January 1, 2015,

I looked around the hospital room and 発言しました "I'm so glad that I can finally go home! I didn't expect it to take that many days for me to be rehydrated enough to go home!" Kyle 発言しました as we walked out to my truck "what do あなた think your family is going to say when they find out that you're pregnant with my baby?" I 発言しました "you heard what the doctor 発言しました to me yesterday; I can't be stressed out and I can pretty much guarantee あなた that a few people in particular are going to raise my stress level once they find out I'm pregnant again! The whole reason I passed out in the first place was because of the pressure that was being put on me! The last thing I need are my uncles and aunt Janet complaining about me being pregnant!!!" Kyle 発言しました "I understand that あなた don't want to tell them; but あなた can't hide it forever! Wouldn't あなた rather them find out from us? Rather than the other option; which is to 表示する up one 日 with a huge stomach and have your water break!" I 発言しました "it's completely up to あなた whether あなた want to tell them are not! All I know is that I'm not putting up with their BS because it's not good for me または the baby! あなた can tell them; just don't do it when I'm around because I really don't want to hear it! I couldn't care less about what they think and I don't feel like they should act like they deserve for their opinions to be heard! They tried to turn grandma against me and my siblings! They kidnapped her and we had no idea where she was! They talk bad about dad in front of all of us and that makes me so angry because all dad ever did for them was basically bend over backwards to make sure that had everything they ever wanted! I don't even really think I want to see them again for as long as I live!" Kyle 発言しました "we really need to stop talking about this because I can tell just doing that is stressing あなた out babe! Don't worry about telling them that you're pregnant; I'll tell them when you're not around!" I 発言しました "in the meantime, we can at least tell my grandmother, Blanket, Prince, and Paris because I know that they'll be happy for us!" Kyle asked "how are we going to tell Carter?" I 発言しました "give me a few days because I just got out of the hospital and I need to regroup! We can tell him after I get settled back in at home!" Kyle 発言しました "I feel so terrible that あなた had that much stress on your shoulders! I shouldn't have let Frank put that much pressure on あなた about going back on tour when あなた weren't ready to!" I 発言しました "that's not your fault Kyle! I realize that I'm the one that has to bring the money in for us to live off of. I can promise あなた that a few months after the baby is born I'll be もっと見る than ready to go on tour again because I'll have もっと見る time to prepare my mind to be away from あなた guys for nine months straight!"

We pulled up in front of my grandmother's house and walked inside. Grandma came up to me and frantically asked "are あなた okay? What happened? I heard あなた passed out at your concert!!!" I chuckled and 発言しました "relax grandma; I'm fine!" She 発言しました "sorry; I just feel like I have to compensate for how worried your father would be if he was here!" Paris and Prince came running up to me and Prince 発言しました "I'm so glad you're okay AJ! I was really worried about あなた when I found out that あなた passed out!" Paris 発言しました "I know; I was too! The video of あなた passing out on stage is all over YouTube and the news! I guess one of the ファン had a video camera with them and captured the whole thing! あなた seemed like あなた to the ground really hard!"

