This is my true confession about how エンジェル Beats! have changed my life! Its a bit lengthy, but please read it and share your experience also!
I have been a crybaby from very start. Even when I grew up, I used to cry over little tiny things. Everyone used to tease me saying "You are such a crybaby" "You are so weak!" または used to scold me, yell at me saying "Don't cry, its not good for anyone if あなた cry!" "Its so irritating" "Try other ways to express your feelings" But what is another way? No one told me ever! I felt like being misguided. I am really weak at expressing my feelings. It really pissed me off! I felt miserable. I really didn't want to be called "Weak" "Crybaby" I wanted to become strong!
Then finally I decided not to cry a single tear. I tightened my ハート, 心 and started to 飲み込む every sadness, insult, guilt and didn't cry a single tear. But it soon became really dangerous. I was not able to cry. I ロスト my power to express things. I ロスト my concentration on my destiny, started to loose faith and 愛 for everything. I ロスト myself. I was not the same person I used to be.
But then 6 months ago, I encountered エンジェル Beats! First I thought plot is good, so it will be fine and I will not cry. But then, on Iwasawa's disappearance, I cried, only two tears. But it was much もっと見る than two tears. And to my own surprise, I felt really good. I felt like everything is coming out, every feeling that I held so many years. So I decided to give up on エンジェル Beats! that it was going to be painful for me. I was afraid of crying.
But soon I felt like this is the way, the only way to relieve myself from this anxiety and pressure. Then I re-watched エンジェル Beats! I cried out loud, every moment of sadness and anger of my life was present there with me. I cried at my own sorrows as well as those of SSS. It felt good to cry with someone than miserably alone. エンジェル Beats! changed my life in those few days.
Because of エンジェル Beats!, I was able to find myself after these years of struggling. If I hadn't seen エンジェル Beats!, I would not have escaped from this struggle and would have ロスト myself completely till now. But I will not loose myself now. Even if I am alone または sad, I will cry out my feelings and go on with life. I have understood that I am not weak only because I cry.
Thank あなた SSS and エンジェル Beats! for saving me!
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