and the afterlife. This is it, so make it count.
No. I refuse to let myself be roped back into this…must...break…free…before...all….hell…breaks loose……….
Black…It’s all black…
How did I get to this point? Feeling fiction from 読書 または 書く is life, instead of my own. Wanting to be cast as characters in stories, but not my own life. Anxiety grows to be もっと見る like fictitious characters. I don’t understand my own life these days. All jumbled up, and disconnecting.
Anxiety like panic attacks hit me randomly. Especially when thinking of fiction. ハート, 心 races, nausea, dizzy spells, sometimes hallucinations, mainly when up a three a.m.
Closed-off, grumpy, thoughtful, manipulative, private, shy, ignorance despising, hypocritical just a few words to describe me. Everyone can be hypocritical. We are all so cruel in our own way.
No one can comfort me, nor do I feel anyone will listen. The ones who would, I’m terrified to talk to. I’ve driven myself to the point I feel like 愛 isn’t real, and I’m silenced, and broken. I’m a fake, supportive, third wheel. I’m a sad head case that’s why I refuse to unload on anyone. I seem pathetic, even to myself.
I want to sob, yet I can’t seem to find tears anymore. They’ve evaporated. A few people make my ハート, 心 crack when my eyes fall upon them. もっと見る tears gone. My hate toward 愛 grows.
A close friend, she jumps on me for treating guys as if they’re disposable. I know she is right. Why do I? No one holds interest, commitment problems, scared, annoyance, I don’t know! I don’t know if I believe in love, または not. I want to, but its risky.
What is love? An orgasm with a lover? An I 愛 あなた from your mother? A pat on the back from your best friend forever? A peck on the cheek from the boy 次 door, または the last キッス on the lips from an older couple saying goodbye? But there is no goodbye. For, we 愛 even in death. There is no till death do we part.
Life will neve ber fully comprehendible. Never an answer to the why. Live, and don’t wait to die! Push it back, for it will cause worry, and anxiety. Live with happiness, not fear, and think about this for you’ve never thought of it before. Though, its has been 発言しました more, and more.
You only live once. あなた have a good forty years at the least. Four decades if your lucky. If your really lucky, longer. Then, your gone, no house, no friends, no air, no body, nothing, but your soul, and the afterlife. This is it, so make it count.
No. I refuse to let myself be roped back into this…must...break…free…before...all….hell…breaks loose……….
Black…It’s all black…
she unloads his gun
She and he waits for this
he releases his love
In blue and green orbs
she gives him もっと見る and more
A million miles away
A million years girl
In a black woven chest
he digs his nails deep
She trusts in him for what he does
live in a house in the suburbs
He kisses the pain with blood and light
sleeping it off in the morning
A million miles away
A million years girl
In her world of his
she unloads his gun
In a world of his
she covers the sun
A million miles away
A million years
A million years girl
Well あなた see
I'm not myself anymore
Well あなた can see
What I've done
Blinded myself
ロスト my direction
In this times
That are getting cold
In this moment
To behold
And shine
Here's a poem
For all the loved ones
Here's a grave
For all the dead
Here's the oxygen
For all the living
Here's a tissue
For tears that are shed
I'm ロスト now
I'm here now
I'm ロスト here
によって Myself
I'm gone now
I'm ロスト again
I'm lost
によって myself
Well take your houses
Take your money
Take the things あなた don't need
Live the life
You've always wanted
And then burn the memories
Take the good times and the bad
Take the happy maybe the sad
And turn, turn yourself around
I'm ロスト in my own fairytale
Where I'm the winner
All over again
in my daydreams I've ロスト all hope
All ambition
Looking and losing an only friend
I'm ロスト now
I'm here now
I'm ロスト here
によって Myself
I'm gone now
I'm ロスト again
I'm lost
によって myself
I'm lost
I'm here
I'm ロスト here
によって myself
I'm ロスト now
I'm here now
I'm ロスト here
によって myself
によって myself
I'm not myself anymore
Well あなた can see
What I've done
Blinded myself
ロスト my direction
In this times