I opened up the doors to the デン and gestured for my grandmother and siblings to follow me inside. Grandma 発言しました "whatever happened to あなた must've been pretty serious for あなた to want to talk to us alone in here! I don't like the vibe you're putting out AJ; you're worrying me!" Kyle and I sat down on the ソファー, ソファ 次 to them and they all looked at us with worried expressions on their faces. We sat there in stunned silence for about five 分 before Kyle burst out and 発言しました "I can't take it anymore; AJ'S PREGNANT!!!" Paris looked at me and 発言しました "wait; I thought あなた couldn't get her pregnant Kyle! It is Kyle's baby; I hope!" I rolled my eyes and 発言しました "of course it's his baby Paris! I would never cheat on Kyle!" She took a sigh of relief as Prince asked "then how are あなた pregnant with his baby?" I 発言しました "there was only a 5% chance of him being able to get me pregnant on his own; so we thought the odds of it actually working were pretty much impossible! I guess this is one of those times where someone can say never say never!" Grandma asked "is that why あなた passed out AJ? Did あなた know あなた were pregnant? Were あなた trying to hide it just so あなた could go on tour and hope that nobody would find out?" I 発言しました "no; I didn't pass out because of that. I passed out because I was dehydrated from the morning sickness. I didn't know at all that I'm pregnant! I just thought I was throwing up because of nerves. Being pregnant was the last thing on my mind!" She asked "were あなた and Kyle still trying to get pregnant; even though the doctor 発言しました that there was pretty much your chance of that happening?" I 発言しました "I wouldn't say that we were necessarily trying to get pregnant. It was one of those things where if that happened we wouldn't be opposed to it! Kyle and I pretty much accepted the fact that he would never give us any biological children together! Before this happened, we actually started looking into adopting a child. "Blanket 発言しました "I'm so happy that I'm going to be an uncle again!" Kyle 発言しました "we really appreciate あなた watching Carter and taking him to school for us while AJ has been in the hospital! Before I forget, I want あなた guys to help keep AJ's stress level down during the pregnancy because the doctor 発言しました it's not good for the baby!!! The doctors don't really want her doing too much while she's pregnant! She's pretty much on ベッド rest the entire pregnancy!" Prince laughed and 発言しました "like that's going to happen! AJ has ADHD and is going to be impossible to make her relax for nine months!" Kyle 発言しました "I have a feeling it's going to take all of us for her to follow through with taking it easy; but we have to make it work!"

January 9, 2015,

Carter sat at the edge of his ベッド watching TV when Kyle and I decided to check on him. I sat down and 発言しました "hi buddy; I bet you're wondering why I didn't go on tour like I 発言しました I was going to!" He 発言しました "yeah; I was just thinking about that! Why didn't あなた go mommy?" I 発言しました with a smile on my face "you're going to have a little brother または sister soon!" He asked "you and daddy are having a baby together? How come your stomach is not big?" Kyle chuckled and 発言しました "it doesn't get big right away Carter! It'll be a while before あなた can really tell!" Carter 発言しました "make sure it's a boy because I want a little brother!" I 発言しました "we don't get to pick what it's going to be Carter; it just happens!"

February 3, 2015,

I had just left the bathroom, after waking up early in the morning with morning sickness and I climbed back into bed. Kyle asked "are あなた sure you're okay?" I 発言しました "yes; I told あなた it's normal for me to be throwing up!" He 発言しました "if there's anything あなた ever need from me don't be afraid to ask!" I 発言しました "there is one thing." He asked "what is it?" I 発言しました "I've been craving Chinese 食 like crazy and I was wondering if あなた would go get us some?" He looked over at the clock and 発言しました "it's 6 o'clock in the morning and I don't know if any Chinese 食 places are open this early. I'll go check anyway; just because I 愛 you." I 発言しました "thanks Kyle; I really appreciate it!"

A few hours later, he arrived back at the house and walked up to our bedroom carrying a huge bag of Chinese food. He 発言しました "sorry it took me so long; you're in luck though because I found a 24-hour Chinese 食 restaurant a few towns over!" I 発言しました "you didn't have to drive that far just to get me the 食 that I wanted!" He 発言しました "I know; but I wanted to!" He started picked up 食 out of the bag and sat down on the bed. He 発言しました "I know Damien wasn't here for あなた last time when あなた were pregnant with Carter and I want to 表示する あなた how a real man is supposed to act!" I 発言しました "you don't really have to treat me any different just because I'm pregnant." He 発言しました "you deserve to be treated like the Queen!" I 発言しました "I know one thing's for sure; I hate being stuck in this bedroom all 日 every day!" He 発言しました "it's only been a little over a week and あなた are already going crazy!" I 発言しました "I don't understand why I have to lay in ベッド pretty much the entire pregnancy! My ADHD is driving me nuts and I don't know how much of this I can take!" He 発言しました "I know that it seems like it sucks right now; but it'll be worth it once あなた see the baby for the first time!" I 発言しました "I know you're right; I just hope that I can keep my stress level down enough to where it doesn't affect the baby!" He 発言しました "I'll do everything I can to make sure that あなた relax as much as possible until the baby is born! Don't worry about anything because I've got it under control!"

