"Good mornin'," Micah 発言しました as he arrived at the park; our usual meeting place. I stopped the スイング just in time before I nearly kicked him in the face. We laughed.
"Sorry," I giggled. "Hey." He smiled and took a シート, 座席 in the スイング 次 to me. My cheeks flushed as I thought over yesterday. I just had to know. "Um, Micah? What'd あなた want to tell me yesterday? I mean, before I had to leave." He furrowed his eyebrows, then frowned.
"Huh? Oh... It was nothing."
"Ok," I nodded.
We soon ロスト track of time, and were almost late for school. Since we couldn't take the long way, we had to take the faster way, which passed in front of my house. Micah stopped.
"Is that your Dad?" he asked worriedly.
"Uh, no. He... likes intense crime shows, and he's hard of hearing. It's just the TV." Micah pursed his lips, like he didn't believe me. I tried to keep my breathing under control, maybe then I wouldn't blush so much.
"Alessa, if there was something wrong, you'd tell me right?" he said. The way he stood there, and his saddened face, he looked so... helpless. And vulnerable. Even though he was much taller than me, he looked like the smallest pain would send him breaking into a million pieces. I wanted to hug him close and never let anything hurt him. No one had ever been concerned about me, and it was a warming feeling.
But I still couldn't tell him.
"Yes, I will," I said. He opened his mouth to speak again, but I was faster. "C'mon. We're gonna be late."
***
During lunch, Micah and I were at our usual table, when someone called me. I looked over to the 表, テーブル across the aisle.
"Hey, エモ kid!" called Gabby. She waved happily when I scowled. Also at her 表, テーブル were some もっと見る of the "popular" kids, along with Bryant and Aubrey. I ducked my head to stare at my lunch tray.
"What do they want?" Micah asked in a hushed whisper.
"Who knows," I said, still keeping my gaze down. I heard the sound of heels walking across tiles, and my hands clenched into fists. "Dear God... tell me she isn't coming!" Micah didn't speak for a while.
"You know I don't like to lie," he 発言しました after a while. I felt a tap on my shoulder. Reluctantly I looked up, to see Gabby peering down on me. She smiled her bright, fake smile. She reached down and took my hand, and I winced from the coldness of her skin. She placed something in my hand and folded my fingers over it. It poked out through the sides, but all I could tell was it was plastic and white.
"I thought あなた might want this," she 発言しました in a baby doll voice. She stood there, waiting for me to open my hand. I did, and I grimaced as I saw it was a plastic knife. How original; the old "emo's cut themselves" line. I wanted to spit in her face, but the only thing I seemed capable of doing now was cry. A few tears made their way down my cheek, and I gripped the ナイフ in my fist. I wanted so badly to turn to Micah and ask, "how much あなた wanna bet this ナイフ could break skin?" and then stab the heck out of Gabby.
But that would be mean.
Micah stood up then, and grabbed the ナイフ out of my hands. He threw it across the room, possibly hitting an innocent student.
"Leave her the fuck alone," he 発言しました sternly. The intensity of his voice scared even me. Gabby regained her composure fast, and smirked.
"Huh... あなた guys make a cute couple... You're both losers!" she laughed and practically skipped away. I stood up and walked away as well, but out of the cafeteria. I went to the bathroom, and locked myself in a stall. It wasn't the best place to cry, but at least no one would see me.
A while later there was a knock on the door.
"Alessa?" It was Micah. Hearing his voice in the place, of all places, was strange. Strange enough to get me to silence my cries for a while.
"Micah? What're あなた doing in here? This is the girl's bathroom."
"I know! So would あなた please come out?! I'm freaking out here!" he 発言しました hurriedly. I laughed a little and came out. We both went and sat on the floor in the hallway. "Thanks," he said. I smiled a little. "You ok?" he asked. I shrugged. "Sorry I didn't パンチ Gabby... I just can't hit girls," he smiled. I laughed as one of the last tears flowed down my cheek. He reached up and wiped the tear away with his thumb, and left his hand under my chin. He tilted my head up so that I had to look at him. I noticed for the first time how bright his smile was. And his eyes were a brilliant blue...
I tipped my chin up, unhooking it from his gentle grasp, and turned to stare at the carpet. We sat in silence for a while, all thanks to my insecurity. I kicked myself mentally. I didn't know if I loved him または not. He was really sweet and nice... like a brother. The thought of dating a brother revolted me; it just wasn't right. Hopefully he'd just forget about it and we could just be friends, because I didn't want to deal with this.
At all.
"Sorry," I giggled. "Hey." He smiled and took a シート, 座席 in the スイング 次 to me. My cheeks flushed as I thought over yesterday. I just had to know. "Um, Micah? What'd あなた want to tell me yesterday? I mean, before I had to leave." He furrowed his eyebrows, then frowned.
"Huh? Oh... It was nothing."
"Ok," I nodded.
We soon ロスト track of time, and were almost late for school. Since we couldn't take the long way, we had to take the faster way, which passed in front of my house. Micah stopped.
"Is that your Dad?" he asked worriedly.
"Uh, no. He... likes intense crime shows, and he's hard of hearing. It's just the TV." Micah pursed his lips, like he didn't believe me. I tried to keep my breathing under control, maybe then I wouldn't blush so much.
"Alessa, if there was something wrong, you'd tell me right?" he said. The way he stood there, and his saddened face, he looked so... helpless. And vulnerable. Even though he was much taller than me, he looked like the smallest pain would send him breaking into a million pieces. I wanted to hug him close and never let anything hurt him. No one had ever been concerned about me, and it was a warming feeling.
But I still couldn't tell him.
