I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE FOLLOWING. ALL CREDIT GOES TO CHESS_BOXING ON LIVEJOURNAL. I AM SIMPLY SHARING THE STORY. I WROTE NONE OF THIS

I started awake to the sound of a siren. I've only been woken によって sirens on a handful occasions, none of them pleasant. This wasn't actually the worst of them; my sleep had been fretful and filled with awful dreams, and I'd repeatedly jerked upright during the night, only to curl back into a freezing, quivering ball beneath the scratchy synthetic bedclothes. After a night of such distress, I quite welcomed the coming of morning. Even if it was six o'clock, and time for the prison's morning exercises in the yard.

The prison was stirring around me, a symphony of strained yawns, clanging bars, wailing sirens and the yelling of the guards growing in pitch. The light came from the neon strips in the main hall, and I could see through the window that it was still dark. Which made sense, considering it was autumn. In the new light, I could take in my surroundings もっと見る thoroughly.

The cell was approximately four metres wide and six long, with one of the shorter walls made entirely of bars. The bunk ベッド was against one side, at the back, so my head was as far away from the door as possible. Suited me fine. In one corner was a cupboard, and in another a chair and desk. The rest was empty. The cells were arranged so that they all faced inwards to the rectangular central hall, across several floors, which were all connected によって metal walkways and staircases. This gave the impression that, from the right angle, anyone from any cell could be watching you. I sighed sadly (drama queen) and was about to turn away to crawl out of ベッド and into hell when my gaze was suddenly and alarmingly interrupted によって something rushing toward my face.

One moment I was opposite a concrete wall, the 次 I was opposite a pointy, scruffy face which was staring straight back, its bright blue eyes filled with a restless, inquisitive quality. Perhaps it was how they never stopped moving. Regardless, it was disconcerting as all hell. I backed off. He tilted his head to one side. I copied him. He reached out - I resisted flinching - and poked me experimentally in the chest. I gave him my most disapproving, authoritative glare.

He snorted with laughter.

'Get up, あなた silly twat.'

Fantastic, I feel completely emasculated and it's not even three 分 past six.

I clambered down from my bunk - Jesus, it was cold - and took the opportunity to observe Matt while he stretched out and pulled his training shoes on. As I'd guessed last night, he was thin and small and sharp. I couldn't tell how thin; the baggy overalls hung from his frame. His hair was a complete dark mess, sticking on end at all angles and giving his appearance an air of delicate chaos. As I watched him tie his laces, I noted with curiosity the manner in which his fingers moved. They were aggressive in the most graceful sense; swiftly attacking, prodding and poking the shoelaces into place, his dark brow furrowed over the darting blue of his eyes as though he could will the レース into position through concentration alone.

In short, he was absolutely fucking divine.

On the other hand, the crazed psychopath hypothesis was looking もっと見る and もっと見る viable によって the minute.

Now, I know your first 日 in prison is never supposed to be a laugh, but this was quite possibly becoming the worst of them all, I mused, as I wordlessly followed Matt out of the cell when the gate was released. I'd known my sexuality was flexible since I was fifteen または sixteen, and it really wasn't an issue. I didn't have any sob stories where my family disowned me または my フレンズ rejected me, because everyone I knew had no issue with the fact whatsoever. Okay, so a few people had issues and I'd just had to avoid them. But it had never been a problem before - never something to hide または to fear. In prison, however, I just... I didn't want to stand on the walkways and shout it at the 上, ページのトップへ of my lungs, あなた know? Call my fears unfounded if あなた like - I'm sure there are some lovely people in prison - but every fibre of my being screamed that that would be a Terrible Plan. And now Matt. I stayed close behind him in the throng of grey uniforms as we all shuffled outside and into the courtyard.

I'm not even saying that I was attracted to him but I suppose there had been a moment there, a flicker, a thought, a breath, where I had considered the possibility that maybe, maybe, yes. And that was enough to worry me. I hadn't even considered a plan concerning my sexuality in prison. It genuinely hadn't crossed my mind, and suddenly I felt vulnerable and anxious and I began chewing at the inside of my cheek. I couldn't go about developing even the mildest of crushes on those around me here. Not unless I kept it really. Fucking. Secret. And I'm not great with secret. I'm almost eighty percent sure I talk in my sleep sometimes. What about the showers? The シャワー thing, where あなた all wash together, is that true? That can't be true. Can it? Oh, Jesus, I bet it's true. I'm just going to curl up and die. Might as well call it a 日 now. I've had a good innings, I suppose. Why, in caveman times, I'd be an ancient and wise prophet of the tribe, having over twenty years under my belt! They'd be 書く songs about Dominic the-

'Stand behind me, just kind of... copy,' a hiss came from beside me, and Matt took a couple of steps forward. We were all standing in a grid now, with me directly behind him. I ran a hand worriedly through my blonde hair and focused my energy on watching his movements without... watching his movements.

The routine was simple. Steps and jumps and stretches and every Physical Education warm-up I'd ever loathed. When the whole twenty 分 were over, we filed out and into a separate yard. People スプリット, 分割 off into bizarre little social groups. I was left standing with Matt, awkwardly overlooking the scene. He scratched absentmindedly behind his ear, fingers tangling in the soft brown spikes of hair. I didn't notice. I definitely didn't notice.

I wished I hadn't noticed the first time I noticed him. As soon as one notices something, one can't help but constantly notice it.

God.

'Breakfast?' He stood in front of me, a crooked smile flickering over his face. I nodded. I needed a good cup of tea. Yes. A good cup of お茶, 紅茶 would put things right.