I'm so tired f being depressed. I didn't know why it started at first. In Ninth grade I started having this constant feeling inside and I didn't know what it was but, now I do. I have since 10th grade started. Life is so hard when you've been diagnosed with seve deepression and あなた already knew あなた have it. It's hard when people accuse あなた of doing または being something your not. It's hard when people judge あなた silently from afar または straight to your face. I don't cut bullshit like this though. When petty jerks give yoou ahard time just ignore them, I've learned that. I was bullied for 7 and a half years straight and it was BAD. And, now I'm insecure and give myself a hard time. I'm constantly beating myself up about my art, my body, my face, my hair, my grades, my idiocy, and just everything. I'm trying to get better I really am and if anything 音楽 helps me escape from reality. That's why I constantly have earbuds in my ears または wearing headphones. I can connect to the 音楽 that I lisen to like 'When she cries' または 'Welcome to my life'. The 一覧 is endless but, the thing is that so is my pain. No matter how hard I try it always come back. I can go a week and a half without being depressed and then it comes crashing back in like an unwanted guest. Forgive me for ranting but, I need to get this off my ches. I'm so glad that I can finally cry and release all the pain. I've been bottling it up for too long. The フレンズ surrounding me either do または don't know about this. Some know I'm depressed some don't. But, either way only one comforts me and I don't see her often. My great-grandmother thinks I do it for attention and my mom has too many problems of her own so, I don't bother her about it.The thing is, is that I just need to get this out. My chest can't take it anymore and neither can I myself in whole. It feels nice to get it all out. Like, the fact that i used to be anorexic as well... twice that is I was in 7th grade for a short while and then I also was in 秒 semester of 10th grade. My best friend tried to make me at and my other フレンズ were concerned as well. At least the ones that knew. My other best friend still doesn't know I was. Anyways, there are somethings that I am ashamed of. I'm just so gld to get this off my chest and for anyone else suffering with depression または any other disorders または problems, stay strong. あなた ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE. Don't let anyone get to あなた including yourself. Be brave. Be strong. And remember to keep on living. あなた are woth it and NOBODY deserves to go through the shit I have. Bullying, abuse, threats, none of that. Also, if あなた have severe anxiety disorder like me または are just stressed in general. Keep staying strong and don't give into the stress. If your insecure like me look in the mirror and look at yourself flaws and all and say "This is me and I 愛 myself." even if あなた don't think so because, trust me when I say "You are perfect just the way あなた are." If あなた are gay, bi, trans または anything else like that and あなた still haven't come out. Stay strong and know あなた are PERFECT just the way あなた are. あなた are a human being just like everyone else and, no matter how much hate people give あなた embrace yourself and be proud of who あなた are. I am bi and I am proud. Also, for the bi people who are being told "Your either gay または straight. あなた can't like both." Don't listen to that bullshit. They don't know how あなた feel. Don't let them get to you. To the gay people who are being told,"You chose this and your going to burn in hell." Don't listen to them. For ANYONE going through this または any other bullshit. Remember あなた are better than the ones judging あなた and that あなた are BEAUTIFUL and PERFECT just the way あなた are. I hope that I helped someone によって saying that and I've realized that I WILL BE OKAY after this dark tunnel in life that I'm going through. I just want it to all be over soon. The pain that is. I'm tired of hating myself and feeling so alone. But, I'll make it and so will you.

Stay true to who あなた are. Peace out <3<3<3