Chapter 3,
March 16, 1996,
I turned two years old yesterday and dad is having a hard time with my temper tantrums. He loves me to death; I just don’t think he knows what to do with me half the time! Grace is getting もっと見る and もっと見る frustrated with every 日 that goes by. I have no doubt in my mind that he loves me but sometimes I wonder if I’m not what he bargained for!
There was a knock at the front door and a blonde haired woman that I did not recognize walked through the door. I had this strange feeling that I knew she was but, I couldn’t put a name to her face. Dad plopped me down on the ソファー, ソファ and sat in between her and I. He 発言しました “listen Debbie, I know things didn’t leave on the right foot last time but, I’m ready for another baby and I want to put all of those feelings behind us!” She 発言しました “I was just being way too sensitive and I apologize for what happened!” She looked at my hair and looked at hers while smiling. She smirked at dad and 発言しました sarcastically “I wonder where she gets that hair from?” He 発言しました “yeah I don’t know where she gets it either!”
I ran around the living room screaming and Debbie asked “are あなた sure you’re ready to deal with Alanna and a newborn baby Michael?” He 発言しました “I think I know what to expect now at least the first 年 of the 次 child’s life!” I ripped one of my new 本 that I got for my birthday and dad asked “why would あなた do that?” He picked me up and put me in the corner facing the wall. Debbie looked it dad and asked “does she normally act like this または is it only because I’m here?” He laughed and 発言しました “no, she started her terrible twos a few months ago!” I tried to get out of the corner and he 発言しました “don’t あなた even try to 移動する from that spot till I tell あなた that あなた can!”
Debbie 発言しました “I have to say that I’m shocked to see this side of you!” He asked “what do あなた mean?” She 発言しました “well, I expected あなた to be a laid-back father but, what あなた just 発言しました to Alanna proved me wrong!” He picked me up and asked “are あなた sorry for ruining your new book?” I kissed him and 発言しました “I’m sorry daddy.” He put me down and 発言しました “it’s okay but, don’t do that again.” He came back over to the ソファー, ソファ and sat down. He 発言しました “it took me a while to be stern with her but, I’ve learned that I have to be because if I’m not she feels she can get away with anything.” He cleared his throat and 発言しました “believe me I felt terrible the first time I had to punish her!”
After a few hours of talking about having another baby, Debbie grabbed her ジャケット and gave dad and I each a hug before she left. I climbed onto his lap and he 発言しました “I don’t know about あなた but, I think あなた need a sibling!” I had no idea what he was talking about and I sat there with a blank look on my face. He 発言しました “I know あなた don’t understand what I’m saying but, あなた will soon enough!” As he held me he 発言しました quietly “I can’t believe あなた are already two years old… あなた are growing up way too fast for me!!!”
March 24, 1996,
It was almost 3 o’clock in the in the morning and I woke up to dad taking me out of my ベビーベッド and bringing me outside to the car. He 発言しました “hey sleepyhead, we’re going to go to ディズニー World to see Mickey Mouse!” He buckled me into my car シート, 座席 and sitting 次 to me was my uncle Macauley Culkin. He isn’t really my uncle but, dad and he are really close so I’ve always called him uncle Mac. He starred in the movie “home alone” which is one of my dad’s お気に入り movies!
We arrived at the airport and boarded our flight. While dad flipped through one of his parenting books, I watched the in-flight movie of the lion King. Uncle Mac played his hand held video games and I ended up falling asleep. When we got to our destination I was wondering where we were going. A few 分 later I saw a huge 城 and immediately knew where we were…at ディズニー World!
I started to get very excited and 発言しました “I want to go see Pinocchio!!!” After we had gotten our park passes we went to go see some of the new rides. I gravitated toward the rides that I was familiar with and uncle Mac started to get bored with all of the kiddie rides. Dad let him go off on his own while he took me on the Dumbo ride. The two of us rode it about seven times before I had had enough and we went off to go find Pinocchio. After about 20 min. of searching we finally found him and I was so happy. Besides the preschool nickelodeon shows, most of what I watch is ディズニー 映画 because dad likes them too.
Then dad took me to get something to eat because I was hungry. He was hoping that we would bump into Uncle Mac on the way because he had not seen him in a few hours. While dad was ordering us some sweet potato fries and cheese burgers uncle Mac showed up. Dad asked “did あなた have fun?” Uncle Mac took me out of my stroller and 発言しました “yeah, thank あなた Michael for taking me on this trip with あなた guys!” Dad put the trays of 食 on the 表, テーブル and 発言しました “you know あなた don’t have to thank me… Alanna and I 愛 to hang out with you!” Uncle Mac passed me a sweet potato fry and I 発言しました “thank you.”
After we had eaten, we spent four もっと見る hours shopping for souvenirs and watching a parade of characters. Then it was time for the three of us to get back on the plane and fly back ホーム because dad has to continue rehearsing for the tour tomorrow morning. He’s trying to fit in as many memorable moments for me before we have to travel the world because it’ll be at least a 年 before we completely 移動する back home. Sure we’ll spend a couple weeks at the ranch every couple of weeks but, we will mostly be living out of hotels.
April 10, 1996,
I had money from a few family members for my birthday and dad decided to take me to Toys “R” Us to spend it. Very rarely do I get to go to a toy store because dad does not want me to become spoiled, so I am really excited! I had over $150 to spend at the store and was excited to get my hands on some new toys. Before the tour starts dad gave nanny Grace a couple of weeks off because once we are heading all over the world she won’t be able to go see her family. Today she was packing her bags and getting ready to head back ホーム to her mother’s house.
After Grace had left, dad and I were all alone in our huge home. He took me out to the car and sat 次 to me in the backseat. When the bodyguard who was driving us pulled up in front of Toys “R” Us I became もっと見る and もっと見る excited! Dad helped me into a shopping カート and we went into the store. The first thing I saw was a giant stuffed animal of Spiderman. Beside the Spiderman stuffed animal was one of シンデレラ and dad asked “wouldn’t あなた rather have the シンデレラ one?” I 発言しました “no; I want Spiderman!” He wasn’t trying to change my mind but, I think he was shocked when I picked the one I did.
Dad took me out of the カート and let me 表示する him where I wanted to go. I walked down the Lego section and grabbed 1000 piece Lego racecar set. He looked at the amount of pieces and 発言しました “let’s get the big mega blocks set instead, because I think they are もっと見る for two-year-olds!” I picked out the red mega blocks instead of the option of ピンク and light purple colored ones. He put them in the shopping カート and I saw a display of toy dump trucks out of the corner of my eye. I ran towards them and 発言しました “daddy I want one of these please!” He 発言しました “okay… If that’s what あなた really want!” I carried it around the store and 発言しました “I want to go ホーム now… I’ll save the rest of the money for 次 time.” He put me back in the カート and 発言しました “that’s fine, I’ll put it in a 安全, 安全です place for あなた so it doesn’t get lost!”
I think dad is starting to learn now that I’m definitely not a girly girl. I already know that I am a tomboy all the way. I can sit through a Princess movie but, it’s not very entertaining to me. I think now dad gets that and is going to gravitate away from those types of things. He knows a lot of people with kids that are tomboys so, I know that me being a tomboy isn’t going to bother him one bit because he’s accepting to those sorts of things!
April 18, 1996,
When I woke up from my nap this afternoon my uncle Jermaine was here with my five-year-old cousin Jermaine Junior. They had just gotten there because they were still wearing their jackets. Dad put me down and helped Jermaine Junior unzip his jacket. I went into the living room and Junior followed me. I have not had as much contact with other kids because of my father’s busy schedule but, he definitely thinks that I need to!
Dad pulled out my toy box from the closet and opened it up. I saw that Jermaine Junior was grabbing one of my お気に入り toys and took it from him. He picked out another toy and I took that one from him too. I 発言しました “no; these are all my toys… あなた can’t play with them!” He looked at me and sat down on the floor feeling defeated. Dad noticed that it was extremely quiet in the living, which usually means I’m up to no good room!
