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posted by elizasmomma
Dear Diary (In His World)
October 25, 2010



I tapped my pen to the pad of paper on my 机, デスク at a slower – but stronger – than human pace. My eyes focused on the lines, each one so clear, so vibrant. The acidic smell of ink from the pen poured into my nostrils, flooding them with solvents, pigments, dyes, resins, lubricants… and whatever else ink was made from. Chemicals.

I wanted to write a book. Not a book that would go on to be published; just a book. A fictional story with fictional characters who I controlled. I didn’t know what I wanted the book to be about, exactly. I also didn’t know where to begin. I just knew I wanted to write. The only problem was that as soon as I sat down to attempt 書く – either on my laptop, または in a basic paper-filled notebook – my mind went blank.

I could hear Rosalie and Alice bickering downstairs about which color they thought looked best on Renesmee. Alice liked her in dark purples, royal blues and blacks, while Rosalie preferred her in whites and pastels. I mentally agreed with Alice then switched my concentration to the footsteps gliding up the stairs, to Edward.

He opened the door to my library, slowly, and the bright light from the setting sun – that was piercing through the window – illuminated his already angelic grin and creamy, buttery golden eyes. Naturally I felt slightly weakened, hypnotized によって Edward’s god-like appearance.”Bad time?” he asked, his eyebrows furrowing together in concern once he saw the obvious look of concentration mixed with frustration plastered on my face.

I relaxed my shoulders and let out a breath of air I didn’t realize I had been holding in. “No. I – I just can’t think of anything significant to write, あなた know? I don’t know where to start, and every time I get an idea it just seems so boring, so blah.”

Edward walked over to me and placed his hand on my back, rubbing it in short, delicate circles. That was something about Edward that would never change, no matter how much I did; he would always treat me like a fragile human. I didn’t mind, though. I knew it was because – no matter how strong I had become – Edward would always see me as his lamb.

“You do have an eternity to come up with something, love,” he joked.

“That’s it! I’ve got it!” I half yelled, ignoring the joke, relieved and surprised によって the simplicity of my idea. “I know what I want to write about! I think the problem was that my life has been so full of magical impossibilities and mythical creatures that it was making everything else seem so boring.”

“Vampires have that effect…” Edward 発言しました matter-of-factly.

“But what if my life as a human didn’t have to end? What if they were just chapters of a book that needed to be written still. Pages that could put the pieces of my ‘human life’ puzzle together. What if I had moved to Forks with Charlie, and あなた were a boy – a normal boy – who fell in 愛 with me, a normal girl?”

Edward’s lips pulled down and I could tell he was contemplating a thought. “Bella, あなた aren’t beginning to regret–”

“No, Edward. I don’t regret what I am at all,” I interrupted. “I wouldn’t… I couldn’t exist without you. This isn’t about regret. This is about having the chance to live out my human life, in a sense. To close the book, end it for good. I want to conclude it the way あなた initially wanted; for me to get old and live a long, happy life – then die.”

“So everything will be the same, essentially, only we will all be humans?” Edward pried.

I took a 秒 to think about it, and remembered that if Edward had been human, things naturally wouldn’t have progressed so fast. We wouldn’t have been married, had Renesmee and Edward wouldn’t have left in order to protect me, leaving me to turn to Jacob. I wouldn’t have found myself turning to Jake to help with the impossible pain that Edward’s void caused.

My thoughts ran rampant as it occurred to me that without Edward being what he truly was, a vampire, our lives would simply be another 愛 story; a somewhat boring story of two humans falling for each other. Besides, I never wanted to know what it would be like if Edward were human; I would always 愛 him entirely for who – not what – he was: unconditionally & irrevocably.


“No,” I finally answered, picking my pen back up off the desk. “No, that wont work. Things would’ve been too different if あなた weren’t dangerous, masochistic. I’m going to simply continue my story as a human from after Renesmee’s birth. In my book, the change – making me immortal – wont happen.” I pressed my pen to the pad of paper and started 書く down ideas, vague memories of my human life popping up in my mind as I struggled to cut through the thick fog surrounding those memories.

“Bella,” Edward began in an almost whisper. “My family and I aren’t going to be the reason for your eventual death in your book, are we?”