February 23, 2015,

"I can't believe we're having a baby girl!" Kyle 発言しました as we walked in the house after going to the doctors. I 発言しました "I'm so glad it's a girl because after this I'm done being pregnant! I don't want any もっと見る kids!" Kyle 発言しました "we have our son and our daughter and that's good enough for me!" I sat down on the ソファー, ソファ and Kyle 発言しました "since I wasn't around when あなた named Carter, あなた should let me name her on my own! At least the first name!" I 発言しました "I don't know if あなた can handle that Kyle! It would be different if we were having a boy; but あなた have to remember that whatever name we name our daughter she is going to be stuck with for the rest of her life! I don't want her to have a stupid name!" He 発言しました "the name I picked out isn't that bad! How about if I give her the name I picked out for her first name and あなた can pick out whatever あなた want for her middle name?" I asked "what name did あなた pick out for her first name Kyle?" He 発言しました "Addison." I raised my eyebrows and 発言しました "actually, I like it! Okay: あなた win! We can name her Addison!"

I grabbed the baby book off the 表, テーブル and started to flip through the pages. I stopped and 発言しました out loud "Addison Avery; how does that sound to you?" He 発言しました "I really like that!" I 発言しました "I guess her names going to be Addison Avery Lester; that was easier than I thought it would be!" Kyle 発言しました "speaking of names; I've always wondered why あなた didn't change your last name to Lester when あなた and I got married." I 発言しました "it's not that I didn't want to; but part of my celebrity image is my last name and if I changed it that would probably affect my fans! I've been known as Alanna Jackson によって the public for so long that it would be awkward if I changed my last name." He 発言しました "that's okay; I understand! I was just always curious. It doesn't really matter to me whether または not あなた have my last name!"

April 15, 2015,

Kyle was gone go shopping and I was up in my room when the phone rang. I answered it and the person on the other end 発言しました "excuse me; I'm looking for Miss Jackson." I 発言しました "this is her." She responded "hello; I'm the principal at your son Carter's school." I asked "is everything okay?" She 発言しました "no; not really. Carter's been suspended and I need あなた to come pick him up." I 発言しました "suspended; what can あなた possibly suspend a first grader for doing?" She 発言しました "Carter was using foul language in front of the other children and inside his classroom. He was told several times not to say the things he was saying; but he just continued on." I 発言しました as I sighed "okay; I'll be there in a few 分 to pick him up."

Even though I knew I wasn't supposed to be walking around much, I had to go pick up Carter because Kyle was gone. After driving to the school, I climbed out of my truck and walked inside. I walked down to the principal's office and the secretary let me into the room. I casually walked in and Carter looked up at me with shame in his eyes. I looked at the principal and 発言しました as I grabbed Carter's arm "I'm sorry for the inconvenience. I assure あなた that it won't happen again." She 発言しました "he suspended for a week of school. I'll see あなた then."

After Carter and I got into the truck, he looked at me in silence and I looked at him and he 発言しました "please don't tell daddy mommy!" I asked "what did あなた say in your classroom that got あなた in trouble?" He 発言しました "I told the teacher to shut the fuck up because she wouldn't stop complaining about my handwriting! Please don't tell daddy!" I rolled my eyes and 発言しました "don't worry; I won't because I know how it feels to get into trouble and I'm not the type of parent that's going to punish you. It's no big deal; I'll figure something out so daddy doesn't suspect anything weird going on!"

When we pulled into the driveway, Kyle had already gotten ホーム and had parked his car 次 to my parking spot. The two of us walked inside and Kyle asked "where have あなた been AJ? あなた know you're not supposed to be out of bed! Why is Carter with you?" I 発言しました while thinking quickly "you must've forgotten that today starts April break for Carter! He doesn't have school for a whole week." Kyle 発言しました "I've been so busy making sure that you're okay AJ that I must've forgotten all about it!" As Kyle walked away, Carter gave me a secretive high-five and 発言しました "thanks for covering for me mommy!"