He walked into the room and looked at me surrounded によって a pile of toys. Jermaine Junior was watching Nickelodeon and dad asked “how come you’re not playing with Alanna Junior?” He replied によって saying “she won’t let me play with any of her toys!” Dad 発言しました “Alanna; あなた need to share your toys with Junior!” I 発言しました “but they’re mine… あなた bought them for me!” He sighed and 発言しました “I know I bought them for あなた but, it doesn’t mean あなた can’t share them!” I passed Junior a plastic baseball and 発言しました “there; あなた can play with that because it’s boring!” Dad 発言しました while desperately trying not to laugh “no あなた have to share all your toys with him, not just the boring ones!”
Dad got up and 発言しました “you better share your toys with him または I’m not going to buy あなた anymore!” He walked out of the room and sat at the キッチン 表, テーブル with my uncle Jermaine. Dad looked at him and asked “please tell me these terrible twos to come to an end?” Jermaine 発言しました “she’s barely 2 so, あなた better get used to it now because you’ve got a long way to go before they’re over!” Dad laughed and 発言しました “she’s just so stubborn; it drives me nuts!” Jermaine sarcastically replied “wow… I wonder where she gets that from?” Dad 発言しました laughing “well it’s not from me; I’m easy-going and passive!” Jermaine 発言しました “Michael if あなた weren’t so stubborn あなた wouldn’t have the best-selling album of all time… You’re the guy who stayed overnight in the studio to make sure everything on the album is perfect. あなた wouldn’t take no for an answer even when MTV didn’t want to 表示する your thriller video because あなた were an African-American artist, but they did end up 表示中 it didn’t they?” Dad smiled and 発言しました “okay maybe I’m a little stubborn, but not near as much a she is!” Jermaine 発言しました “you watch; she’s going to be just like あなた when she grows up…Stubborn as hell but, an amazing person because of that!”
Jermaine Junior shouted from the living room saying “Uncle Michael; Alanna isn’t sharing her toys with me!” Dad asked “do あなた want to come here and sit on my lap while he plays with your toys?” I walked into the キッチン and came up to dad. He 発言しました “if あなた don’t want to come in here and listen to me and uncle Jermaine talk; あなた better behave… I told あなた that あなた need to share!” I looked at him and stomped out of the room. Dad 発言しました “she needs もっと見る interaction with the kids because preschool is only a few years away! Jermaine didn’t say anything and took a sip of his soda. Then he asked “do あなた know what あなた are doing Michael?” Dad 発言しました “I don’t want this to come off wrong but, Alanna’s my trial and error child… I don’t really know what I’m doing and I’m just hoping something will work with her!” Jermaine 発言しました “I know exactly how あなた feel; parenting takes real skill and time!” Junior grabbed his ジャケット and 発言しました “you have to drop me off at mom’s house in a few minutes, don’t forget dad!”
As uncle Jermaine was putting his ジャケット on, dad 発言しました “I just don’t want her to become a brat!” Jermaine walked towards the door with my cousin in his arms and 発言しました “she won’t Michael; あなた need to have faith in yourself as a father!” The door slammed shut and I ran up to dad!” He 発言しました “I don’t like it when あなた act like that… I’m not happy with you!”
Dad will always be grateful to have me for his daughter but, he knows how he wants me brought up. It bothers him that I constantly disobey him and he is embarrassed when I act out because he’s trying so hard to make sure I understand right from wrong! He is too tough on himself because of that though! He’s hoping that I’ll catch on soon so, it doesn’t get worse in the future when I’m a teenager!
April 21, 1996,
Dad came ホーム around six o’clock and walked upstairs to my room where I was watching TV. He sat down on the floor 次 to me and noticed that I was sweating. I started to shiver and he asked “do あなた feel okay?” He felt my forehead and 発言しました “you feel a little warm!” I looked at him and started to cry. He picked me up and asked “what’s wrong?” I pointed to my ears and he 発言しました “you must have an ear infection!”
He carried me downstairs and 発言しました “I think I still have those drops from the last time I had an ear infection.” He rummaged through the medicine cabinet in one of the bathrooms downstairs and 発言しました “here they are!” Grace held me down while dad put the drops in my ears. That was quite the ordeal I was determined that those drops were not coming anywhere near me and definitely not near my ears! Every time he would try to put them in my ears I would pull away and one time I actually broke free of her grip!
I ran upstairs and into my room. Dad and Grace had to chase me into a corner so he could put the drops in my ears! Of course I acted like it was the end of the world because I was having a two-year-old meltdown and on 上, ページのトップへ of all that I didn’t feel very good! Dad managed to calm me down によって 読書 me a book while Grace tried to catch her breath after following me around the whole house for 45 min.
A few hours later, dad took me to his room and put a movie in the VCR for us to watch. I laid there 次 to him with his arm around my shoulders and watched Peter Pan. We chuckled and rewound parts of the movie over and over again and this is definitely a moment that I’ll never forget!
June 6, 1996,
It was the middle of the 日 and I was playing with my Legos in the playroom when there was a knock at the door. Dad answered it surprised to see Debbie on the other side. He asked “what are あなた doing here?” Out of the corner of his eye he could see that she was holding an unidentified white stick in her hands. She 発言しました “I have some news!” Looking puzzled he asked “what kind of news?” She passed him the white stick and he 発言しました “oh my gosh; a positive pregnancy test!!!” He jumped up and down with joy and hugged her.
Being two years old, I had no idea what he was so excited about so, I just continued to play. He eventually came over to me and 発言しました “you’re going to have a little brother または sister soon!” I 発言しました “a baby?” Dad smiled as he 発言しました “yes… Another baby!” Debbie smiled and 発言しました “I can’t believe I’m pregnant again!” Dad hugged her and 発言しました “I can’t thank あなた enough for what you’re doing for me, you’ve made me the happiest person in the world!”
I don’t know what compelled me to do what I did next. I got up off the floor and asked Debbie to pick me up. She did and that was the first time I willingly let her hold me since I was born. Dad asked “can あなた give Ms. Debbie a キッス on the cheek?” He was shocked when I kissed her and 発言しました “wow; she rarely kisses anyone but me!” Debbie seemed really happy to have me in her arms but, she also looked a little uncomfortable. I think she was feeling like she was missing out on being a parent but, she knew deep down that she didn’t really want to be a hands-on mother and that dad was doing a really good job as a single parent!
For reasons I don’t understand yet; dad became very emotional seeing the two of us together. He loves being a single father but, his ハート, 心 was hurting for me because I would never know what it was like to have a mother! He started to tear up and took me from her so he didn’t get もっと見る upset because he doesn’t like to cry in front of me! Debbie quickly 発言しました “well; I better get going, I just wanted to tell あなた that you’re going to be a father of two in nine months!” As she left dad kissed my forehead and 発言しました “wow… Two kids!”
June 12, 1996,
Since dad found out he was going to be a father of two kids soon he decided to slowly start helping me reach certain milestones that a toddler should accomplish. He thought a good place to start was によって getting rid of my crib. A delivery truck was going to be at the ranch in a few hours and dad went upstairs with me to get my room ready and 移動する things around so there was room for my new bed.
He put me down on my bedroom floor and 発言しました “I know I’m not very handy but, at least you’ll have something to laugh at while あなた watch me try and take apart your crib!” He kneeled down and started to unscrew the bolts that hold it together. It took him forever to take it apart but, I don’t blame him because he would much rather be cooking something in the キッチン then building または taking things apart! At one point Grace walked into my room and busted out laughing. She asked “oh my God there’s so many screws scattered everywhere and the ベビーベッド looks like a trapezoid!” Dad laughed and 発言しました “yeah, yeah, yeah (blushes) I know I’m no Mr. fix-it!”
Grace let the delivery crew in and bring my ベッド frame and mattress upstairs to my room. To dad’s relief; the ベッド frame was already assembled and all he had to do was put the mattress in. I helped dad put my brand-new Mickey マウス bedding on my ベッド and he put my Mickey マウス stuffed animal at the end of my bed. Grace walked into my room and 発言しました “I was wondering when あなた would ever get rid of that crib!” Dad 発言しました “it’s just hard for me to let my baby grow up!” I hugged him and 発言しました “thank あなた for my ベッド daddy!” He 発言しました “you’re welcome; I 愛 you!” Grace 発言しました “you know that you’re probably not going to get much sleep tonight because she is going to keep getting out of her bed!” Dad 発言しました “yeah, that’s part of the reason why I didn’t get rid of her ベビーベッド right after she turned two!”
