My ハート, 心 is heavy with greif. I don't know what to do. I just want to give in, and give up, but I refuse to make my フレンズ and the people I know suffer, just because I can't take this sorrow anymore. I feel hopless and stranded. I feel like an outcast, but I don't mind it anymore.
The fact is I rather be alone than with others. I rather be in the dark than in the light. Although, my mum tells me not to, I want to tell her how I feel but I just can't.
I don't know what to do...
I've been listening to songs that help with the pain, help make me feel better. Hero によって Superchick, Everybody Hurts によって Avril Lavigne, Welcome To My Life によって Simple Plan and I listen to heaps of Taylor 迅速, スウィフト and One Direction songs that are helping me.
Lately, I've been losing apetite and losing intrest in things that I enjoy/enjoyed. I've also been feeling empty and emotional. Then again, that IS what most girls experiance as they become teenagers... Right? Urgh, I dunno. Been so drained latley, but I haven't even been doing much... But anyways, あなた probably don't want me going on and on and on about how emotional I'm feeling. :/