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Dear Diary...Part II

posted by -Xantona-

May 16, 2013

Dear Diary,
OMG! He's legit falling for me too. :DDDDD OMG! OMG! He legit likes me too omg this is the best 日 of my life I was gonna write this earlier but when I got ホーム I was so tired om I'm so excited I can't even breathe!!! God bless Sam Albert. If Danny knew I was I a trans he would probably blow my entire country up. Well...I guess he'll find out eventually. O.O Oh well... Point is HE LIKES ME HE LIKES ME AGHHHH OMG. I can't even right now. I'm boucing off walls. I'm so fucking euphoric right now. OMG HE LIKES ME :D I feel like Superman...except I don't even know who I...

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The Messiah??? O.O

posted by -Xantona-

I.
Am.
The.
Messiah.
LMFAO no I'm not actually.
I wish I was.
But I'm not.
I could be.
There is a small chance.
But I doubt it.
You know why?
Because I live in Southern Brazil.
1.000's of miles away from Jerusalem.
1.000's of miles away from Bethlehem.
But, I could still believe
that I could save
my disciples.
Do I even have any?
Because I'm not the Messiah.
Or am I?
I actually have no fucking idea.
No. Like legit though.
How does anyone know?
My biggest fear
is probably that
the guy 次 to me is
Jesus.
And not me.
That would actually suck.
Like, that is BEYOND
unfair.
That is unjust--
it's...

My Name: Xante ^~^

posted by -Xantona-

Below is a brief analysis of the first name only.

Your name of Xante has created a practical, responsible, stable nature, and あなた desire to direct the efforts of others rather than to take order または ask permission.

You have a determined, self-reliant, capable nature and resent any interference, although in your desire to help あなた are inclined to become involved in the lives and decisions of other people.

You like to make your own decisions and to be the master of your domain.

You feel a limitation in your own expression when it is necessary to reach another through tact and understanding.

Although...

The End and The Beginning

posted by -Xantona-

Two decades - a bit more.
The tears, the scars.
The sweat, the pain.
23 funerals.
The toils of life.
Life itself.
FUCK. The struggle.
I. CANNOT. EVEN.
But today is a different day.
The beginning of a new me.
The end of the old me.
I can lie no longer.
I've got to be true to myself.
All I've lived up to begins to
unravel
to reveal itself.
Today.
No longer am I the
bastard of ole.
The dick of yonder.
I am
XANTONA
ESTAFANO
EVINVALDO
da SILVA
SANTOS
RIVEIROS.
I'm gonna be a fuckin' legend.
I'm gonna be in the books.
But I have already been
bathed
in 21 years:
252 months:
7,560 days:
181,440 hours:...

Where Am I?

posted by -Xantona-

I shall die forgotten
Yet I live unremembered.
I shall died uncared for
Yet I live neglected.
The hatred.
The push-pull of life.
The tears.
The push-pull of love.
I am not over here.
I am not over there.
I am not purgatory.
I am not nowhere.
So where do I belong?
DO I belong?
How would I know if there's a path worth taking?
What's dark is light.
What's light is dark.
What I once thought was mine belongs to someone else.
I don't even belong to myself.
I shall die unquestioned
Yet I live unasked.
I shall die under-worked
Yet I live un-tasked.
I find refuge in Hell.
My Hell is my refuge.
I live.
I speak.
I dance my life away.
The shadow of the killer
Is the light if the innocent.
Always opposed
Yet never countered.
Unknown.

--X.E.E.D.S.S.R.
[5.3.13]

❤The Story of Us❤

posted by -Xantona-

5 time zones
5 hours
2 hemispheres
Reversed seasons
2 continents
Hundreds of miles
The up all night's
But I don't care
About the time;
How could I possibly
Pay any mind?
I could stay up later:
But then
I have college
We talk
And laugh
And smile
And hug
And giggle (me at least)
And blush (me at least)
All the conversations
All the secrets that we keep
The 愛 that we share
No one on Earth--
EXCEPT US
Understands our 愛
It's complicated:
In a good way
In a cute way
In a fun way
All the hours I've waited
"Just to fall in 愛
It feels this right"
Funny, because I'm taller
And stronger
And older...

This Is Not What I Was Made For

posted by -Xantona-

We are born.
We live.
We die.
But what if I never lived?
Have I always been dead?
Or did I just live not knowing
what life is?
Is the world really round?
What is the reality
of my life?
...of your life?
...of anything?
How do we know
what life is supposed to be?
Is it suffering?
Or is it pleasure?
If it is suffering
then I have lived.
I lived the life of a
lost man.
If it is pleasure
then I have not lived.
I never lived.
Does that mean I was never born.
Walking down the paths of my life
I breathe.
I see.
I hear.
I feel.
But I do not speak.
It is not my turn.
This is not what I was made for....