This is a song fic I decided to do, based on the song “Lying from You”, によって Linkin Park. I just thought it would describe perfectly Katniss’s feelings during Mockingjay. So yeah. Here it is.
This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I 発言しました would have あなた running from me
Like this...
“I 愛 you.”
“I know.”
What have I said? What have I done? I didn’t mean for it to go down like this. Who am I? Why do あなた 愛 me? I don’t deserve you. I don’t deserve either of you. And now it’s too late.
I lower my eyes, not looking as あなた walk away.
No turning back now,
I wanna be pushed aside so let me go,
No, no turning back now,
Let me take back my life,
I wanna be all alone...
I can’t stand it anymore. I can’t do this. I’m not the Mockingjay. I never was. Is this the Capitol? Is this 13? Is this the Games? It all feels the same now. I want to go back. I want to be the poor girl from 12 again, the girl whose only thought is to find food, to keep her family from starving. But I can’t go back. There is no District 12. So I hole up and wait. Wait for things to change.
I remember what they taught to me,
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be,
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in,
And now あなた think this person really is me and I’m...
Trying to bend the truth!
But the もっと見る I push the もっと見る I'm pulling away 'cause I'm
Lying my way from you...
Listen to me, all of you. I’m not your player anymore. I’m not your Mockingjay, I’m not your tribute, I’m just me. I’m done. I look in the mirror, and what I see isn’t me. None of this is me. How can I inspire others, give them a cause to fight, when I don’t even know who I am? How do they know, if I don’t? I can’t do this anymore.
I walk alone, wandering the endless passageways of 13. または is it 13? I don’t know where I am anymore. Looking at my reflection, I don’t know who it is facing me. The real me is locked up somewhere inside, somewhere deep inside. All this is a lie. I’ve been lying from you.
Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone,
No turning back now,
Anywhere on my own cause I can see,
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you,
The very worst part of あなた is me.
This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I 発言しました would have あなた running from me
Like this...
“I 愛 you.”
“I know.”
What have I said? What have I done? I didn’t mean for it to go down like this. Who am I? Why do あなた 愛 me? I don’t deserve you. I don’t deserve either of you. And now it’s too late.
I lower my eyes, not looking as あなた walk away.
No turning back now,
I wanna be pushed aside so let me go,
No, no turning back now,
Let me take back my life,
I wanna be all alone...
I can’t stand it anymore. I can’t do this. I’m not the Mockingjay. I never was. Is this the Capitol? Is this 13? Is this the Games? It all feels the same now. I want to go back. I want to be the poor girl from 12 again, the girl whose only thought is to find food, to keep her family from starving. But I can’t go back. There is no District 12. So I hole up and wait. Wait for things to change.
I remember what they taught to me,
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be,
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in,
And now あなた think this person really is me and I’m...
Trying to bend the truth!
But the もっと見る I push the もっと見る I'm pulling away 'cause I'm
Lying my way from you...
Listen to me, all of you. I’m not your player anymore. I’m not your Mockingjay, I’m not your tribute, I’m just me. I’m done. I look in the mirror, and what I see isn’t me. None of this is me. How can I inspire others, give them a cause to fight, when I don’t even know who I am? How do they know, if I don’t? I can’t do this anymore.
I walk alone, wandering the endless passageways of 13. または is it 13? I don’t know where I am anymore. Looking at my reflection, I don’t know who it is facing me. The real me is locked up somewhere inside, somewhere deep inside. All this is a lie. I’ve been lying from you.
Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone,
No turning back now,
Anywhere on my own cause I can see,
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you,
The very worst part of あなた is me.