I’m really tired but I’l regret not 書く this down if I don’t do it now!

But I met SHINee’s Taemin today

Okay so me getting to this even was such an ordeal. Basically I won Taemin’s name without even planning on going because I have an unskippable orientation tomorrow and I live 5 hours によって Shinkansen from Tokyo. I just wanted to see if I would win, positive I wouldn’t. I bought ONE album. I got Taemin. Taemin who inspired me, Taemin who I admire, Taemin who got me into SHINee, Taemin who I 愛 and owe so much to.

SHW48 convinced me that I should not let this opportunity pass even when my initial plans to go, when I decided to try, failed. So spur of the moment last night, I decided to just go to Tokyo for the day. It was expensive and tiring but worth every damn thing.

I got to Tokyo Dome at about 11:30am and managed to get in line with my フレンズ who were already there and REALLY close to the front! The line hardly even existed at this point. There were maybe 100 of us.
Everyone was lovely, it was so great to meet them after talking to them for a mere few weeks even though it feels like months! We get along so well too, I am so happy. I’d be so ロスト without them. I wouldn’t have been to the event without them.

Event registration was set to start at 2, and it actually almost did! That was the most on time they were all day. Prior to that I had been agonizing over what to write on my card….I went with “Thank あなた for everything! [Please stay healthy] Good luck with Tokyo Dome! [Ganbattene!]” with a happy face and some sparkles. We got our winning cards checked and were 10 分 later ushered in to get our numbers!!! I was number 18! EIGHTEEN. SO. EARLY.
Taemin’s number slips were yellow too <3 The other 4 also had their corresponding colors!

We had 15:30 written on our cards, so we had an 時 to kill. That 時 went soooo fast, it was so stressful! We had to try to get tickets to other friends, keep tabs on all of us, meet others….it was insanity! Once the time came though, I felt like I was gonna throw up. I got really light headed. It was so weird, it came and went….I’d get bouts of believing this was real, I’d actually be seeing Taemin. Then I’d not believe it and feel totally calm. It was….so weird. This continued throughout the 次 時 または so in which we were ushered from this square fenced in area then into the building. We all freaked out omg….we got into the building, entered one room, entered the main one and there they were…..the stalls and curtains that SHINee were behind, their names marking the lines for them.

We were once again all shoved in an area and all mixed up, kind of afraid we wouldn’t get to go in order (some フレンズ were number 1 so we NEEDED to be in order haha) and thankfully we were! Bunny and I were both 18, for Minho and Taemin respectively. Our BIASES. This was happening??? We were in line, we were mere feet away from SHINee themselves!
This was the part that felt like forever….we must have been waiting for them to let the lines start for less than 10 分 but man it was an eternity it seemed. So we waited and waited, me somehow feeling a bit もっと見る calm despite still having no idea what to say. I only decided I’d speak in English, if only to see if Taemin would reply in basic English. Man it was so hard to believe that they were behind those curtains.

And then Key stood on something and popped his head over his curtain. WE WENT FUCKIN’ WILD. OH MY GOD KEY. Wow!!! I must have seen him for like 2 秒 but I was less than 10 meters away from him and he was so beautiful. Wow, Key!! Thank あなた so much for treating us to seeing you, and for looking at us!! One of the girls in front of me burst into tears it was incredible. A few 秒 after Key’s appearance, Minho started patting his hands against his curtain omg the tease. It looked like he was going to do what Key did; I saw the 上, ページのトップへ of his head, saw his beautiful hair, but he must have been advised not to to what he was planning on doing but I really appreciate his effort <3

And then it felt really real. They were really really there. I got really nervous and sick feeling again and omg.
And we started moving!! 17 people in front of me!! I only had 17 people, probably just over a minute, to calm myself down and decide I was going to say hello and shake his hand and try to express in a few 秒 how much he means to me but of course I couldn’t.

So the girl in front of me disappeared behind the curtain and then suddenly I was through the curtain.

I thought he was going to be sat down. I thought he was going to be still occupied with the other girl. But no, I walked in and he was looking right at me and I looked right at him and he is so beautiful. He doesn’t look real. He looks like a perfect picture または really HD video image but he’s real goddammit. His hair color at the moment is a lovely honey blond. It was スプリット, 分割 in the middle a little bit. I don’t know what the hell he was wearing, I can’t remember. But I walked up to him and I went into autopilot and after a moment of realizing I didn’t say anything, said

“…Hi”

And he looked so awkward and I was like damn why did I say that and he sounded like he laughed ever so slightly and kinda awkwardly and 発言しました “Hi…”

And we shook hands in the lightest way possible. He didn’t fully grab my hand and I was too shy to grab his and I just looked down and I didn’t look at him again because I’m a fucking moron but I looked at his hands and they are very cute. I thought I was supposed to put my message card/phone number into the box myself (I still don’t know if I was supposed to) but he had his hand out a bit so I gave it to him kajdhbdjdsnhdjn and as I did I remembered to blurt out “THANK あなた FOR EVERYTHING” and then I was out of the room.

And then I was out the door of the building and I was crying. That really just happened, I really met Taemin. He was there and I saw him and he saw me??? And we kinda shook hands! I just burst into tears oh my goodness. And the others were out already and some of them were crying and omg. Bunny and I just hugged for a while and cried into each other and I’m crying now omgojnh. And we were exchanging hands and stories and man, SHINee are so great. They’re so great. That was about 10 秒 max each (security were timing it can あなた believe it haha) but they still had such an impact on us in those short 秒 because of everything they stand for for us and everything they did and still do for us.
Deysi and I were sat down and just blank and leaned on each other and just cried again. I still can’t believe it. And then those who got to meet もっと見る than one member came out and were just ecstatic and it was so wonderful. And we were all brought together and sharing this all because of SHINee!

I’m so glad seeing Taemin had the impact on me that it did. It showed me I’m really still capable of getting really, really excited and emotional this way about something (I was afraid that was wearing off, the emotions at this level). And it just proves how incredible I find him and the impact he’s had on me for the past two years. It has been pretty much two years exactly since I really got into SHINee, and it’s all because of him!

I can’t thank SHINee and Taemin enough for all they’ve done for me, but now at least Taemin knows that I am thankful for him, even if not quite the depth of thanks. He knows, because I told him myself!

cr: Kyumiosity