April 21, 2015,

I'm running out of things to do to keep myself busy because Kyle won't let me do anything other than stay up here in our bedroom all 日 every day! I decided to have him bring some of my childhood ホーム 映画 for us to watch together. He put one of the 映画 in the VCR and pressed play:

Dated at the bottom of the screen January 5, 2005,

I was holding the camera and laughing hysterically as dad attempted to skateboard; but he could barely stand up on it. He 発言しました "I don't know about this AJ! It doesn't look safe! I don't know how あなた do this! It's moving around too much for me!" I 発言しました "dad; come on! You're being such a wimp! Once あなた get the hang of it, you'll be fine; trust me! It's not as hard as it looks!" He hopped off skateboard and 発言しました "I'll stick to dancing. I'm afraid that if I keep trying to skateboard on that thing I will crack my head open!" I 発言しました "you're going to be missing out; that's all I have to say about it." He 発言しました "all I know about skateboarding is that I better not catch あなた without your ヘルメット on!" I 発言しました "yeah, yeah, yeah; I know dad! あなた don't have to give me a lecture!" He 発言しました "it may seem like I'm nagging you; but you'll thank me later!"

*Video ends*

I immediately started crying and Kyle asked "is it the pregnancy mood swings again?" I 発言しました "my dad was supposed to be here! He shouldn't have died! Being pregnant again only makes me miss him もっと見る because it reminds me of how much he did for me when I was pregnant with Carter!" Kyle 発言しました "I wish there was something I could do to make あなた feel better! If あなた don't want to watch anymore 動画 we don't have to." I 発言しました "I don't think I could handle watching another video with him in it. It's just too much for me to handle! I don't understand why I was just so mean to him when all he ever wanted was to make me a good person! I just keep going back to the 日 when I pretty much ditched him with Carter to go get drunk with some of my friends! I'll be the first to admit that I wasn't a good mom at all of the beginning! My dad pretty much took care of him on his own while I slept all 日 and drank all night! I hate to say it; but if my dad wasn't around to take care of Carter those last few months before he passed away I don't think I would have Carter today! He would probably be in the foster care system because I wouldn't have taken care of him! Looking back on it now, I treated my dad like a personal babysitter and I should have appreciated everything that he's done for me over the years! It wasn't fair to him! He didn't want to be a dad again and basically he was because I wasn't taking care of my son!" Kyle 発言しました "you really need to stop beating yourself up for that! That happened a long time 前 and あなた heard what the psychic said! Your dad forgives あなた and he doesn't want あなた to feel guilty about stuff that happened before he died!" I 発言しました "I just don't understand why he had to die when I was only 15 years old and a teenage mother on 上, ページのトップへ of that! He left me at the worst possible time and I wasn't at all prepared for the reality of how the real world worked! Anytime I ever got in trouble before, he would come to my rescue and now he isn't here anymore to protect me from how awful the world can be!" Kyle 発言しました "I know that if he had the choice to stay alive he would still be here! He even told あなた through the psychic that he wasn't ready to leave this world!" I 発言しました "I would do anything just to hug him one もっと見る time!"

April 25, 2015,

Kyle came and asked with irritation in his voice "how long were あなた planning to lie to me?" I asked "what do あなた mean?" He 発言しました "Carter's school just called and asked me if we wanted someone to drop off the school work he's missed this week!" I 発言しました "I knew あなた would overreact and punish Carter from getting suspended! That's the whole reason I lied to あなた in the first place!" He 発言しました "I don't want this to turn into a fight because it's not good for あなた または the baby. All I'm saying is that if あなた don't start punishing him soon for misbehaving it will only get worse." I 発言しました "I realized that Kyle; but what he did wasn't that bad! I've done way worse when I was seven years old!"

Kyle called Carter into our bedroom and Kyle asked "how come あなた didn't tell me that あなた got suspended from school?" Carter 発言しました "mommy 発言しました it was no big deal! あなた just need to mind your own business daddy!” My eyes widened in shock によって what had just come out of my son’s mouth. I 発言しました "don't talk to your dad like that Carter." Kyle just rolled his eyes in disbelief as Carter walked out of the room.

May 3, 2015,

Kyle came out of Carter's bedroom and 発言しました "I took the video game out of his room." I asked "why did あなた do that?" He 発言しました "because his teacher just called and he's been suspended again." I asked "what did he do this time?" Kyle 発言しました "he ran off of school grounds during recess and the teacher couldn't find him!" I 発言しました "maybe we should just take him out of school and start homeschooling him." Kyle 発言しました "that's not going to fix the problem AJ! What he really needs is for one of us to discipline him and since あなた won't let me do it you're going to have to!" I 発言しました "disciplining him isn't going to make a difference. I don't see it as a big deal because the teachers found him. I'm not going to discipline him for that Kyle!" Kyle 発言しました with irritation in his voice "so you're just going to leave me to pick up the pieces when you're gone on tour? I'll have to deal with him and a newborn baby all on my own; the way things are going he's going to be out of control によって the time あなた leave! The principal 発言しました she would drop him off for us because I can't trust あなた to stay in ベッド like you're supposed to!"

