After breakfast, John and Caryn sat in the living room. John asked Caryn for his guitar. He started strumming it, and Caryn started 歌う along to the melody. John smiled and said, "Caryn, あなた never told me あなた could sing." She said, "I'm a decent singer, I guess." He said, "I think you're a great singer." She said, "Thanks. I never considered it. Besides, I'm an artist at heart. You're the musician, John." He smiled and said, "Music is something I've always had. I didn't have a ton of フレンズ growing up, so 音楽 has always been like therapy for me." Caryn said, "I understand, John." He said, "I'll let あなた in on a secret. Promise あなた won't tell anyone?" She said, "Of course." He said, "Not long after my uncle died, I contemplated suicide. I just felt like I had ロスト so many people I loved, and I just didn't want to live anymore." Caryn said, "That's so sad. What made あなた change your mind, John?" He said, "Music made me change my mind. As I was getting ready to drive my car off the bridge, I heard this song called 'Live Forever'. The lyrics just struck me: 'Maybe I just wanna fly, wanna live, I don't wanna die. Maybe I just wanna breathe. Maybe I just don't believe. Maybe you're the same as me. We see things they'll never see. あなた and I are gonna live forever.' I just started crying. I then heard my uncle's voice. He said, 'Those tears say you're not ready to die. あなた still want to live. あなた have so much to live for.' That's when I decided to go get help." Caryn hugged John and said, "I'm so glad あなた got the help あなた needed. I don't know what I would do without you." John held Caryn close and said, "I don't know what I'd do without あなた either, darling." John had never shared this with anyone other than his mates. It felt good to finally share it with Caryn as they watched the snow fall that クリスマス Eve.