At eight o’clock it was time for me to go to ベッド and dad brought me upstairs to my bedroom. He put me under the covers and kissed my forehead. He 発言しました “okay, I’m going to be downstairs if あなた get out of this ベッド I will hear you!” He shut off the lights and left my bedroom door open so the hallway light when shine in my room. I got out of ベッド and walked to the 上, ページのトップへ of the stairs. Dad didn’t notice me at first but, when he got up to get a drink of water he saw me and asked “what are あなた doing out of your bed?” I 発言しました “I want to come down there daddy!” He walked up the steps and picked me up. He put me back in my ベッド and 発言しました “I 愛 you, but it’s time to go to sleep!” He went into his bedroom and I could see him watching TV on the edge of his bed.
I waited about 5 min. to see if he saw me looking at him before I got out of ベッド again and went into his room. He looked at me and 発言しました “you better get back in that ベッド before I have to put あなた in time out!” I started to cry as I slowly made my way back to my bedroom and into my bed. After a while of me sitting in my bedroom crying; dad came in and lay down 次 to me. I think he realized that I was used to having the security of my ベビーベッド and tried to comfort me. The first few times I did get out of my ベッド was because I was testing dad to see if he was going to bring me back but, I only got out of ベッド two もっと見る times before I got the message that he wasn’t going to give in. When I woke up the 次 morning I was in my ベッド alone and he was sprawled クロス his ベッド on his stomach with the remote in his hand.
July 26, 1996,
It was the middle of the afternoon and I was upstairs in my room. Dad noticed that it was awfully quiet and normally I would be making some sort of noise. He went upstairs to investigate and saw me in the corner of the room holding something. When he came closer he noticed I had cut my hair with scissors.
He took the scissors out of my hands and asked “oh my gosh, what did あなた do to your hair?” I 発言しました “I was just giving myself a haircut like Karen does!” At first dad was mad but, a few 分 later he couldn’t help but laugh because I looked so weird with a chunk of my hair shorter than the other parts. Luckily my hair is really short so it didn’t look that bad and it wouldn’t take a long time to grow back.
Dad took me downstairs and showed Grace my hair and she 発言しました “you have to admit that it’s kind of cute that she tried to cut her own hair!” Dad laughed as he looked down at my head and 発言しました “yeah I know… I tried to be serious with her but, I couldn’t because she looked so adorable!” Dad 発言しました “just don’t do it again and we’ll be all good!” Let’s just say I think I’ll be wearing a baseball キャップ for a very long time!
July 28, 1996,
When I woke up this morning dad was at work, like he usually is at this time. Grace is still getting used to the fact that my ベビーベッド is gone because now I walk downstairs and wait for her to get up in the morning. She was surprised the first time I was down there によって myself because she wasn’t expecting me to be up and playing. She went into my room this morning and I had already gone downstairs.
She went downstairs and found me sitting in front of the TV, which I managed to somehow turn on Nickelodeon. She patted my ベッド headed hair and got me a bowl of cereal for breakfast. She 発言しました “I just talked to あなた daddy on the phone and he 発言しました we could visit him on the set of his new 音楽 video ghosts.” I began to get very excited and started jumping around. She 発言しました “were going to go there for a couple of hours so, daddy can ride ホーム with us when he’s done working!” I hurried to finish my cereal and Grace 発言しました “you don’t have to rush; we won’t be leaving for a while!”
A few hours later we drove to an undisclosed location where my dad was filming a 音楽 video. Grace helped me out of the car and we walked inside. I looked around for dad but, he was nowhere to be found. Then an overweight man wearing glasses, kneelt down in front of me and 発言しました “hi Alanna!” He sounded like dad but, definitely didn’t look like him. I started to cry and reached out for Grace to pick me up. She asked “Michael; is that you?” He 発言しました “yeah, this is just a costume that I wear when I play that mayor!!! I didn’t mean to make her cry!!!” Grace passed me to him and 発言しました “it’s okay; it’s just daddy in a costume.” I shook my head and 発言しました “that doesn’t look like daddy!” I screamed out of sheer terror and clung to her as tightly as I possibly could!
Grace followed the man with me in her arms and went into a dressing room. He sat in the chair and people began to remove a rubber mask from his face. When the mask was off I finally realized that it really was dad under all that makeup!” He looked at me and smiled. I climbed onto his lap and 発言しました “I 愛 あなた daddy!” He 発言しました “I 愛 あなた more!!!”
August 1, 1996
I was playing with my toys in the playroom while Grace was doing dishes in the kitchen. The phone rang and she picked it up. She had a shocked look on her face as she listened to the person on the other side of the call and raced upstairs to pack her suitcase. I was wondering what was going on because I saw her crying as she ran to her room. I decided to lay low for a while so I didn’t make her any sadder than she already was!
20 min. later dad came ホーム oblivious to what was going on. He saw that I was downstairs によって myself and then Grace came to greet him carrying her suitcase. Dad looked at her as tears streamed down her face and asked “what’s wrong?” She 発言しました “my sister called and told me she was just diagnosed with lung cancer and asked if I could keep her company until my other sister was able to quit her job and stay with her full-time!” He hugged her and 発言しました “you take as much time as あなた need and tell her I’ll keep her in my thoughts!” She asked “who will watch Alanna while you’re at work because I will probably be gone for a month?” He 発言しました “I will stay ホーム with her… It will give me some time to spend with her before the new baby comes!” She hugged me and sobbed as she walked out the door.
I asked “where is she going daddy?” He picked me up and 発言しました “she will be back in a few weeks!” He kissed me and 発言しました “that’s okay, me and you’re going to have fun together because I’m not going to work until she gets back!” I 発言しました “daddy I want to take a bath!” Even though dad tries his best to be ホーム from work in time to give me a bath and put me to bed, he had not been able to in three months because of his busy schedule!” He 発言しました “okay, we can do that!”
October 31, 1996,
I am so excited because I’m going to get to go trick-or-treating today for my first time! Dad came up with a plan so, we don’t have a repeat of last year! He brought a costume for himself to where when we go house to house because people won’t know that it’s him. He brought himself a Spiderman costume and I picked out a バットマン costume. Grace thought that it was a really good idea to have the two of us dressed up and she really thinks we’ll pull it off!”
After we had put our costumes on, we went out to find houses that were giving out candy. When we found a house with the porch lights on I noticed that there was just a bowl of キャンディー on their doorstep. At that point we had been looking for hours for a house that was celebrating ハロウィン and dad was starting to get discouraged. He 発言しました “apparently these other rich and famous people like me are too good to celebrate Halloween!” Dad 発言しました “come on; I’m done with this, I have another idea!”
When we got back to the ranch Grace asked “what are あなた doing back here?” I 発言しました “no one was giving out candy!” Dad quickly went to the pantry and pulled out a big bag of assorted candies and poured it in five separate bowls. He whispered in Grace’s ear and then carried me upstairs. He 発言しました “if we can’t go trick-or-treating, あなた can at least pretend that we are! He 発言しました “knock on that door!” When I did Grace opened it and 発言しました “happy halloween!” I opened my bag and 発言しました “trick-or-treat!” She passed me some キャンディー and we went door to door in the house getting もっと見る until my bag was full!
This will definitely be a moment that I look back on when I am older. Dad always strives for me to have as normal life as I possibly can! He didn’t want me missing out on trick-or-treating for the 秒 time in a row so, he came up with this within minutes. I was so excited and he couldn’t handle having to let me down again! Sure; this wasn’t what I had in mind but, it is probably as close as I’ll ever get to doing the real thing! This is just もっと見る proof that my father is the most amazing father in the world and is nothing like what the media 表示する him to be! I wish they would just leave him alone! Its one thing to say something nice about someone that あなた can back up but, on the other hand their お気に入り things to is say something completely false and all it does is eat away at my dad’s self-esteem!
September 7, 1996,
I woke up this morning to dad putting me in an SUV and Grace was sitting 次 to me. Grace must have come back last night because I haven’t seen her since she left to keep her sister company a week ago. I also noticed that we were in a different country, which means I slept through the whole plane ride to Spain. Today’s dad’s first コンサート for his history tour and it starts in an hour. He will be doing four shows a week and the rest of the time he will be spending with me!