Before long, Carter walked through the door and Kyle looked at me; expecting me to do something. I walked Carter into his room and shut the door behind us. I sat down on the ベッド 次 to him and 発言しました "I can't believe あなた walked off of school grounds Carter!" He 発言しました "whatever" and flopped backwards onto the bed. I 発言しました "it's not whatever Carter! Nobody knew where あなた were and あなた could have gotten hurt! Someone could've hurt あなた または kidnapped you! Do あなた know how sad your dad and I would have been if we ロスト you?" Carter chuckled and 発言しました "I was only gone for a few 分 mommy!" I 発言しました sternly "I don't find this funny at all and あなた will be punished!" Carter 発言しました "yeah right; あなた wouldn't do that!" I asked "you want to bet?"

I removed the mounted flatscreen TV off of the ウォール and walked out of the room. Once Carter realized what I was doing, he ran up to me and kicked me in my stomach right in front of Kyle. That's when Kyle flipped out! He shouted "DID あなた JUST KICK YOUR MOTHER IN THE STOMACH?" Carter immediately started crying at the sound of Kyle raising his voice at him because he's never done that before. I 発言しました "whoa Kyle; chill out! He's only seven!" Kyle 発言しました "go to your room Carter!" Carter ran off to his room and slammed the door.

Kyle asked frantically "are あなた okay? I can't believe he kicked あなた in your stomach; you're pregnant!" I 発言しました "I know you're scared for the baby; but that doesn't give あなた any excuse to scream at Carter like that! あなた saw his face; he was terrified of あなた and still is! I didn't expect あなた to traumatize him like that! He's never been exposed to that sort of reaction before! I don't appreciate あなた 芝居 like that towards him and I think あなた should apologize to him! That was totally uncalled for!"

Kyle felt terrible as he walked into Carter's bedroom and saw him hysterically crying on his bed. Kyle knelt down 次 to him and 発言しました "I didn't mean to scare あなた Carter. I'm sorry buddy! あなた just can't kick mommy in the stomach like that because it could've hurt the baby. That's the only reason why I screamed at you; but I won't do it again because I know it was wrong!" Carter sat up and 発言しました "that was really scary how your face turned red!"

Kyle decided to leave the room because he was feeling awful and I think he actually wanted to cry. I sat down on the ベッド and looked around the room. I proceeded to give my son a lecture; which is something I thought I would never do. I 発言しました "if your behavior doesn't get better soon I'm going to start making あなた go to school at home; like I had originally planned." Carter 発言しました "but あなた can't do that because I have so many friends! I 愛 going to school!" I 発言しました "if I want to do that than I have the right as your mother to do so." Carter asked eagerly "if I say I'm sorry for getting suspended from school and kicking あなた do I get my TV back?" I 発言しました "yes; a week from now! Nice try though!"

I shut Carter's bedroom door after setting him up with a game on my laptop. I stood outside the doorway and slid my back down the ウォール as I sat down on the ground. Kyle came over with tears in his eyes and sat down 次 to me. He put his arm around me and 発言しました "I'm so sorry AJ! I never intended to scream at him like that! I guess I just got caught up in the moment and overreacted!" I stared off into 宇宙 and Kyle asked "what's wrong?" I 発言しました softly under my breath "I just realized how much I sounded like my dad when I was punishing Carter just now. Oh my God; that's freaking me out! I sounded exactly like he did when he was punishing me!" Kyle laughed and 発言しました "I bet あなた never thought in 1 million years that あなた would lecture your son just like your dad did with あなた for 15 years!"

May 13, 2015,

I was going through some old stuff in the attic while Carter looked through some boxes for something to play with. He came across a book and passed it to me. I asked "what's this buddy?" He 発言しました "I don't know; but it has your name on it. I looked at the front cover of what appeared to be a 写真 album with the words "daddy's little tomboy" written in marker across the top.

