B|POV
7 weeks later
My trip to Jacksonville definitely helped me get over him but I feel like I can’t breathe and I don’t know why. I know I 愛 him, I always will but I know he is no good for me. I can just imagine he is with that 雌犬 right now and it makes me feel sick. I am empty inside I can’t feel anything. Im constantly numb and I wish it would go away I hate feeling like this. Because of him. Sometimes I wish I had never been born, I wouldn’t have to go through this constant torture. My mums been great but she knows there’s something wrong. Hell, even Phill is noticing and he is never in. School in Jacksonville isn’t that bad other than the boys hitting on me. God that’s annoying. I keep thinking Edward will kicks there buts when he finds out, but then I remember him and all the pain comes rushing back. Today im going back to Forks and I’ll see him. He never emailed me like I 発言しました he could. He has obviously moved on from me. Boarding the plane the past seven weeks flashed in front of my eyes and nothing immensely great happened other than me getting a tattoo. Yeh I really shouldn’t tell Charlie that. I starts at my right hip and swirls up to my right shoulder. Its colourful, I really like it. However my father still remembers me as a little girl and I have to admit I have changed a lot.
- 4 hours later -
Charlie picked me up at the airport and drove me back to his house where I unpacked my things. After that the first thing did was look out my bedroom window to see if I could see him. Thankfully I didn’t I honestly didn’t think I would be able to handle that. I was beginning to get bored so I decided go out a walk and remember the surroundings. However everywhere she went memories of him came too. How he was there when my mother and father divorced, how i was there when his grandmother died. i couldn’t handle it. As i kept on walking i bumped into Tyler Crowley they had a short conversation which ended in her being invited to a party tonight. God I hope there is alcohol! I began walking back ホーム and a black Mercedes pulled up 次 to me it was Carlisle, Edwards father. (C) Bella! So good your back can I give あなた a lift home..? (C) he asked me. (B) No, honestly its fine, I don’t want put あなた out または anything(B) well I don’t want to see Edward but that will do. (C) No please I insist! (C) (B) Great!(B) with that I climbed into his car and went home. When I arrived ホーム I quickly ran up to my room and grabbed my stuff for a shower. When I came out I began drying my hair and put it up in a messy bun. I then had to decide what dress to wear. Oh this was going to be tough. I decided on a white, grey and red dress. God I looked hot and あなた couldn’t see my tattoo! That was an added bonus. I quickly flung on some heels and headed to Tyler’s. When I arrived he was the first person I came face to face with. Crap!
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