That are getting cold
In this moment
To behold
And shine
Here's a poem
For all the loved ones
Here's a grave
For all the dead
Here's the oxygen
For all the living
Here's a tissue
For tears that are shed
I'm ロスト now
I'm here now
I'm ロスト here
によって Myself
I'm gone now
I'm ロスト again
I'm lost
によって myself
Well take your houses
Take your money
Take the things あなた don't need
Live the life
You've always wanted
And then burn the memories
Take the good times and the bad
Take the happy maybe the sad
And turn, turn yourself around
I'm ロスト in my own fairytale
Where I'm the winner
All over again
in my daydreams I've ロスト all hope
All ambition
Looking and losing an only friend
I'm ロスト now
I'm here now
I'm ロスト here
によって Myself
I'm gone now
I'm ロスト again
I'm lost
によって myself
I'm lost
I'm here
I'm ロスト here
によって myself
I'm ロスト now
I'm here now
I'm ロスト here
によって myself
によって myself
An エンジェル
A Demon
A battle
Raging in
The night sky
Asphyxiation
A sweet sensation
No one knows the
Beckoning thought
In the bounds of your
Mind
The エンジェル knelt down
On the cold winters ground
Spoke a soft prayer
Looked into the empty night air
Saw an image of himself
Asphyxiation
A sweet sensation
No one knows the
Beckoning thought
In the bounds of your
Mind
The demon summoned all his courage
And broke through the cage
He found no reason
He drew back his army
And walked to the エンジェル in harmony
With a fanged smile
From the demon
A wicked gleam
From the angel
They made their truths
Asphyxiation
A sweet sensation
No one knows the
Beckoning thought
In the bounds of your
Mind
No battle
No challenge
Peace
Amongst two forces
Now bonded
Inseparable
A Demon
A battle
Raging in
The night sky
Asphyxiation
A sweet sensation
No one knows the
Beckoning thought
In the bounds of your
Mind
The エンジェル knelt down
On the cold winters ground
Spoke a soft prayer
Looked into the empty night air
Saw an image of himself
Asphyxiation
A sweet sensation
No one knows the
Beckoning thought
In the bounds of your
Mind
The demon summoned all his courage
And broke through the cage
He found no reason
He drew back his army
And walked to the エンジェル in harmony
With a fanged smile
From the demon
A wicked gleam
From the angel
They made their truths
Asphyxiation
A sweet sensation
No one knows the
Beckoning thought
In the bounds of your
Mind
No battle
No challenge
Peace
Amongst two forces
Now bonded
Inseparable
I need you
from the first moment i saw you
I need you
because you're the air i breathe
I need you
because you're the water i drink
I need you
because just the thought of seeing あなた makes me want to get out of bed
I need you
because あなた can with just one smile make my whole world starts to turning again
I need you
because あなた make me wake up from my the most horrible nightmare without fear
I need you
because あなた can give me hope when i don't have one
I need you
because even if I'm at the bottom,you're always there to help me stand up
I need you
because in this cruel world あなた keep me alive
I need you
because i know that you'll never give up from me
I need you
because when no one believed in me あなた were there to stand up for me
I need you
because you're everything for me
But the most important thing why i need あなた is
because I'll always 愛 you!
This was in my head so i just thought to write it
from the first moment i saw you
I need you
because you're the air i breathe
I need you
because you're the water i drink
I need you
because just the thought of seeing あなた makes me want to get out of bed
I need you
because あなた can with just one smile make my whole world starts to turning again
I need you
because あなた make me wake up from my the most horrible nightmare without fear
I need you
because あなた can give me hope when i don't have one
I need you
because even if I'm at the bottom,you're always there to help me stand up
I need you
because in this cruel world あなた keep me alive
I need you
because i know that you'll never give up from me
I need you
because when no one believed in me あなた were there to stand up for me
I need you
because you're everything for me
But the most important thing why i need あなた is
because I'll always 愛 you!
This was in my head so i just thought to write it