I need your help! Like right now.

I have this crush since Prep, I'm like 6 years old. [Too young, huh?] and lately I've been 書く in my diary some of my moments with him like "we shared a cookie, I lend him my pen etc." But now, I'm in 8th grade and I still have a crush on him, we're still classmates. And sometimes when I miss him または he's with someone else (sometimes a friend または I think a girlfriend), I turn on my iPod with a sad song and cry. I'm not a jealous person but sometimes, I can feel that I'm one.
I don't know if あなた still call it a "crush" or...do あなた think its もっと見る than a crush, maybe あなた think it's already love?
I cared about him. But, he had a crush on me last 5th grade and I think he's over it and didn't bring it to any conversations.
Am I weird? Is it normal?
He had been part of my life.
An 時 ago, I cried remembering him. 'Cause he's already leaving for Canada and has a...girlfriend. That made me cry a lot.
I almost hated him for not being me as his girlfriend but, in Twitter, 書く in my diary I always write または tweet: "Should I forget about あなた または not? ; I'm not over you, not yet; You're part of my life where I cannot forget あなた easily."


Help? Is it normal?