Part 3: How can I choose between my head and heart?

Bella’s POV:

Then Niall and 3 other boys were playing football, so there were only me and Zayn, Mihrap at home. Mihrap was doing Maths homework. I had done it before so then I had nothing to do. I wanted to watch TV but I couldn’t find the remote. It must have been Niall that brought it to Zayn’s room yesterday. I came to knock Zayn’s door, whispering:
“Zayn! Zayn! Do あなた have the remote in your room?”

Noone answered me. I quietly opened the door and walked inside. When I was finding the remote in his roon, suddenly I heard his voice:
“What are あなた doing here, Bella?”
I turned back and saw Zayn shirtless. He had just took a bath and then he only had a washcloth covering his bottom. The water dropped on his body. His hair was totally wet. I had never seen Zayn shirtless before. His body was so hot and perfect. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. I couldn’t do anything but look at him without winking.
“Don’t…” Zayn 発言しました confusedly.
“What’s up with that?” I asked thoughtlessly.

Suddenly he walked to me unexpectedly and pushed his lips on mine without doubt. His lips were so soft and sweet-smelling. I fell into his キッス naturally. I didn’t know why but I found his キッス very familiar. All of a sudden, I burst into tears. Tears dropped on my cheek while I was キス Zayn back very hard. I felt so guilty because I loved his kisses so much. Zayn kissed my teardrops. He pulled me down on his bed. He kissed my neck and down on my chest. I was panting very hard. Zayn began to take my シャツ off and throw it on the ground . The worst thing was that I let him do it. I couldn’t do anything. Zayn made me feel the heat inside my body. He burned every centimetre of my body.

Zayn panted:
“I 愛 you, Bella.”
Then he put his hand inside my skinny tight shorts and finally took it out of my thigh.
“What kind of girl am I? What the fuck am I doing? How about Niall? How about my true feelings?” I thought.

But how could I choose between my head and heart? My head told me to stop it but my body couldn’t do that. Then Zayn carried me in his arms and kissed me deeply. I hugged his neck and my legs covered his waist tightly. I hated myseld when I kissed him like that. Zayn began to undo my bra and then threw it onto the bed. He pulled me down onto the ground and we made out. I even couldn’t breathe anymore. All of sudden, someone opened the door, saying:
“Oh Zayn, can あなた lend me…”

We both looked up and saw Niall’s shocked face. At that moment, I knew I ロスト my Niall forever.