Carter sat on my lap as I started to flip through the pages. He pointed to a picture of dad and I in the swimming pool and asked "who is that? Why are they in our swimming pool?" I 発言しました as I chuckled "that's me when I was your age and your Papa!" He asked with a puzzled look on his face "why are あなた guys in our swimming pool?" I 発言しました "this is where I grew up Carter! My daddy raised me here just like daddy and I are raising あなた here!" Carter joked "you grew up mommy? あなた still act like a big kid!" I smiled and 発言しました "yeah; I guess I really didn't grow up after all!"

As we looked at the various photos, Carter asked "what was your daddy like?" I just sat there in silence for what felt like forever trying to process what he had just asked me. I 発言しました as a single tear ran down my face "he was the best daddy ever!" He asked "why are あなた crying mommy?" I 発言しました "it's okay to cry." I wiped my tear filled eyes as Carter asked "do あなた have any good stories あなた can tell me about Papa?" I moved the two of us off of the ground and sat down with Carter still on my lap in a really comfortable reclining chair. I 発言しました "plenty of good stories!" Carter asked "can あなた tell me some of them?" I 発言しました "of course I will!"

I started によって saying "I remember one time when I was almost 3 when your Papa took me to Disneyland right before uncle Prince was born. It was only the 秒 time I ever remember going to Disneyland and I remember that I was scared of Mickey Mouse. I wouldn't let go of your Papa's leg and was screaming at the 上, ページのトップへ of my lungs! Then he would whisper in my ear and tell me that everything was going to be okay! That he would never let anything happen to me! That there was nothing to be afraid of because he was there to protect me!" I started crying hysterically with Carter still on my lap as I recalled those exact words coming out of my father's mouth.

I moved Carter off of my lap and said" I'm sorry Carter; I can't talk about him anymore! I'll be back in a few minutes. Why don't あなた go watch TV in your room for a while? I'm going to go to my room. Carter 発言しました "I'm sorry I made あなた cry mommy."

I ran up to our bedroom just as Kyle was getting dressed and collapsed onto the ベッド in a mess of emotions that Kyle had never witnessed coming from me before. He lay down 次 to me and asked "oh my God; what's wrong babe?" I started hyperventilating and forced out of the words "I think – I'm having – a panic – attack!" He 発言しました "just take deep breaths; calm down!" I 発言しました "I can't do this without my dad!" Kyle asked "you can't do what without your dad?" I 発言しました "I can't live life without him!" He 発言しました "yes あなた can! You've been doing pretty good!" I 発言しました "he was supposed to be there for all of this! We got married and he wasn't physically there! I'm going to be having another baby and he won't even get to meet Addison! Carter doesn't even know really who his grandfather is; even though I tried so hard to keep his memory alive. I guess I just don't want to let my dad go! I can't be at peace with him being gone! Okay; I admit it! I needed him and I still need him! I JUST WANT MY DADDY; THAT'S ALL I WANT! I JUST WANT HIM TO HOLD ME! I KNOW I'M 21 YEARS OLD; BUT I JUST WANT HIM TO HOLD ME LIKE I'M FIVE YEARS OLD AGAIN AND NEVER LET GO! I don't miss my dad; I MISS MY DADDY! The daddy that tucked me into ベッド every night; even when I was a teenager he still did that! The daddy that always told me that he loved me; no matter what I did! The daddy that cut my 食 for me when I was little! The daddy that tied my shoes for me and then spent hours teaching me how to tie them on my own! The daddy that consoled me when I woke up in the middle of the night because of a bad dream! The daddy that wiped my –." Kyle widened his eyes with an awkward look on his face and 発言しました "I can see where this is going!" I burst out laughing and 発言しました "I was going to say nose!" Kyle breathed sigh of relief and 発言しました "oh thank God!" I 発言しました as I chuckled "I'm not excluding what あなた thought as a possibility when I was younger he did do that; when I was a toddler! Anyway; my point is that I realized that I don't miss my dad at all! Who I really miss is my daddy! The sad thing is that I pushed my daddy away a long time ago; when he was still alive! He would always try to reconnect with me after I turned into a teenager; but I didn't want to spend any time with him!"

Kyle moved me onto his lap and wrapped his arms around me. He 発言しました "I know that I'll never be as good as Michael was; but I'm not going anywhere! Everything is going to be okay and あなた can do this! We can do this! You're not alone!"

