Mother was a handful as usual and as usual she was able to find fault with everything I did.
I am the "Dean of Medicine", graduated medical school in the 上, ページのトップへ of my class, and I run a hospital and it is still not enough to earn her respect.
She called me a slut. How could she actually call me....?
Then there is House. あなた were going to stand up for me. あなた felt defensive of me. I should tell あなた that I loved the way that felt. あなた whom I have loved forever and wanted to pay some attention to me. あなた felt like a hero to me in that moment. I know あなた needed time alone. I have done nothing but order あなた around and keep あなた jumping through hoops.
I don't know why everything あなた do makes me もっと見る afraid that this is not what あなた want. I wish I could tell あなた that I am scared. I have never wanted many things in my life. My life has been based on gaining approval. But, "I want you." I have always wanted you.
"I am screwing this up." I am screwing us up.
I wish I could tell あなた that when あなた walk into the room I just want to touch you. I think about what it feels like when your lips brush across mine. I can feel あなた inside me and how amziing あなた feel to me. I can feel あなた in my core. The moment that あなた took me in your arms and あなた picked up and I laid underneath you. I never imagined that あなた would feel so good to me. I felt like I was.........................Home.
I knew from the beginning that 日 in the bookstore I would never meet another man that I wanted the way I wanted you. But I know it doesn't seem that way. Lately I can't hold a smile. Lately...... Lately I am so afraid あなた will find out I am not what あなた want. あなた will realize I am not good enough.
She put her head in her hands and tears began streaming down her face. I need あなた House. I need あなた so much. Please ........
At that moment she felt a hand touch her. She didn't jump because she knew the touch.
Cuddy come here. House pulled her up gently and he sat down and she sat in his lap and she buried her head in his shoulder. He held her and he rocked as she cried.
Cuddy talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.
She just hung on to him tighter and cried harder.
Why are あなた so upset now? Is it because I drugged your mother または I tried to get out of being here? I am sorry. Cuddy do あなた want out of this?
She raised up and she put her hand on his face. Maybe that would be the best. Maybe this is just もっと見る than あなた can handle.
With that he stood up. "What?!" もっと見る than I can handle? I am not the one who looks miserable all the time または barks out orders like they are a drill instructor. あなた wait on me to screw up または to let あなた down.
House maybe that is why あなた lied to me または tried to get out of my birthday dinner. あなた are just sabtoging this.
Again with the lying. Cuddy I did that to save my patient. I didn't tell あなた afterwards because あなた made a production out of me respecting your wishes. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt us. I didn't want to lose you.
I drugged your mother because I didn't want to spend the evening with her and her ranting. I didn't want to listen to Wilson whining.
For someone who didn't want me to change あなた have done nothing but try to change me. I feel like I am on a tightrope.
Well あなた can leave. あなた don't have to be here. あなた are free to leave anytime あなた want. I have always survived. I cried myself to sleep many nights because of you. One もっと見る is not really a big deal.
He approached her and she tried to pull away but he held on. I don't want to leave Cuddy. I.....
We have everything but the truth Cuddy.
"Cuddy what is the truth?" He put his finger under her jaw and raised her face upward until their eyes met.
"I can't..................."
"Cuddy", the truth?
Her eyes were so full of fear and then she just 発言しました it.
I'm afraid!!! ok I am afraid.
あなた are not the only one who is broken and screwed up. I am so in 愛 with you. あなた were my ファンタジー House. あなた were in my head and now あなた are in my............ And again the tears streamed down her face.
You're in my ハート, 心 now and I don't know how to deal with it. I know what it feels like to be touched によって あなた and how あなた feel when あなた make 愛 to me and I can't imagine how that would feel if I...... if I lost........
He wrapped his arms around her little frame and sighed and as he began to speak a tear escaped his eyes.
Cuddy I was drowning in my self pity and my pills and あなた put your faith in me and あなた found a way to breathe life back into me. That chasm that we talked about a few years ago; あなた turned a deaf ear to it and あなた just dealt with me from your heart.
I am a different man now. I am here because I want to be here and I am trying to reach you. Cuddy come here to me.
Cuddy, "I 愛 you. He led her to the ピアノ and he began to play.
"Wilson had it sent over from his condo to Cuddy's." It was therapuetic for House and Wilson had bought for him.
As he played the tension in her body eased and she watched his hands 移動する across the keys.
"That is beautiful House. What is it?
"Cuddy's Serenade." I composed it the night of Rachel's Simchat.
"What?"
I wrote it that night.
House I wanted to invite you. "I wanted あなた there." I didn't know how to say it または how to ask you.
There was a moment that I realized あなた had always been there to save me Cuddy and あなた took the hit and my wrath. I realized how much あなた have 与えられた up and sacrificed for me. あなた put yourself out there for this hospital, patients, and for me.
I was so mad at あなた about the surgery あなた did but あなた did it to save my life. あなた knew I would be furious.
House did あなた forgive me?
Cuddy あなた have been there every step and took everything I had to dish out. The 質問 is now,
"can あなた forgive me?"
"I 愛 あなた Cuddy." "The way あなた draw your bottom lip in when あなた want something and あなた don't know how to ask for it. The way あなた raise your eyebrow and square your shoulders when あなた are trying to put your foot down. The way あなた flirt with me and even the way あなた look at me at the ディナー 表, テーブル when I am getting ready to put your mother in her place."
"House", I thought あなた wanted the night alone.
"That's the thing Cuddy." I am never alone. I don't feel alone and I like the way that feels. The only thing I could think of anyway was あなた naked. So here I am.
"She laughed" and then she laughed harder. He watched her but then as he was watching her he just leaned into her. Cuddy I want you.
House あなた always want sex.
No. I want you. I want あなた to hear あなた laugh. I want あなた to stop preparing for defeat and open up to me. I want あなた to wear low cut blouses to get my attention. I want あなた to put me in my place when I am being a jerk. I want あなた to let me in.
"House." And she drew her bottom lip in as she stood up. She raised up on her tip toes and she kissed him. She took his hand and led him to the bedroom and began to undress him and with all abandon she made 愛 to him.
She left him breathless all night.
They were slowly forming a bond and they were beginnning to 表示する they had the ability to bend and not break.
As the light came in from the morning sun they looked at each other and they realized this was a new 日 and a chance to make history.
"Their history."