We pulled up in front of a コンサート arena and Grace followed dad inside with me in her arms. Dad ran as fast as he possibly could to go change into his first outfit for the show. I tried to follow him and Grace 発言しました “daddy is busy; we’re going to get to see him sing on that stage over there!” She picked me up and I 発言しました “WOW… That’s going to be so cool! Are people going to scream for him?” She 発言しました “yes, really loud!” I rested my head on her shoulder and 発言しました “I 愛 my daddy so much!” She 発言しました “I know あなた do; he loves あなた もっと見る though!” We playfully argued back and forth about who loved who もっと見る and then dad came out of his dressing room. He kissed me and 発言しました “okay; it’s time for me to do my thing!”
I sat backstage and watched the concert. Dad would occasionally come back there for a last-minute costume change and the entire time he would talk to me. Even though he’s on tour he knows that he needs to be there for me no matter what! He doesn’t want me to forget that he’s my father and that I can come to him with anything! As I watched him dance across the stage I absolutely loved when he was doing and thought it was so awesome!
When the 表示する was over he came backstage to get me and he was dripping with sweat. He picked me up and asked “did あなた like the concert?” I 発言しました “daddy I want to do that when I grow up!” He 発言しました “you can do whatever あなた want to, just as long as あなた try your best and work hard!!!” I knew from that moment on that that was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life! Just seeing him on the stage and how magical his dance moves were mesmerized me! We went back to the hotel and I fell asleep in his arms!
December 1, 1996,
It was three o’clock in the morning and I walked into dad’s bedroom. I climbed on the ベッド and shook him until he woke up. He turned on his light that was 次 to his ベッド and rubbed his eyes. He asked “what are あなた doing awake this early?” I 発言しました “I had a bad dream again daddy… I am really scared!” He 発言しました “this is the 5th time in a row that あなた have had a bad dream!” I put the blanket over me and 発言しました “it was about a monster chasing me this time!” Dad 発言しました “monsters aren’t real… あなた have nothing to be afraid of sweetheart!”
I knew very well that monsters were not real; the real reason I wanted to be with him was because the new baby will be here soon and I’m worried that I’m going to miss out on doing stuff like this after he is born! I think dad is starting to catch on to my tricks and I don’t think he will let me sleep in his room anymore!
He hugged me and 発言しました “I need to go back to sleep because I have a コンサート tomorrow so, go back to your bed, I 愛 あなた but, you’re not scared and it’s time to go to sleep!” I looked at him shocked and climbed off the bed. As I walked back to my room (in the hotel we were staying at) I 発言しました “I just don’t want to give あなた up!”
Afterwards I laid in my ベッド staring at the ceiling wondering if my dad was truly going to treat me the same as my baby brother! I don’t know what made me doubt that he wouldn’t but, here I was starting to grow up and learn new things. My brother would be the baby of the family and I would just be me! I know dad loves me but, what if the new baby would listen to him and stay out of trouble? Most times when I get in trouble I don’t think before I act and what if the new baby was everything he ever wanted in a child? I can’t change who I am, which most of the time was a troublemaker and ignored everything that was 発言しました to me!
December 19, 1996,
It was about an 時 and a half after my dad’s コンサート and we were just getting settled in at a new hotel. I am slowly getting used to life on the road and dad tries to make each bedroom that I have in the hotels comfortable for me. He takes posters that are normally in my bedroom at ホーム and puts them in each hotel room. Something that I’ll never forget is the fact that he always puts a poster of himself in my bedroom, no matter where we are so I can always look at him; even if he’s not there in person!
I heard dad watching a movie in his bedroom and went in to see him. I looked at the TV screen captivated によって what I was seeing. I asked “daddy; what are あなた watching?” He 発言しました “this is 星, つ星 Wars, one of my お気に入り movies!” I asked “what are those colorful things those people are fighting with?” He 発言しました “those are light-sabers!” I 発言しました “Lifesavers?” He laughed and 発言しました “no, light sabers!” I 発言しました “yeah; that’s what I said, Lifesavers!” He chuckled and 発言しました “okay, I guess they are Lifesavers!” I climbed on the edge of his ベッド and onto his lap. He smiled as I really became interested in what was happening in the movie.
I asked 質問 about tons of different things about the characters and he would quickly jump to answer them. I don’t know what it was about that 星, つ星 Wars movie that was so special but, I really felt like that was a good way for us to bond even after my brother is born!
December 21, 1996,
It’s getting closer and closer to the birth of my baby brother so, Debbie is coming over again today to help dad get prepared to be a father of two! Dad was busy getting ready for the 日 when she arrived and Grace let her inside our hotel room. Grace then when to her room so, she could fold our laundry. I was playing in my room and watching a ディズニー movie.
Debbie came in my room and sat down on my small twin sized bed. She asked “how are you, I can’t believe you’re almost 3 years old now… I remember when あなた were just a little baby!” I ignored her and searched through a pile of toys for my pacifier. She looked at me shocked as I casually put it in my mouth. She 発言しました “wow; I’m surprised your daddy still lets あなた have a pacifier!” I heard dad walking down the hallway and ran to him.
He scooped me up and 発言しました “hi Debbie!” He walked over to the ソファー, ソファ and sat down 次 to her. Grace came over to the three of us and passed me a bottle of チョコレート milk. Debbie looked at dad and asked “don’t あなた think Alanna is getting too old to be using pacifiers and baby bottles?” He ran his fingers through my hair and 発言しました “I’ll deal with that when it comes, for now she can stay my baby girl for a few weeks!” She 発言しました “I just figured since she is almost 3 years old あなた would have got rid of those things a while ago!” Dad 発言しました while beginning to get irritated “I really don’t appreciate あなた giving me parenting advice; when あなた are not with her every single 日 and あなた are not theoretically her mommy!” She 発言しました “okay; I don’t want this to turn into a fight so, I’ll keep my thoughts to myself!” Dad 発言しました “thank you!”
Debbie put a gift bag filled with baby clothes on the coffee-table and started to take them out. Dad asked “what’s all this for; あなた don’t have to buy anything!” She 発言しました “well, I thought because he is going to be your first son; I would get あなた some boys clothing.” I 発言しました “wow, new clothes for my baby brother!” Debbie asked “are あなた sure あなた want to name him Prince?” Dad 発言しました “yeah, because it was my grandfather’s name and because I think it’s adorable!” Debbie asked “Alanna, are あなた excited to be a big sister?” I 発言しました “yeah, he’s going to cry a lot!” She laughed and 発言しました “I’m sure he is!”
After she had left, dad sat down on the ソファー, ソファ with me his lap and 発言しました “only a little bit longer to go and your little brother will be coming!” To me dad looked happy but; I think he’s a little bit nervous because he didn’t expect to have another baby while he is still on tour! I don’t know how he’s going to balance going to concerts and being a father of two but… I know he will figure it out!
March 16, 1996,
I turned two years old yesterday and dad is having a hard time with my temper tantrums. He loves me to death; I just don’t think he knows what to do with me half the time! Grace is getting もっと見る and もっと見る frustrated with every 日 that goes by. I have no doubt in my mind that he loves me but sometimes I wonder if I’m not what he bargained for!
There was a knock at the front door and a blonde haired woman that I did not recognize walked through the door. I had this strange feeling that I knew she was but, I couldn’t put a name to her face. Dad plopped me down on the ソファー, ソファ and sat in between her and I. He 発言しました “listen Debbie, I know things didn’t leave on the right foot last time but, I’m ready for another baby and I want to put all of those feelings behind us!” She 発言しました “I was just being way too sensitive and I apologize for what happened!” She looked at my hair and looked at hers while smiling. She smirked at dad and 発言しました sarcastically “I wonder where she gets that hair from?” He 発言しました “yeah I don’t know where she gets it either!”
I ran around the living room screaming and Debbie asked “are あなた sure you’re ready to deal with Alanna and a newborn baby Michael?” He 発言しました “I think I know what to expect now at least the first 年 of the 次 child’s life!” I ripped one of my new 本 that I got for my birthday and dad asked “why would あなた do that?” He picked me up and put me in the corner facing the wall. Debbie looked it dad and asked “does she normally act like this または is it only because I’m here?” He laughed and 発言しました “no, she started her terrible twos a few months ago!” I tried to get out of the corner and he 発言しました “don’t あなた even try to 移動する from that spot till I tell あなた that あなた can!”