September 22, 2015,

I shook Kyle out of the deep sleep he was in and 発言しました "it's time Kyle!" He asked as he yawned "time for me to get あなた some もっと見る food?" I 発言しました "no; it's time for あなた to take me to the hospital! I woke up a few 分 前 to go to the bathroom and my water broke when I got back into bed."

Kyle immediately jumped out of ベッド and 発言しました "oh my God! What are we going to do with Carter?" I 発言しました "my brother’s phone number is on speed dial and I already told him to be prepared to come over here and watch Carter if this happened in the middle of the night. Don't worry; I already called him and he's on his way. Actually, I think he just pulled into the driveway.

Kyle did something that I definitely wasn't expecting. He picked me up and cradled me in his arms as he ran out the door. Prince asked as he chuckled "what the heck are あなた carrying AJ for Kyle? Her water broke; she's not paralyzed!" Kyle 発言しました frantically "there's no time to talk; we're having a baby anytime now!" Kyle practically threw the house keys out of the car window as we sped down the road. Kyle asked "are あなた okay? The baby isn't coming yet is it?" I 発言しました "don't worry; she's not going anywhere unless I start pushing." Kyle 発言しました "whatever あなた do; please don't push! I don't want to be another news story about a father her delivers his baby on the side of the road!" I 発言しました "calm down Kyle; I'm もっと見る calm than あなた are and I'm in a lot of pain!" He 発言しました "sorry; I'm just excited and nervous all at once!"

After a nurse took us to a hospital room, we sat there waiting for the doctor to come in. After she arrived, she 発言しました "oh my God; this baby is going to come out any 秒 now! あなた didn't start pushing yet; did you?" I 発言しました "no; why?" She 発言しました "the baby's head in already all the way out! I have a feeling you're only going to need to push once! I was going to offer あなた the epidural; but there's no time!" I 発言しました as I recalled the tremendous pain I was in from giving birth to Carter without the epidural "I don't want to do this without some sort of numbing medication!" She 発言しました "you don't really have a choice at this point! We just have to get this baby out as soon as possible! Trust me; it's not going to be as bad as the first time because all あなた need is push a little bit and the baby will be out."

Sure enough, without even really trying; our daughter was brought into this world. Kyle looked over and 発言しました "she has my hair; she's pretty much bald though.” One of the nurses passed her to Kyle and he started to cry as he looked down at her. He brought her up to me and 発言しました "here's our little miracle baby! Addison Avery Lester." I took her out of his arms and 発言しました "I can't believe あなた and I created something so beautiful together!" The Doctor 発言しました "she seems really healthy; あなた can go ホーム with her today if あなた want to!"

After signing a release form, Kyle and I walked out to his car and he started trying to figure out how to install the car seat. I chuckled as he 塔の上のラプンツェル himself up with the seatbelt in the back シート, 座席 and 発言しました "I thought あなた would've practiced this a few times; before we brought her home!" He 発言しました "I think I figured it out; go ahead." I buckled her into the car シート, 座席 after sitting down 次 to it and Kyle started the car.

I 発言しました "I have a feeling that Carter will be sleeping still; によって the time we get back to the house. It's 3 o'clock in the morning and I don't think we shouldWake him up." Kyle 発言しました "Prince must've woken him up because I can see him through the windows in front of the house and he's watching TV."

Kyle walked behind me while he carried the car シート, 座席 with Addison inside it. Carter waited patiently while Prince took his niece over to him. Carter held Addison for a lot longer than I expected him to. He 発言しました "I'm so excited that I'm a big brother!" I 発言しました "that means you're going to have to help take care of Addison with daddy while I'm on tour starting in a few months. That reminds me of something; Kyle when are あなた going to start decorating Paris's old bedroom into the nursery for Addison?" He 発言しました "Addison can stay in our room until after あなた leave on tour and that way it can be a surprise for あなた when あなた get home. Trust me; it'll be worth the wait! I'm going to make the most perfect nursery anyone could ever imagine for my little girl! In the meantime, let's appreciate the last four months before あなた leave on your tour because after that I'm going to be taking care of two kids all on my own for nine months straight. Surprisingly, I'm looking フォワード, 前進, 楽しみにして to it!"