I laughed and dropped my pen to the desk. “Of course not,” I answered pushing myself up from the chair and wrapping my arms around Edward. “I’m going to live a long and healthy life with you. I’ll figure it all out as I write. I’m not giving any もっと見る away. あなた can read it when it’s done.”

“I’m excited to read it,” Edward whispered. The sweet smell of his breath danced across my face and into my nose then he pressed his stone hard body into mine, his hands on my back pulling me toward him gently. I, too, pulled his body to mine then kissed his neck, allowing my lips to linger for the greater portion of a minute.


“I’m excited to write it,” I finally responded before I planted a キッス of his cheek.


I could hear Alice, Rosalie, Jake and Emmett arguing debating about something new downstairs.

“She should be Tinkerbell,” Alice chimed.

Jake voiced his opinion on the ‘Tinkerbell’ idea. “Ew, no! Worst costume idea ever, Alice.”

“Want her to dress up as a mutt so あなた can have matching costumes?” Alice retorted, and I could visualize her folding her arms across her chest.

Rosalie laughed at Alice’s ‘mutt’ joke then put her two cents in. “Renesmee would be a gorgeous ballerina. Don’t あなた agree Emmett?”

“No, I think she should be something cooler. Something freaky, like The Exorcist. It’s Halloween, c’mon.” I could visualize Emmett’s contemptuous smirk, somehow, even though I couldn’t see him.


“If あなた think my perfect little niece is dressing up like some possessed girl whose head spins in circles then あなた have another thing coming,” Alice said, not hint of lightheartedness in her tone.

Edward and I laughed, then laced out hands together and made our way down the stairs to mediate. “How about we ask Renesmee what she wants to be, then we don’t have to argue over it?” I said, interrupting Emmett before he could get an argument out supporting his ‘Exorcist’ idea. “Besides, she matures so quickly that at this point she might not even want to dress up. Either way, she can make up her own mind.”

“Not dress up? Are あなた kidding me Bella? Even when Renesmee is three hundred years old we’re going to be having the same debate. You’re never too old to dress up for ハロウィン – not if you’re a Cullen, または a Hale,” Alice 発言しました darting her eyes to Rosalie.

I half laughed, remembering I still had to get a costume for the huge ハロウィン extravaganza Alice was throwing at our house on ハロウィン night. She had already bought bags and boxes full of decorations; everything from life-sized coffins to zombies with motion sensors that moved when あなた came close. She planned to outdo herself from last year, so I knew we were in for it.

“Trust me,” Edward began, “there’s no getting out of it with Alice around. She will, without-a-doubt, guilt trip Renesmee into picking out a costume regardless.”

“For the record, I’m just in the キッチン baking かぼちゃ, カボチャ muffins with Esme and I can hear everything you’ve all been saying,” Renesmee yelled out from up the hall. “And Emmett… no. Just, no. Rosalie, ballerinas aren’t my thing. Too much pink. And Alice, Tinkerbell… seriously? I’m going as a ブル wrangler.”

Everyone froze like statues. A ブル wrangler? Everyone had the ‘did I hear her right?’ look on their faces.

Within 秒 Renesmee and Esme burst into laughter then Ness poked her head around the corner – flour on her face and a glob of batter on her nose – and yelled, “Just kidding! Did あなた really think I would go as a ブル wrangler?”

I noticed Alice’s shoulders drop in relief as everyone laughed. Edward was one step ahead, of course, with his mind 読書 abilities, but he still got a kick out of all of our expressions.


“She gets her sense of humor from me, obviously,” Emmett said, proud of his nieces quick wit.

Rosalie flicked his shoulder. “It doesn’t work that way with vampires, who aren’t actually related, Emmett.”

“Yeah, no kidding. She still got it from me though. She picked it up listening to me and my amazing witticisms.”

Rosalie rolled her eyes then went off into the kitchen, Jake following close behind. Edward followed after Jake, and Alice and I followed after Edward. Emmett went outside, probably bored from debating. Jake went straight over to Renesmee, his face lighting up, beaming, and he gently wiped the batter and flour off her face then kissed her nose. “What’chya making かぼちゃ, カボチャ muffins for Ness?” he asked.

“For you, silly. And the rest of the pack,” she answered, motioning toward Alice. “Alice invited everyone for the ハロウィン party she’s throwing. Actually, she もっと見る または less called and told them they had flights booked. We’re going to need a lot of food.”

