Why? Had she come back to finish destroying what was left of my peace? I could see she was crying, yet I felt no urge to comfort her.
"I just came によって to drop off your stuff, I'll leave. But I want to talk to あなた first."
I walked backwards onto the porch. I looked over to see Liz's expression. It wasn't happy. She was really mad at something. または about something.
Bella, followed me onto the porch. I shut the door behind her.
"What,"I asked, placing a mask of no emotion over my face. I didn't want her to see how bad this was.
"I want あなた back, I still 愛 you. I see how much I need あなた now. How can I have done that to you, choosing Jake..."
She trailed off, waiting for me to answer.
"I'm sorry, I can't do this."
"Can't do what? I know that this is hard, I still want あなた though, I will always want you, we were perfect together. How could I not?"
"Bella, your so fickle. Can't あなた see how much you're hurting him? I know I 愛 you, but あなた chose him, so あなた should stick with him, go back, back to that dog and あなた apologize. Please don't come back, I just can't take it. あなた are too bad for me, and I really don't want あなた anymore. Please, just leave."
"But, Edward,...I... I 愛 you."
"But, I don't 愛 you, not anymore."
She looked down, もっと見る tears overflowing her eyes. I wanted to ラップ my arms around her, but there was someone else that meant もっと見る to me now.
"Go,"I said.
She stood there, then she slowly walked around me and toward her motorcycle.
"Go, go and never return. GO!"
I closed my eyes and went inside, my eyes pricked, like I would be crying, if I could. That was one of the worst things I've ever done, but I know now that it was for the best. That way I could have Liz.
I looked up at my revelations into the most beautiful eyes in the world.
"Are あなた okay?"
"Honestly, I don't think I am. She was my first love, I really want her but, I've found something better. I also need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"About the mind 読書 thing."
"Mind 読書 thing?.... Oh, あなた mean that wasn't a dream? That really happened?"
"Yes, that really happened. I understand if あなた don't want me anymore, if you're angry I can leave, but I need to know if あなた can forgive me, I don't like having あなた mad at me. I want to tell あなた how much あなた really mean to me, but I don't want あなた to leave, I don't want あなた to hate me...."
She cut me off,"Stop, stop it. I forgive you, it wasn't even あなた I was mad at, I was angry at myself. I was only a little bit mad at you. Those thoughts, they are something I've never told anyone, I really didn't want anyone to know that I'm a killer. It was all my fault. I was angry and I just couldn't stop myself, I mean, sure I didn't touch the blade, but I know it was all my fault...."
This time I cut her off.
"It's not your fault. I know あなた think it was but it was your power. I mean, sure あなた won't really have it until you're a vampire, if あなた become a vampire, but still I'm the only true murderer here. I killed people, I did it on purpose, but you, あなた didn't even know what was going on. I purposefully chased bad guys down an alley, I made sure they were evil, but I realize now how wrong it was for me to take a human life. あなた on the other hand, あなた didn't do anything on purpose, people do stupid things when they're angry."
She stared at the floor, silent tears flowing down her cheeks. I felt the urge, once again, to comfort, and so I did. For the first time, I wrapped my arms around her, and I held her close to me, letting her cry herself out. I drug her over to the couch, so she could sit and I sat with her.
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I looked up as the front door opened. I didn't know how long I had been sitting here. Liz had fallen sleep. Her head rested on my lap. I let her there, for who knows how long, just not wanting to disturb her.
"How is everything?"
"Everything is fine. She feels horrible, but I think she is the one, she means もっと見る to me than Bella did. I think that is もっと見る than I can ask for. And I think she loves me back."
"That's wonderful, but, あなた should let her in the bed."
"I don't want to wake her."
"Well it's almost time for sunset, so I'll go make her something to eat."
Liz stirred. She slowly opened her eyes. Then she stretched, sort of like a cat, and sat up.
"Good evening Liz, how was your nap?"
"Great, that felt good, to get everything off my chest."
"So do あなた still want me?"
Of course I want you, I think I'm in 愛 with you, and I never want あなた to leave me.
She smiled at me. I smiled back.
"What do あなた want for dinner?"
"I think I want some spaghetti."
"Great, I'll make あなた some."
"No, Edward, I want to make it. It's the least I could do, since あなた make Edward happy,"Esme said.
"Thanks,"Liz replied.
Alice came through the door.
"Wow, she has better fashion sense than Bella, at least. あなた are so coming shopping with me. We can go to Seattle and Olympia and ...."
"Alice, stop talking,"I 発言しました cutting her off,"Let Liz be, she had a long day.
"I wasn't talking to あなた Edward,"she said, sticking her tongue at me.
I rolled my eyes.
"We can go tomorrow."
"Okay, I 愛 to shop, maybe I can get あなた a present, since I 愛 あなた and my feelings are returned. Besides. It's our 1 week anniversary tomorrow."
"I'll have one for あなた too."
"Spaghettis ready, Liz."
"Okay,"she 発言しました jumping up.
I watched her leave. Then I grabbed the box and headed upstairs to my room. I was curious as to what Bella brought back.