They don't care until something dramatic happens..

a poem I made for a character of mine.


Skeeter the choosy girl who wants only the best
So she set all her Princes on a puzzling quest
'You must find me the bird
With invisible wings
The spear of a flower
The time-telling rings
And the bright and golden kingdom
Without any kings'
She sent the princes off down the long winding track
But none of them sadly ever came back
Skeeter took the crown from the shelf, 発言しました "if the task is so tricky, I'll try it myself
I'll 検索 for the bird
With invisible rings
The spear of a flower
The time telling rings
And the bright, golden kingdom
Without any kings"
She strolled...

I will always be with for every moment of every day
I will call あなた when I know your not okay
I will be there before the blood starts pouring
I will be there even when あなた are ignoring
I will be there when あなた parents do not care
I will be there even when your unaware
I will be there when a blade is pulled out
I will be there even if its me あなた can go without
I will be there for every tear drop shed
I will be there for every red blood drop bled
I will be there for every time that your depressed
I will be there for every time without rest
I will be there for every bloody nightmare
I will be there when you...

-The song!! Full one of a few lyrics!!-

~.:Breaking Inside:.~

[chorus-]
I know you’re breaking inside,
there's so many people who just don't get you,
but if they only knew what was really going on inside,
they would think better!

Oh, Oh,
I feel so alone,
like if they left me out in the cold..
they 発言しました they cared,
but they never dared to come near me,
and so,
with every little step I take,
I can feel my ハート, 心 break.

Outside from my heart,
my body is pumping,
trying to survive,
while throwing these movements.
I tag along,
dragging myself,
not knowing how the hell I got myself in this mess!...

あなた know she is finding her way there, によって how the air feels. あなた know she’s coming によって the sound of the wind whispering in your ear, telling あなた secrets. あなた know she’s on her way によって the way the clouds gather and dance in the sky, like there having a party. あなた know she is creeping behind あなた によって the fog that blows from your mouth. あなた know she’s right 次 to あなた when the lights begin to flicker.

あなた can feel the air get thicker and it slowly becomes harder to breath. Your lungs feel like there being beaten. あなた slowly run your hands over your arms and あなた can feel all your hair standing...

こんにちは あなた guys... I am uhm. Not going to be online for awhile : but while i have the time to... I really need to let some shit out. And also apologise for never ever 'being here'... I guess あなた were right, i never really am here when あなた really need me and I am a terrible friend. Trust me. I hate myself for that too.

This morning before my parents left for a baseball game. I had to look in the mirror. I ussually dont because i really have gotten to where i cant stand mirrors. They make me kind of sick. But as I was looking i really thought a bit too long and a bit too hard. Yeah i have brown...

“If a clock could count down to the moment あなた meet your soul mate, would あなた want to know?”
The rain beaded off the 上, ページのトップへ of the building as it picked up from a soft drizzle to a hard downpour.
“I 愛 the rain.” 発言しました a sweet calm voice from a old women in a hospital bed, she was hooked up to the machines 次 to her. She looked like worn down paper that had been used to many times, her hair was white and thin and there was little of it, and the light in her grey green eyes almost gone. The was many people sitting around in the the small white room, they all looked sad and tired like...

Sometimes i wonder if people even care about me? または if they should care? Because honestly i think im going mad. I think everythings getting to my head and the voices, they never stop anymore...and they're louder to..really bad things..

I also wonder why people care about me? I mean i really am a ロスト hope...i cant save anyone anymore because i can barely 安全, 安全です myself..Everythings getting bad..real bad..

I also wonder if my family notices i havent been eating? Because i havent been eating and ive been skiping meals and counting calories. I wonder if they see that i really hate myself and eveything...