she missed him.....she couldn't live without him...she missed his eyes, his smile, and him holding onto her and never letting go.....but he was gone...forever.

she whispered to herself: "i wish あなた were here....to touch my hand and beg for me back...i look in the mirror and see your face....i have terrible nightmares about you....i want to live, i want to breathe, your taking over me. i'll always believe in you...i'll give up everything just to find you. have あなた forgotten all i know, and all we've had? if i changed.....i knew you'd 愛 me then....hopefully あなた wont take over me before i go insane.."