Serena
He looked up and I wasn't sure, but I thought his gaze softened a little.
"Can I sit here?" I asked cautiously.
"Whatever," he said, sounding bored out of his mind.
"My name's Serena," I said.
"Shaun."
We sat in silence for the rest of lunch, I was eating nothing. The 秒 the ベル rang, he stood up, abruptly and left.
I was left staring in confusion at the doorway I was mostly certain he'd disappeared down.
Shaun
I didn't want to hurt her, yet I didn't want her to be sucked into my depressing world of suffering. What was I supposed to do?
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Every 日 since my parents had died, I'd been forced into seeing this psychiatrist, Dr Martinez.
She never forced me into talking, and I rarely did.
I stormed into her contemporary office, slamming the door behind me.
Dr Martinez didn't say anything for a while.
"Is there something bothering you, Shaun?"
I'm not sure how, but I started talking and didn't stop.
I told her about Serena. That I didn't know what I wanted. I'd made myself vulnerable, and Dr Martinez didn't interrupt.
Once I was done, I wasn't even sitting in front of her 机, デスク anymore. Without thinking, I had gotten up and was staring out the window.
"You've made a lot of progress, Shaun," was all that Dr Martinez said.
He looked up and I wasn't sure, but I thought his gaze softened a little.
"Can I sit here?" I asked cautiously.
"Whatever," he said, sounding bored out of his mind.
"My name's Serena," I said.
"Shaun."
We sat in silence for the rest of lunch, I was eating nothing. The 秒 the ベル rang, he stood up, abruptly and left.
I was left staring in confusion at the doorway I was mostly certain he'd disappeared down.
Shaun
I didn't want to hurt her, yet I didn't want her to be sucked into my depressing world of suffering. What was I supposed to do?
*************************************************
Every 日 since my parents had died, I'd been forced into seeing this psychiatrist, Dr Martinez.
She never forced me into talking, and I rarely did.
I stormed into her contemporary office, slamming the door behind me.
Dr Martinez didn't say anything for a while.
"Is there something bothering you, Shaun?"
I'm not sure how, but I started talking and didn't stop.
I told her about Serena. That I didn't know what I wanted. I'd made myself vulnerable, and Dr Martinez didn't interrupt.
Once I was done, I wasn't even sitting in front of her 机, デスク anymore. Without thinking, I had gotten up and was staring out the window.
"You've made a lot of progress, Shaun," was all that Dr Martinez said.
inch によって inch
bringing me closer
to my doom
蝶 of
anticipation
flutter nervously
in my stomach
knuckles whiten
jaws clench
what have I
gotten myself into
the suspense
is killing me
I'm going to hate it
I'm going to 愛 it
I might lose my lunch
but I don't care
heaven help me
here it comes...
...
I hold my breath...
...
and then
I scream
my stomach
drops
my breath
is stolen
my heart
is pounding
adrenaline
courses
through
my veins
amid screams
of sweet terror
I fling up
my hands
and ride on
the wings
of Thrill!
I remember the 日 I fell in love.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for あなた love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place あなた could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with もっと見る 火災, 火 then あなた could ever imagine.
もっと見る passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the 日 I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
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This is dedicated to my first real バスケットボール, バスケット ボール coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for あなた love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place あなた could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with もっと見る 火災, 火 then あなた could ever imagine.
もっと見る passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the 日 I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
--------------------------------
This is dedicated to my first real バスケットボール, バスケット ボール coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Just a poem. I hope it isn't much of a bother to rate.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
または I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told によって hidden scars
Unable to 表示する themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
または I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told によって hidden scars
Unable to 表示する themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.