Debbie 発言しました “I have to say that I’m shocked to see this side of you!” He asked “what do あなた mean?” She 発言しました “well, I expected あなた to be a laid-back father but, what あなた just 発言しました to Alanna proved me wrong!” He picked me up and asked “are あなた sorry for ruining your new book?” I kissed him and 発言しました “I’m sorry daddy.” He put me down and 発言しました “it’s okay but, don’t do that again.” He came back over to the ソファー, ソファ and sat down. He 発言しました “it took me a while to be stern with her but, I’ve learned that I have to be because if I’m not she feels she can get away with anything.” He cleared his throat and 発言しました “believe me I felt terrible the first time I had to punish her!”
After a few hours of talking about having another baby, Debbie grabbed her ジャケット and gave dad and I each a hug before she left. I climbed onto his lap and he 発言しました “I don’t know about あなた but, I think あなた need a sibling!” I had no idea what he was talking about and I sat there with a blank look on my face. He 発言しました “I know あなた don’t understand what I’m saying but, あなた will soon enough!” As he held me he 発言しました quietly “I can’t believe あなた are already two years old… あなた are growing up way too fast for me!!!”
March 24, 1996,
It was almost 3 o’clock in the in the morning and I woke up to dad taking me out of my ベビーベッド and bringing me outside to the car. He 発言しました “hey sleepyhead, we’re going to go to ディズニー World to see Mickey Mouse!” He buckled me into my car シート, 座席 and sitting 次 to me was my uncle Macauley Culkin. He isn’t really my uncle but, dad and he are really close so I’ve always called him uncle Mac. He starred in the movie “home alone” which is one of my dad’s お気に入り movies!
We arrived at the airport and boarded our flight. While dad flipped through one of his parenting books, I watched the in-flight movie of the lion King. Uncle Mac played his hand held video games and I ended up falling asleep. When we got to our destination I was wondering where we were going. A few 分 later I saw a huge 城 and immediately knew where we were…at ディズニー World!
I started to get very excited and 発言しました “I want to go see Pinocchio!!!” After we had gotten our park passes we went to go see some of the new rides. I gravitated toward the rides that I was familiar with and uncle Mac started to get bored with all of the kiddie rides. Dad let him go off on his own while he took me on the Dumbo ride. The two of us rode it about seven times before I had had enough and we went off to go find Pinocchio. After about 20 min. of searching we finally found him and I was so happy. Besides the preschool nickelodeon shows, most of what I watch is ディズニー 映画 because dad likes them too.
Then dad took me to get something to eat because I was hungry. He was hoping that we would bump into Uncle Mac on the way because he had not seen him in a few hours. While dad was ordering us some sweet potato fries and cheese burgers uncle Mac showed up. Dad asked “did あなた have fun?” Uncle Mac took me out of my stroller and 発言しました “yeah, thank あなた Michael for taking me on this trip with あなた guys!” Dad put the trays of 食 on the 表, テーブル and 発言しました “you know あなた don’t have to thank me… Alanna and I 愛 to hang out with you!” Uncle Mac passed me a sweet potato fry and I 発言しました “thank you.”
After we had eaten, we spent four もっと見る hours shopping for souvenirs and watching a parade of characters. Then it was time for the three of us to get back on the plane and fly back ホーム because dad has to continue rehearsing for the tour tomorrow morning. He’s trying to fit in as many memorable moments for me before we have to travel the world because it’ll be at least a 年 before we completely 移動する back home. Sure we’ll spend a couple weeks at the ranch every couple of weeks but, we will mostly be living out of hotels.
April 10, 1996,
I had money from a few family members for my birthday and dad decided to take me to Toys “R” Us to spend it. Very rarely do I get to go to a toy store because dad does not want me to become spoiled, so I am really excited! I had over $150 to spend at the store and was excited to get my hands on some new toys. Before the tour starts dad gave nanny Grace a couple of weeks off because once we are heading all over the world she won’t be able to go see her family. Today she was packing her bags and getting ready to head back ホーム to her mother’s house.
After Grace had left, dad and I were all alone in our huge home. He took me out to the car and sat 次 to me in the backseat. When the bodyguard who was driving us pulled up in front of Toys “R” Us I became もっと見る and もっと見る excited! Dad helped me into a shopping カート and we went into the store. The first thing I saw was a giant stuffed animal of Spiderman. Beside the Spiderman stuffed animal was one of シンデレラ and dad asked “wouldn’t あなた rather have the シンデレラ one?” I 発言しました “no; I want Spiderman!” He wasn’t trying to change my mind but, I think he was shocked when I picked the one I did.
Dad took me out of the カート and let me 表示する him where I wanted to go. I walked down the Lego section and grabbed 1000 piece Lego racecar set. He looked at the amount of pieces and 発言しました “let’s get the big mega blocks set instead, because I think they are もっと見る for two-year-olds!” I picked out the red mega blocks instead of the option of ピンク and light purple colored ones. He put them in the shopping カート and I saw a display of toy dump trucks out of the corner of my eye. I ran towards them and 発言しました “daddy I want one of these please!” He 発言しました “okay… If that’s what あなた really want!” I carried it around the store and 発言しました “I want to go ホーム now… I’ll save the rest of the money for 次 time.” He put me back in the カート and 発言しました “that’s fine, I’ll put it in a 安全, 安全です place for あなた so it doesn’t get lost!”
I think dad is starting to learn now that I’m definitely not a girly girl. I already know that I am a tomboy all the way. I can sit through a Princess movie but, it’s not very entertaining to me. I think now dad gets that and is going to gravitate away from those types of things. He knows a lot of people with kids that are tomboys so, I know that me being a tomboy isn’t going to bother him one bit because he’s accepting to those sorts of things!
April 18, 1996,
When I woke up from my nap this afternoon my uncle Jermaine was here with my five-year-old cousin Jermaine Junior. They had just gotten there because they were still wearing their jackets. Dad put me down and helped Jermaine Junior unzip his jacket. I went into the living room and Junior followed me. I have not had as much contact with other kids because of my father’s busy schedule but, he definitely thinks that I need to!
Dad pulled out my toy box from the closet and opened it up. I saw that Jermaine Junior was grabbing one of my お気に入り toys and took it from him. He picked out another toy and I took that one from him too. I 発言しました “no; these are all my toys… あなた can’t play with them!” He looked at me and sat down on the floor feeling defeated. Dad noticed that it was extremely quiet in the living, which usually means I’m up to no good room!
He walked into the room and looked at me surrounded によって a pile of toys. Jermaine Junior was watching Nickelodeon and dad asked “how come you’re not playing with Alanna Junior?” He replied によって saying “she won’t let me play with any of her toys!” Dad 発言しました “Alanna; あなた need to share your toys with Junior!” I 発言しました “but they’re mine… あなた bought them for me!” He sighed and 発言しました “I know I bought them for あなた but, it doesn’t mean あなた can’t share them!” I passed Junior a plastic baseball and 発言しました “there; あなた can play with that because it’s boring!” Dad 発言しました while desperately trying not to laugh “no あなた have to share all your toys with him, not just the boring ones!”
Dad got up and 発言しました “you better share your toys with him または I’m not going to buy あなた anymore!” He walked out of the room and sat at the キッチン 表, テーブル with my uncle Jermaine. Dad looked at him and asked “please tell me these terrible twos to come to an end?” Jermaine 発言しました “she’s barely 2 so, あなた better get used to it now because you’ve got a long way to go before they’re over!” Dad laughed and 発言しました “she’s just so stubborn; it drives me nuts!” Jermaine sarcastically replied “wow… I wonder where she gets that from?” Dad 発言しました laughing “well it’s not from me; I’m easy-going and passive!” Jermaine 発言しました “Michael if あなた weren’t so stubborn あなた wouldn’t have the best-selling album of all time… You’re the guy who stayed overnight in the studio to make sure everything on the album is perfect. あなた wouldn’t take no for an answer even when MTV didn’t want to 表示する your thriller video because あなた were an African-American artist, but they did end up 表示中 it didn’t they?” Dad smiled and 発言しました “okay maybe I’m a little stubborn, but not near as much a she is!” Jermaine 発言しました “you watch; she’s going to be just like あなた when she grows up…Stubborn as hell but, an amazing person because of that!”
