My フレンズ aren't what think they are. Whenever i say something, a joke または just something, they would look at each other and smile and have this wierd look on their faces, then after that they just keep quiet and don't talk at all または look at me and have this sarcastic smile on their faces. Maybe im being over dramatic または something but it really hurts me seeing them like that. i always felt like out of the group and so unwanted.
just now when i 発言しました something one of my フレンズ turned her face away from me and looked at one of my フレンズ (im sure she was telling something to her), and they both snickered.
It makes me feel so...low and im starting to think what is wrong with me.Maybe im the one who's wrong on the first place.I never, and i mean never, 発言しました anything that i know that will hurt them cause i know i coudnt live with my self if i did. I care so much about how they feel that i stop considering mine.
whenever they loughed at me about my clothes and anything and humiliate me infront of everyone i would just smile.
They do those things without thinking how i will feel about it, but i can't stand up to 表示する my feeling because i know i'll hurt theirs.