Niall Horan Fanfic Chapter 21: My ハート, 心 Will Go On
    I couldn’t breathe. He must be lying. This couldn’t be happening right? I was asleep and this was a nightmare.
“You’re kidding right? Like this is all some joke. Niall it’s not funny. Stop.” I said.
“Hazel, I’m so sorry.” He 発言しました his eyes were shining with tears.
“Niall?” I whispered and then I collapsed.
    My body folded over and my head fell into Niall’s lap. Niall and I had been the only ones on the bus, but I had a feeling that everyone else knew.
    I stayed like that for a while just sobbing into Niall. He rubbed my back and my head. I couldn’t believe my best friend had died. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.
    A little while later everyone else came on the bus. I was sitting with my head on my knees. I wasn’t crying anymore. It felt like I was living in a dead state. Nothing mattered. Harry came and sat 次 to me.
“Hazel?” he 発言しました questioningly.
I couldn’t speak, but I turned my head to him face him in response.
“I know you’re sad. But we are all here for あなた every step of the way. Not just Niall. あなた can come to any of us, for anything, whenever.” He 発言しました putting his arm around me.
    I buried my head in his neck and cried. He pulled me into a hug and I hugged him back. I was sobbing again. I started to hyperventilate. I couldn’t breathe. How could everything have gone so wrong so fast?
    I somehow ended up in ベッド back at the hotel. I don’t know how または when I got there, または how または when I was going to leave. How could I possibly perform, I couldn’t even breathe without thinking of Ally and how she should be here. Alive.
    There was a knock at the door. I couldn’t even get up to see who it was. Half of my life was missing. The knock got louder. I was starting to get really annoyed.
“Hazel!” someone shouted from outside the door.
“GO AWAY!” I screamed.
    The door opened and Niall walked in.
“Hazel, you’ve been in here for two weeks. When are あなた going to get up?” he 発言しました sympathetically.
    I’d been here for two weeks. I thought I’d been here only one day. I didn’t know where time was going. I honestly didn’t care.
“You can talk to me あなた know.” Niall said. He looked sad.
“Yeah.” I 発言しました nodding my head.
“Ally,” he 発言しました pausing slightly to look up and see my reaction at the name, seeing I was okay he continued, “She, she would want あなた to be happy. To get up every 日 and live your life. Live for her Hazel. Moping around and stopping your life won’t bring her back. She loved あなた and would want あなた to go on, with または without her. You’ll be okay. She’s somewhere up there watching over you.”
“Niall?” I 発言しました half whispering.
“Yeah?” he answered.
“Will I ever be okay again?” I 発言しました beginning to cry.
“Of course あなた will.” He 発言しました grabbing me and pulling me into a hug.
    I buried my face in his arm. I cried softly. I could feel his ハート, 心 beating. I could feel the warmth of his skin on mine, his breath on my head as he exhaled. I took in his smell. He was here. I needed him.
“Niall?” I 発言しました again.
“Yeah?” he answered again.
“Will I ever lose you?” I said.
“Hazel, no, just because Ally is gone doesn’t mean that everyone is going to die または leave you.” He 発言しました キス my head.
“Niall, I 愛 you.” I said.
“I 愛 あなた too.” He answered.
    We stayed like that for a while. Him holding me and slowly rocking me back and forth.
“Did I already miss the wake and funeral?” I asked him.
“Yeah, they happened a few days ago. I bought a condolence card and signed your name on it and sent it to Ally’s family, since あなた couldn’t go.” He said.
“I’m such a terrible friend.” I whispered.
“What? No don’t say that.” He said.
“I was too busy crying over me to go ホーム and attend her funeral. They’ll only bury her once. I can’t make up for that.” I 発言しました beginning to hyperventilate.
“No Hazel, no stop.” Niall 発言しました rubbing my back.
“I’ll never be able to face her family.” I said.
“They’ll understand Hazel, あなた were grieving over her. Stop beating yourself up over this. Nothing is あなた fault. あなた are okay.” He said.
    I kept crying. Nothing could make me feel better.
“We should probably pack your stuff.” Niall said.
“What? Why?” I asked.
“The tour, it’s over. We have a flight tomorrow.” He said.
“Am I going home?” I asked.
“Yes. You’re going back to Boston.” He said.
“Where are あなた going?” I asked.
“Ireland.” He mumbled.
“I have to go back alone?” I asked, starting to panic.
“Hazel, you’ll be fine. Trust me. I called your parents and they’ll pick あなた up from the airport. Everything will be okay. あなた don’t have to do anything あなた aren’t ready to do.” He said.
“Will あなた come and visit me? I won’t be able to make it without you.” I 発言しました shaking my head.
“Of course, I’m going ホーム today, actually in a half an 時 I have to leave, I’ll be there for two days. You’re leaving here tomorrow night. によって the time あなた get ホーム I’ll be there. The boys, Eleanor, and Danielle are taking あなた to the airport tomorrow. Everything will be okay.” He said.
“Okay.” I 発言しました calming down.
    Niall packed my suitcases and then we 発言しました our goodbyes.
“I 愛 あなた okay. Don’t forget that. I’m okay and so are you. I 愛 you.” He said.
“I 愛 あなた too.” I 発言しました キス him.
    He smiled at me and then walked away. I went and found Harry. He walked me into his room and brought my suitcases. I was going to stay with him until we had to leave. We spent all 日 and night sitting on the ソファー, ソファ watching T.V.
“I’m starving. Do あなた want anything?” he asked.
“No.” I said.
“Haze あなた haven’t eaten in weeks, literally, wanna go out for ice cream?” he asked.
    I was about to say no when I remembered what Niall 発言しました about Ally wanting me to live on. I wanted to live for her.
“Yeah.” I 発言しました mustering up the best smile I could.
“Cool.” Harry said.
    We went out for ice cream and I had a really good time. I felt guilty that I was having fun while Ally was dead. I told Harry.
“Hazel, listen, it’s not your fault she died. Not having fun isn’t going to do anything for anyone. あなた are still alive, and あなた need to live.” He said.
    I nodded. That made me fell a lot better.
    The 次 日 Harry took me to the airport. He hugged me goodbye and I didn’t want him to let go.
“I’ll see あなた soon, yeah?” he said.
“Yeah.” I answered.
    I boarded the plane and took my seat. When we were up in the sky all I could think of was that Ally was up here too. I stared out the window the whole time until I got home. My parents greeted me at the airport. We drove ホーム in silence. When I got there I went straight to me room. There were pictures of me and Ally everywhere. I almost took them down, but then I realized I wanted them there seeing her made me feel close to her.
    I checked my phone and got a missed text from Niall.
From Niall:
こんにちは babe :)Be ready によって 4 p.m. I 愛 あなた babe :)xx wear black btw.
    I got dressed and waited outside. A black limo pulled up to my house. Niall stepped out in a black suit. I 愛 him.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“Just get in.” he said.
I got in the limo and we drove away. I was really confused.