Jermaine Junior shouted from the living room saying “Uncle Michael; Alanna isn’t sharing her toys with me!” Dad asked “do あなた want to come here and sit on my lap while he plays with your toys?” I walked into the キッチン and came up to dad. He 発言しました “if あなた don’t want to come in here and listen to me and uncle Jermaine talk; あなた better behave… I told あなた that あなた need to share!” I looked at him and stomped out of the room. Dad 発言しました “she needs もっと見る interaction with the kids because preschool is only a few years away! Jermaine didn’t say anything and took a sip of his soda. Then he asked “do あなた know what あなた are doing Michael?” Dad 発言しました “I don’t want this to come off wrong but, Alanna’s my trial and error child… I don’t really know what I’m doing and I’m just hoping something will work with her!” Jermaine 発言しました “I know exactly how あなた feel; parenting takes real skill and time!” Junior grabbed his ジャケット and 発言しました “you have to drop me off at mom’s house in a few minutes, don’t forget dad!”
As uncle Jermaine was putting his ジャケット on, dad 発言しました “I just don’t want her to become a brat!” Jermaine walked towards the door with my cousin in his arms and 発言しました “she won’t Michael; あなた need to have faith in yourself as a father!” The door slammed shut and I ran up to dad!” He 発言しました “I don’t like it when あなた act like that… I’m not happy with you!”
Dad will always be grateful to have me for his daughter but, he knows how he wants me brought up. It bothers him that I constantly disobey him and he is embarrassed when I act out because he’s trying so hard to make sure I understand right from wrong! He is too tough on himself because of that though! He’s hoping that I’ll catch on soon so, it doesn’t get worse in the future when I’m a teenager!
April 21, 1996,
Dad came ホーム around six o’clock and walked upstairs to my room where I was watching TV. He sat down on the floor 次 to me and noticed that I was sweating. I started to shiver and he asked “do あなた feel okay?” He felt my forehead and 発言しました “you feel a little warm!” I looked at him and started to cry. He picked me up and asked “what’s wrong?” I pointed to my ears and he 発言しました “you must have an ear infection!”
He carried me downstairs and 発言しました “I think I still have those drops from the last time I had an ear infection.” He rummaged through the medicine cabinet in one of the bathrooms downstairs and 発言しました “here they are!” Grace held me down while dad put the drops in my ears. That was quite the ordeal I was determined that those drops were not coming anywhere near me and definitely not near my ears! Every time he would try to put them in my ears I would pull away and one time I actually broke free of her grip!
I ran upstairs and into my room. Dad and Grace had to chase me into a corner so he could put the drops in my ears! Of course I acted like it was the end of the world because I was having a two-year-old meltdown and on 上, ページのトップへ of all that I didn’t feel very good! Dad managed to calm me down によって 読書 me a book while Grace tried to catch her breath after following me around the whole house for 45 min.
A few hours later, dad took me to his room and put a movie in the VCR for us to watch. I laid there 次 to him with his arm around my shoulders and watched Peter Pan. We chuckled and rewound parts of the movie over and over again and this is definitely a moment that I’ll never forget!
June 6, 1996,
It was the middle of the 日 and I was playing with my Legos in the playroom when there was a knock at the door. Dad answered it surprised to see Debbie on the other side. He asked “what are あなた doing here?” Out of the corner of his eye he could see that she was holding an unidentified white stick in her hands. She 発言しました “I have some news!” Looking puzzled he asked “what kind of news?” She passed him the white stick and he 発言しました “oh my gosh; a positive pregnancy test!!!” He jumped up and down with joy and hugged her.
Being two years old, I had no idea what he was so excited about so, I just continued to play. He eventually came over to me and 発言しました “you’re going to have a little brother または sister soon!” I 発言しました “a baby?” Dad smiled as he 発言しました “yes… Another baby!” Debbie smiled and 発言しました “I can’t believe I’m pregnant again!” Dad hugged her and 発言しました “I can’t thank あなた enough for what you’re doing for me, you’ve made me the happiest person in the world!”
I don’t know what compelled me to do what I did next. I got up off the floor and asked Debbie to pick me up. She did and that was the first time I willingly let her hold me since I was born. Dad asked “can あなた give Ms. Debbie a キッス on the cheek?” He was shocked when I kissed her and 発言しました “wow; she rarely kisses anyone but me!” Debbie seemed really happy to have me in her arms but, she also looked a little uncomfortable. I think she was feeling like she was missing out on being a parent but, she knew deep down that she didn’t really want to be a hands-on mother and that dad was doing a really good job as a single parent!
For reasons I don’t understand yet; dad became very emotional seeing the two of us together. He loves being a single father but, his ハート, 心 was hurting for me because I would never know what it was like to have a mother! He started to tear up and took me from her so he didn’t get もっと見る upset because he doesn’t like to cry in front of me! Debbie quickly 発言しました “well; I better get going, I just wanted to tell あなた that you’re going to be a father of two in nine months!” As she left dad kissed my forehead and 発言しました “wow… Two kids!”
June 12, 1996,
Since dad found out he was going to be a father of two kids soon he decided to slowly start helping me reach certain milestones that a toddler should accomplish. He thought a good place to start was によって getting rid of my crib. A delivery truck was going to be at the ranch in a few hours and dad went upstairs with me to get my room ready and 移動する things around so there was room for my new bed.
He put me down on my bedroom floor and 発言しました “I know I’m not very handy but, at least you’ll have something to laugh at while あなた watch me try and take apart your crib!” He kneeled down and started to unscrew the bolts that hold it together. It took him forever to take it apart but, I don’t blame him because he would much rather be cooking something in the キッチン then building または taking things apart! At one point Grace walked into my room and busted out laughing. She asked “oh my God there’s so many screws scattered everywhere and the ベビーベッド looks like a trapezoid!” Dad laughed and 発言しました “yeah, yeah, yeah (blushes) I know I’m no Mr. fix-it!”
Grace let the delivery crew in and bring my ベッド frame and mattress upstairs to my room. To dad’s relief; the ベッド frame was already assembled and all he had to do was put the mattress in. I helped dad put my brand-new Mickey マウス bedding on my ベッド and he put my Mickey マウス stuffed animal at the end of my bed. Grace walked into my room and 発言しました “I was wondering when あなた would ever get rid of that crib!” Dad 発言しました “it’s just hard for me to let my baby grow up!” I hugged him and 発言しました “thank あなた for my ベッド daddy!” He 発言しました “you’re welcome; I 愛 you!” Grace 発言しました “you know that you’re probably not going to get much sleep tonight because she is going to keep getting out of her bed!” Dad 発言しました “yeah, that’s part of the reason why I didn’t get rid of her ベビーベッド right after she turned two!”
At eight o’clock it was time for me to go to ベッド and dad brought me upstairs to my bedroom. He put me under the covers and kissed my forehead. He 発言しました “okay, I’m going to be downstairs if あなた get out of this ベッド I will hear you!” He shut off the lights and left my bedroom door open so the hallway light when shine in my room. I got out of ベッド and walked to the 上, ページのトップへ of the stairs. Dad didn’t notice me at first but, when he got up to get a drink of water he saw me and asked “what are あなた doing out of your bed?” I 発言しました “I want to come down there daddy!” He walked up the steps and picked me up. He put me back in my ベッド and 発言しました “I 愛 you, but it’s time to go to sleep!” He went into his bedroom and I could see him watching TV on the edge of his bed.
I waited about 5 min. to see if he saw me looking at him before I got out of ベッド again and went into his room. He looked at me and 発言しました “you better get back in that ベッド before I have to put あなた in time out!” I started to cry as I slowly made my way back to my bedroom and into my bed. After a while of me sitting in my bedroom crying; dad came in and lay down 次 to me. I think he realized that I was used to having the security of my ベビーベッド and tried to comfort me. The first few times I did get out of my ベッド was because I was testing dad to see if he was going to bring me back but, I only got out of ベッド two もっと見る times before I got the message that he wasn’t going to give in. When I woke up the 次 morning I was in my ベッド alone and he was sprawled クロス his ベッド on his stomach with the remote in his hand.