In one 迅速, スウィフト movement, Renesmee dipped her finger in the bowl of batter and swiped it across Jake’s cheek, an innocent grin creeping up one side of her face.

“That’s it,” Jake laughed, sweeping Renesmee right off her feet and carrying her to the sofa over his shoulder. “You’re in for it.” He placed her down softly then straddled her, tickling her to the point where she was screaming and laughing uncontrollably at the same time. His tickles turned to kisses eventually and I was somewhat shocked によって Jacob’s conspicuous display of affection. Normally he’d be worried about Edward tearing down some part of the house, または tearing his head off.

It was clear to everyone that Renesmee was in 愛 with Jake, though. I had never seen her light up that way. Her face somehow glowed beyond it’s normal luminescent beauty and her grin was wider that I’d thought possible. I looked at Edward, to make sure he wasn’t about to pounce. Though his fists were rolled into tight balls, his face was steady, expressionless.

“You okay?” I asked.


“His thoughts are pure,” Edward hissed under his breath. “Actually, Renesmee is becoming もっと見る impatient than Jake. She thinks about him in ways that–” And he was off, down the stairs to our ホーム in a blur before he could finish his sentence.

I loved Edward’s protective side. But I loved that he was learning to control himself even more. Real strength comes from the ability to resist what your mind and body are telling あなた to do. Real strength is using your own judgment, fighting your instincts. Especially when your instincts tell あなた to rip someones head off.

I watched Jake and Nessie for a few 秒 longer before going downstairs to make sure that – well… that we still had a downstairs. I didn’t hear too much banging, so I figured everything would still be in tact. Everyone else scattered around the house awkwardly, wanting to give Jake and Renesmee some privacy. I tried to pretend I was cleaning up the キッチン to remain discreet.


“I want to dress up as Ariel from The Little Mermaid,” Renesmee told Jake. “Will あなた go as prince Eric? I was thinking it would be cool to sorta do a couples costume.”

“If I get to be your prince, then I’m game,” Jacob answered, obviously not caring what he had to be, as long as he got to be with Ness’ on Halloween.

“Perfect. I’ll get started on our costumes tonight then.” Renesmee reached up and wrapped her arms around Jake’s neck and pulled his face to hers. They didn’t kiss, they just stared at each other for an awkward amount of time. Their eyes were locked on each-others, their noses gently brushing together. They both smiled so lightly is was almost undetectable. I knew my daughter, and I knew she wanted to tell Jake something, but she was afraid. She broke her stare and pulled his face down then kissed his forehead and hopped up from the couch. “I’m going to see if Alice will run me into town to grab some fabric for the costumes.”

“Alright Ness,” Jake said, somewhat confused によって Renesmee’s sudden change in mood. “Do あなた need help with it at all?”

“Nono, Alice will know exactly what to get. Besides, it’d be nice to have some girl talk with her. あなた know… talk about things guys are completely disinterested in.”

Jake laughed.”Okay, I’ll see あなた when あなた get back then.”

In a blur I was down the stairs and によって Edward’s side, surprised that nothing had been smashed, crushed または beheaded. “I think Renesmee loves Jake,” I blurted out. “I mean, I’m almost certain she wants to tell him she loves him. That she is in love–”


“She does,” Edward 発言しました flatly, cutting me off so he didn’t have to hear it anymore.

I bit my lip in an attempt to hide my excitement. This was harder for Edward. He didn’t get as many years with his little girl as most fathers would. She grew up so fast, too fast. Edward didn’t really get the chance to be the only man she looked up to for very long. She already looks and acts like a nearly full-grown teen. She’s not his little girl anymore.

I put my arm around Edward’s back and rested my head on his shoulder. “In my book, I’ll have the chance to write out her entire life. I was thinking, maybe あなた could help me write that part. あなた can’t control what happens in real life, but あなた can in my book. If there’s something あなた don’t like, we can change it in my story.”


“No, Bella. I don’t want to change anything. I’m sorry I’m being so selfish. I have an eternity with my daughter and no other parents have that. Sure, she grew up quickly, but あなた can’t buy time and I have forever with her.” He sucked in a deep breath before continuing. “And Jake, I truly wouldn’t want her with anyone other than him. It’s not Jake I’m frustrated with, it’s how fast Renesmee is slipping away, growing up. The thing about time is that あなた can’t buy it, and あなた can’t control it, either. I just wish I would have had もっと見る time to really father her before she grew up and fell in love. At the same time, I wouldn’t trade her immortality for anything. That’s why I’m selfish.”

