With her begging, my cold ハート, 心 softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak 木, ツリー and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that 木, ツリー with a silver ink pen half a 年 ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had お茶, 紅茶 and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.

She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so サワー inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of あなた and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate あなた sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"

I didn't say a word, just looked down . After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.

...
A kind of deep 愛 shot threw me like a bulet.
A dream. Great. But this was a kind of dream that あなた can't wake up from. Me and Susan stoped at at a hotel last night. We got seperate beds but i still felt uncomfotable. In my dream Susan was in a dress and we were hanging out at our park.She came over and I brushed her hair out of her face and leaned in. あなた guessed it. I kissed her. But I secretly wanted to. This dream had too be the ones あなた can;t wake up from. But it felt so real.
I felt her lips meet mine I wasn't watching it もっと見る like living it. to be continued...