July 26, 1996,
It was the middle of the afternoon and I was upstairs in my room. Dad noticed that it was awfully quiet and normally I would be making some sort of noise. He went upstairs to investigate and saw me in the corner of the room holding something. When he came closer he noticed I had cut my hair with scissors.
He took the scissors out of my hands and asked “oh my gosh, what did あなた do to your hair?” I 発言しました “I was just giving myself a haircut like Karen does!” At first dad was mad but, a few 分 later he couldn’t help but laugh because I looked so weird with a chunk of my hair shorter than the other parts. Luckily my hair is really short so it didn’t look that bad and it wouldn’t take a long time to grow back.
Dad took me downstairs and showed Grace my hair and she 発言しました “you have to admit that it’s kind of cute that she tried to cut her own hair!” Dad laughed as he looked down at my head and 発言しました “yeah I know… I tried to be serious with her but, I couldn’t because she looked so adorable!” Dad 発言しました “just don’t do it again and we’ll be all good!” Let’s just say I think I’ll be wearing a baseball キャップ for a very long time!
July 28, 1996,
When I woke up this morning dad was at work, like he usually is at this time. Grace is still getting used to the fact that my ベビーベッド is gone because now I walk downstairs and wait for her to get up in the morning. She was surprised the first time I was down there によって myself because she wasn’t expecting me to be up and playing. She went into my room this morning and I had already gone downstairs.
She went downstairs and found me sitting in front of the TV, which I managed to somehow turn on Nickelodeon. She patted my ベッド headed hair and got me a bowl of cereal for breakfast. She 発言しました “I just talked to あなた daddy on the phone and he 発言しました we could visit him on the set of his new 音楽 video ghosts.” I began to get very excited and started jumping around. She 発言しました “were going to go there for a couple of hours so, daddy can ride ホーム with us when he’s done working!” I hurried to finish my cereal and Grace 発言しました “you don’t have to rush; we won’t be leaving for a while!”
A few hours later we drove to an undisclosed location where my dad was filming a 音楽 video. Grace helped me out of the car and we walked inside. I looked around for dad but, he was nowhere to be found. Then an overweight man wearing glasses, kneelt down in front of me and 発言しました “hi Alanna!” He sounded like dad but, definitely didn’t look like him. I started to cry and reached out for Grace to pick me up. She asked “Michael; is that you?” He 発言しました “yeah, this is just a costume that I wear when I play that mayor!!! I didn’t mean to make her cry!!!” Grace passed me to him and 発言しました “it’s okay; it’s just daddy in a costume.” I shook my head and 発言しました “that doesn’t look like daddy!” I screamed out of sheer terror and clung to her as tightly as I possibly could!
Grace followed the man with me in her arms and went into a dressing room. He sat in the chair and people began to remove a rubber mask from his face. When the mask was off I finally realized that it really was dad under all that makeup!” He looked at me and smiled. I climbed onto his lap and 発言しました “I 愛 あなた daddy!” He 発言しました “I 愛 あなた more!!!”
August 1, 1996
I was playing with my toys in the playroom while Grace was doing dishes in the kitchen. The phone rang and she picked it up. She had a shocked look on her face as she listened to the person on the other side of the call and raced upstairs to pack her suitcase. I was wondering what was going on because I saw her crying as she ran to her room. I decided to lay low for a while so I didn’t make her any sadder than she already was!
20 min. later dad came ホーム oblivious to what was going on. He saw that I was downstairs によって myself and then Grace came to greet him carrying her suitcase. Dad looked at her as tears streamed down her face and asked “what’s wrong?” She 発言しました “my sister called and told me she was just diagnosed with lung cancer and asked if I could keep her company until my other sister was able to quit her job and stay with her full-time!” He hugged her and 発言しました “you take as much time as あなた need and tell her I’ll keep her in my thoughts!” She asked “who will watch Alanna while you’re at work because I will probably be gone for a month?” He 発言しました “I will stay ホーム with her… It will give me some time to spend with her before the new baby comes!” She hugged me and sobbed as she walked out the door.
I asked “where is she going daddy?” He picked me up and 発言しました “she will be back in a few weeks!” He kissed me and 発言しました “that’s okay, me and you’re going to have fun together because I’m not going to work until she gets back!” I 発言しました “daddy I want to take a bath!” Even though dad tries his best to be ホーム from work in time to give me a bath and put me to bed, he had not been able to in three months because of his busy schedule!” He 発言しました “okay, we can do that!”
October 31, 1996,
I am so excited because I’m going to get to go trick-or-treating today for my first time! Dad came up with a plan so, we don’t have a repeat of last year! He brought a costume for himself to where when we go house to house because people won’t know that it’s him. He brought himself a Spiderman costume and I picked out a バットマン costume. Grace thought that it was a really good idea to have the two of us dressed up and she really thinks we’ll pull it off!”
After we had put our costumes on, we went out to find houses that were giving out candy. When we found a house with the porch lights on I noticed that there was just a bowl of キャンディー on their doorstep. At that point we had been looking for hours for a house that was celebrating ハロウィン and dad was starting to get discouraged. He 発言しました “apparently these other rich and famous people like me are too good to celebrate Halloween!” Dad 発言しました “come on; I’m done with this, I have another idea!”
When we got back to the ranch Grace asked “what are あなた doing back here?” I 発言しました “no one was giving out candy!” Dad quickly went to the pantry and pulled out a big bag of assorted candies and poured it in five separate bowls. He whispered in Grace’s ear and then carried me upstairs. He 発言しました “if we can’t go trick-or-treating, あなた can at least pretend that we are! He 発言しました “knock on that door!” When I did Grace opened it and 発言しました “happy halloween!” I opened my bag and 発言しました “trick-or-treat!” She passed me some キャンディー and we went door to door in the house getting もっと見る until my bag was full!
This will definitely be a moment that I look back on when I am older. Dad always strives for me to have as normal life as I possibly can! He didn’t want me missing out on trick-or-treating for the 秒 time in a row so, he came up with this within minutes. I was so excited and he couldn’t handle having to let me down again! Sure; this wasn’t what I had in mind but, it is probably as close as I’ll ever get to doing the real thing! This is just もっと見る proof that my father is the most amazing father in the world and is nothing like what the media 表示する him to be! I wish they would just leave him alone! Its one thing to say something nice about someone that あなた can back up but, on the other hand their お気に入り things to is say something completely false and all it does is eat away at my dad’s self-esteem!
September 7, 1996,
I woke up this morning to dad putting me in an SUV and Grace was sitting 次 to me. Grace must have come back last night because I haven’t seen her since she left to keep her sister company a week ago. I also noticed that we were in a different country, which means I slept through the whole plane ride to Spain. Today’s dad’s first コンサート for his history tour and it starts in an hour. He will be doing four shows a week and the rest of the time he will be spending with me!
We pulled up in front of a コンサート arena and Grace followed dad inside with me in her arms. Dad ran as fast as he possibly could to go change into his first outfit for the show. I tried to follow him and Grace 発言しました “daddy is busy; we’re going to get to see him sing on that stage over there!” She picked me up and I 発言しました “WOW… That’s going to be so cool! Are people going to scream for him?” She 発言しました “yes, really loud!” I rested my head on her shoulder and 発言しました “I 愛 my daddy so much!” She 発言しました “I know あなた do; he loves あなた もっと見る though!” We playfully argued back and forth about who loved who もっと見る and then dad came out of his dressing room. He kissed me and 発言しました “okay; it’s time for me to do my thing!”
I sat backstage and watched the concert. Dad would occasionally come back there for a last-minute costume change and the entire time he would talk to me. Even though he’s on tour he knows that he needs to be there for me no matter what! He doesn’t want me to forget that he’s my father and that I can come to him with anything! As I watched him dance across the stage I absolutely loved when he was doing and thought it was so awesome!
When the 表示する was over he came backstage to get me and he was dripping with sweat. He picked me up and asked “did あなた like the concert?” I 発言しました “daddy I want to do that when I grow up!” He 発言しました “you can do whatever あなた want to, just as long as あなた try your best and work hard!!!” I knew from that moment on that that was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life! Just seeing him on the stage and how magical his dance moves were mesmerized me! We went back to the hotel and I fell asleep in his arms!
