When I was younger I didn't know how 魚 was prepared and when I went into a 魚 market I saw a dead 魚 and it's eyes was looking at me. Now when I was younger I thought it was disgusting. I somewhat traumatized myself from that incident. And then when I was watching Discovery Channel one time I saw 魚 guts I didn't like looking at it at all.
I feel like I am a horrible person. Whenever I do something nice for someone, I'm really just doing it for myself. I expect something in return. I'm horribly selfish and obsessed with material objects. I'm manipulative and I usually don't even feel bad about it. BUT, at least I can admit it.
