あなた are not alone. What about your friends? Wait, your answer might be, "What friends?"
Answer- The ones that あなた pushed away from you. That あなた blamed for every little thing that happened.
Q- What if there is no God?
A- There is. I experienced it. I heard a little voice in my head saying things. I ignored it. Finally, I listened to it and good things are happening to me. I used to cut myself. I didn't think God was on my side. That I was his play-thing. Well, I got to go to Spencer Lake Camp and after that, my life was changed. I no longer cut myself and if I want to, I push the thought away...