December 1, 1996,
It was three o’clock in the morning and I walked into dad’s bedroom. I climbed on the ベッド and shook him until he woke up. He turned on his light that was 次 to his ベッド and rubbed his eyes. He asked “what are あなた doing awake this early?” I 発言しました “I had a bad dream again daddy… I am really scared!” He 発言しました “this is the 5th time in a row that あなた have had a bad dream!” I put the blanket over me and 発言しました “it was about a monster chasing me this time!” Dad 発言しました “monsters aren’t real… あなた have nothing to be afraid of sweetheart!”
I knew very well that monsters were not real; the real reason I wanted to be with him was because the new baby will be here soon and I’m worried that I’m going to miss out on doing stuff like this after he is born! I think dad is starting to catch on to my tricks and I don’t think he will let me sleep in his room anymore!
He hugged me and 発言しました “I need to go back to sleep because I have a コンサート tomorrow so, go back to your bed, I 愛 あなた but, you’re not scared and it’s time to go to sleep!” I looked at him shocked and climbed off the bed. As I walked back to my room (in the hotel we were staying at) I 発言しました “I just don’t want to give あなた up!”
Afterwards I laid in my ベッド staring at the ceiling wondering if my dad was truly going to treat me the same as my baby brother! I don’t know what made me doubt that he wouldn’t but, here I was starting to grow up and learn new things. My brother would be the baby of the family and I would just be me! I know dad loves me but, what if the new baby would listen to him and stay out of trouble? Most times when I get in trouble I don’t think before I act and what if the new baby was everything he ever wanted in a child? I can’t change who I am, which most of the time was a troublemaker and ignored everything that was 発言しました to me!
December 19, 1996,
It was about an 時 and a half after my dad’s コンサート and we were just getting settled in at a new hotel. I am slowly getting used to life on the road and dad tries to make each bedroom that I have in the hotels comfortable for me. He takes posters that are normally in my bedroom at ホーム and puts them in each hotel room. Something that I’ll never forget is the fact that he always puts a poster of himself in my bedroom, no matter where we are so I can always look at him; even if he’s not there in person!
I heard dad watching a movie in his bedroom and went in to see him. I looked at the TV screen captivated によって what I was seeing. I asked “daddy; what are あなた watching?” He 発言しました “this is 星, つ星 Wars, one of my お気に入り movies!” I asked “what are those colorful things those people are fighting with?” He 発言しました “those are light-sabers!” I 発言しました “Lifesavers?” He laughed and 発言しました “no, light sabers!” I 発言しました “yeah; that’s what I said, Lifesavers!” He chuckled and 発言しました “okay, I guess they are Lifesavers!” I climbed on the edge of his ベッド and onto his lap. He smiled as I really became interested in what was happening in the movie.
I asked 質問 about tons of different things about the characters and he would quickly jump to answer them. I don’t know what it was about that 星, つ星 Wars movie that was so special but, I really felt like that was a good way for us to bond even after my brother is born!
December 21, 1996,
It’s getting closer and closer to the birth of my baby brother so, Debbie is coming over again today to help dad get prepared to be a father of two! Dad was busy getting ready for the 日 when she arrived and Grace let her inside our hotel room. Grace then when to her room so, she could fold our laundry. I was playing in my room and watching a ディズニー movie.
Debbie came in my room and sat down on my small twin sized bed. She asked “how are you, I can’t believe you’re almost 3 years old now… I remember when あなた were just a little baby!” I ignored her and searched through a pile of toys for my pacifier. She looked at me shocked as I casually put it in my mouth. She 発言しました “wow; I’m surprised your daddy still lets あなた have a pacifier!” I heard dad walking down the hallway and ran to him.
He scooped me up and 発言しました “hi Debbie!” He walked over to the ソファー, ソファ and sat down 次 to her. Grace came over to the three of us and passed me a bottle of チョコレート milk. Debbie looked at dad and asked “don’t あなた think Alanna is getting too old to be using pacifiers and baby bottles?” He ran his fingers through my hair and 発言しました “I’ll deal with that when it comes, for now she can stay my baby girl for a few weeks!” She 発言しました “I just figured since she is almost 3 years old あなた would have got rid of those things a while ago!” Dad 発言しました while beginning to get irritated “I really don’t appreciate あなた giving me parenting advice; when あなた are not with her every single 日 and あなた are not theoretically her mommy!” She 発言しました “okay; I don’t want this to turn into a fight so, I’ll keep my thoughts to myself!” Dad 発言しました “thank you!”
Debbie put a gift bag filled with baby clothes on the coffee-table and started to take them out. Dad asked “what’s all this for; あなた don’t have to buy anything!” She 発言しました “well, I thought because he is going to be your first son; I would get あなた some boys clothing.” I 発言しました “wow, new clothes for my baby brother!” Debbie asked “are あなた sure あなた want to name him Prince?” Dad 発言しました “yeah, because it was my grandfather’s name and because I think it’s adorable!” Debbie asked “Alanna, are あなた excited to be a big sister?” I 発言しました “yeah, he’s going to cry a lot!” She laughed and 発言しました “I’m sure he is!”
After she had left, dad sat down on the ソファー, ソファ with me his lap and 発言しました “only a little bit longer to go and your little brother will be coming!” To me dad looked happy but; I think he’s a little bit nervous because he didn’t expect to have another baby while he is still on tour! I don’t know how he’s going to balance going to concerts and being a father of two but… I know he will figure it out!
"The King Of Pop"
His Extraordinary Gifts were Shared によって All Of Us As He Excited Our Senses With 音楽 And Dance, As Exemplified In The epic Albums "Bad","Thriller",And The Sounds And Beat Of "Billie Jean". His Stage Presence Was Always An Extravaganza That At Times Mirrored His Daily Life. He Offered everone His 音楽 And 愛 With a White Gloved Hand Extended Out To All! He Contributed His Time And Treasure To So Many Worthy Causes As He Truly Believed "We Are The World".
We Now Celebrate Michael's Life's Work As We Reach Out And Eternally Hold That Gloved Hand And Remember Him Forever In His 音楽 - He Made Us Feel So Good. We 愛 あなた Michael Jackson .
His Extraordinary Gifts were Shared によって All Of Us As He Excited Our Senses With 音楽 And Dance, As Exemplified In The epic Albums "Bad","Thriller",And The Sounds And Beat Of "Billie Jean". His Stage Presence Was Always An Extravaganza That At Times Mirrored His Daily Life. He Offered everone His 音楽 And 愛 With a White Gloved Hand Extended Out To All! He Contributed His Time And Treasure To So Many Worthy Causes As He Truly Believed "We Are The World".
We Now Celebrate Michael's Life's Work As We Reach Out And Eternally Hold That Gloved Hand And Remember Him Forever In His 音楽 - He Made Us Feel So Good. We 愛 あなた Michael Jackson .
Live and sigh, crying eyes
Your touch, your heart, your warmth, your lullaby
Live to dream, don't it seem
The tears, the pain, the hurt, reality
Don't あなた know these dreams, I wish could be
The real あなた and me
I come running back to you
あなた push me away, あなた push
Push me away
Darken days, please go away
The nights are bright, delight dream, and stay
As I dream loving you
Your touch, your heart, your warmth, please come true
Don't あなた know these dreams, I wish could be
The real あなた and me
I come running back to you
あなた push me away, あなた push
Push me away
Don't あなた know these dreams, I wish could be
The real あなた and me
I come running back to you
あなた push me away, あなた push
あなた push me away
Your touch, your heart, your warmth, your lullaby
Live to dream, don't it seem
The tears, the pain, the hurt, reality
Don't あなた know these dreams, I wish could be
The real あなた and me
I come running back to you
あなた push me away, あなた push
Push me away
Darken days, please go away
The nights are bright, delight dream, and stay
As I dream loving you
Your touch, your heart, your warmth, please come true
Don't あなた know these dreams, I wish could be
The real あなた and me
I come running back to you
あなた push me away, あなた push
Push me away
Don't あなた know these dreams, I wish could be
The real あなた and me
I come running back to you
あなた push me away, あなた push
あなた push me away