"Yes, I will," I said. He opened his mouth to speak again, but I was faster. "C'mon. We're gonna be late."
***
During lunch, Micah and I were at our usual table, when someone called me. I looked over to the 表, テーブル across the aisle.
"Hey, エモ kid!" called Gabby. She waved happily when I scowled. Also at her 表, テーブル were some もっと見る of the "popular" kids, along with Bryant and Aubrey. I ducked my head to stare at my lunch tray.
"What do they want?" Micah asked in a hushed whisper.
"Who knows," I said, still keeping my gaze down. I heard the sound of heels walking across tiles, and my hands clenched into fists. "Dear God... tell me she isn't coming!" Micah didn't speak for a while.
"You know I don't like to lie," he 発言しました after a while. I felt a tap on my shoulder. Reluctantly I looked up, to see Gabby peering down on me. She smiled her bright, fake smile. She reached down and took my hand, and I winced from the coldness of her skin. She placed something in my hand and folded my fingers over it. It poked out through the sides, but all I could tell was it was plastic and white.
"I thought あなた might want this," she 発言しました in a baby doll voice. She stood there, waiting for me to open my hand. I did, and I grimaced as I saw it was a plastic knife. How original; the old "emo's cut themselves" line. I wanted to spit in her face, but the only thing I seemed capable of doing now was cry. A few tears made their way down my cheek, and I gripped the ナイフ in my fist. I wanted so badly to turn to Micah and ask, "how much あなた wanna bet this ナイフ could break skin?" and then stab the heck out of Gabby.
But that would be mean.
Micah stood up then, and grabbed the ナイフ out of my hands. He threw it across the room, possibly hitting an innocent student.
"Leave her the fuck alone," he 発言しました sternly. The intensity of his voice scared even me. Gabby regained her composure fast, and smirked.
"Huh... あなた guys make a cute couple... You're both losers!" she laughed and practically skipped away. I stood up and walked away as well, but out of the cafeteria. I went to the bathroom, and locked myself in a stall. It wasn't the best place to cry, but at least no one would see me.
A while later there was a knock on the door.
"Alessa?" It was Micah. Hearing his voice in the place, of all places, was strange. Strange enough to get me to silence my cries for a while.
"Micah? What're あなた doing in here? This is the girl's bathroom."
"I know! So would あなた please come out?! I'm freaking out here!" he 発言しました hurriedly. I laughed a little and came out. We both went and sat on the floor in the hallway. "Thanks," he said. I smiled a little. "You ok?" he asked. I shrugged. "Sorry I didn't パンチ Gabby... I just can't hit girls," he smiled. I laughed as one of the last tears flowed down my cheek. He reached up and wiped the tear away with his thumb, and left his hand under my chin. He tilted my head up so that I had to look at him. I noticed for the first time how bright his smile was. And his eyes were a brilliant blue...
I tipped my chin up, unhooking it from his gentle grasp, and turned to stare at the carpet. We sat in silence for a while, all thanks to my insecurity. I kicked myself mentally. I didn't know if I loved him または not. He was really sweet and nice... like a brother. The thought of dating a brother revolted me; it just wasn't right. Hopefully he'd just forget about it and we could just be friends, because I didn't want to deal with this.
At all.
now standing on last 日 of 年
i look back and see smiles and tears
somedays it was new too
somedays our mailboxes were filled with greetings
greetings of arrival of 01/01/2011
日 によって 日 we got used to
night によって night we got close
so many starts so many ends
so many left so many got friends
learnt so much taught so much
learnt to smile learnt to give
learnt to die learnt to live
with loads of hugs and kisses
bye bye 2011
次 time we'll say
"damn our ハート, 心 still misses
THE 2011"
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.they wanted a longer 記事 :P
i look back and see smiles and tears
somedays it was new too
somedays our mailboxes were filled with greetings
greetings of arrival of 01/01/2011
日 によって 日 we got used to
night によって night we got close
so many starts so many ends
so many left so many got friends
learnt so much taught so much
learnt to smile learnt to give
learnt to die learnt to live
with loads of hugs and kisses
bye bye 2011
次 time we'll say
"damn our ハート, 心 still misses
THE 2011"
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.they wanted a longer 記事 :P
What do あなた want in life?,
That's a good 質問 I've been asking since God knows when,
I'm a teenager,proudly
Being a teenager isn't that bad, believe me
It isn't like クリスマス in for many years again...7 years,
7 good years,
Imagine...,
It takes the grace of God not to do anything rash that あなた would regret for the rest if your life.
Thinking,
Asking yourself the same question,#"How could I've been so stupid?"
Stupid? that doesn't qualify it,
Its もっと見る like a gigantic fool,
Sorry the bible told me not to use that word on humans,
I guess stupid would do then,
But I'm happy not to be stupid then'
Like I 発言しました it takes the grace of God,
What do I want in life?,
To be able to "dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to en-quire in His temple"- Psalm 27:4
That's a good 質問 I've been asking since God knows when,
I'm a teenager,proudly
Being a teenager isn't that bad, believe me
It isn't like クリスマス in for many years again...7 years,
7 good years,
Imagine...,
It takes the grace of God not to do anything rash that あなた would regret for the rest if your life.
Thinking,
Asking yourself the same question,#"How could I've been so stupid?"
Stupid? that doesn't qualify it,
Its もっと見る like a gigantic fool,
Sorry the bible told me not to use that word on humans,
I guess stupid would do then,
But I'm happy not to be stupid then'
Like I 発言しました it takes the grace of God,
What do I want in life?,
To be able to "dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to en-quire in His temple"- Psalm 27:4