I laughed. “You aren’t selfish. You’re honest. Even normal human parents think these things, but they don’t say anything. I know because I watched Charlie struggle with losing me – in a sense- to you. He didn’t bother me about it, but I could tell he felt a void. He wished he had もっと見る time with ‘little Bella.’”

“Yeah, I know. I read his mind. He wasn’t particularly fond of me for quite some time,” he said, dropping his head down guiltily. “I think Jake will take great care of my daughter. I know he will. I’m sorry for being such a child when it comes to my child.” He laughed, and my お気に入り crooked grin crept upon his face.

“Don’t apologize, Edward. I know what will make あなた feel better,” I 発言しました as I let him in my mind. When あなた live in a house full of ヴァンパイア with exceptional hearing abilities, あなた have to be careful what あなた say. I was thinking about going deep into the woods to hunt together, then building the biggest ベッド of colorful leaves to lay down on with Edward. I thought about pressing my lips over every inch of Edward’s stone-like body and… あなた get the point.

“You’re right,” he said, his eyes wide after 読書 my thoughts. “Lets go, my love.” He scooped me up into his arms and we were out the door and on our way into the woods.

These moments – in Edward’s arms, so free, so in 愛 – are the moments I ‘live’ for, I thought to myself. Though I was going to write the story of my life as a human, to close the book, to – in a way -allow myself the best of both worlds, I knew I belonged in Edward’s world, right there in his arms. Always.

-Bella
posted by courtneykutie
Hey- here's Jane!!

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Alec's POV

The 日 they arrive...

She'll be here,Near my 愛 Maggie and Im Scared I wont be able to protect her,as if she heard my thoughts she says

"Ill be fine stop worrying,If あなた were Human all of あなた hair would be Gray"Renesmee laughs at this

"So true"Renesmee add's

"Ha,Ha"I said

We were in the yard,Walking to the Clearing,every one was talking to different people,Esme and Carlilse just got back a few days ago.Jacob was in human form holding Renesmee's hand,Seth and Leah were walking way in the back in 狼, オオカミ form,They'll howl for the others if we need them,There...
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posted by courtneykutie
Heyy-sorry it took me so long,My computer at ホーム got a dumb virus and we got to go pay someone to take it off,so i have to wait to go to my grama's to write then i get the freakin 24 時 Flu!!!!

Chapter 5
Renesmee Pov

When we told Uncle Em and Aunt Rose about what's about to happen in 3 weeks from now,They started to train with everyone.In the begining Daddy and Uncle Jazz thought I didnt need to learn but Mom and Aunt Alice talked them in to it.

When I watched them Fight it was Funny,Mom bet dad alot もっと見る than he bet her

"Im letting her win"He says

"Sure If it Makes あなた feel better あなた can say...
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CHAPTER 14: a new fate (maybe ;))

RENESMEES POV.

They took us away and tied us up before we even had a chance to scream. Wow these ropes were tight, wait a 秒 these werent ropes, they were chains! They were so tight that even emmett probably wouldnt be able to escape. The room was pitch black. I could only feel the chains around me. Then the lights flickerd on the other side of the room and a guy appeared.

"Whoo arre youu," I barely said.

"remember me, were the same, well not anymore, but we used to be," he smirked.

I would have to ask about the "not anymore", then i gasped.

"Nahuel, is that...
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Chapter 7: Fight

I had to fight back the urge to sprint, while screaming, and grab him and run away as fast as i could. I couldnt fight it back.

"AHHHH!!!!!," I screamed as i ran towards my dad. I didnt even pay attention to everyone calling my name and reaching towards me, i just kept going. Just as my finger skimmed my dads hand someone with furry hands grabbed me. Oh no, now i was werewolf lunch, great.

"Hey boss i got another one," he 発言しました having no trouble keeping me in his iron hard grip, which i was trying with all my might to get out of.

"Bring it over," the boss commanded.

"Hey, im a she...
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CHAPTER 3: jacob

When i was sure those "people" were gone i started having a panic attack.

"Carlisle, they want jacob," I cried.

"I know, Alice, can あなた find out where they are," Carlisle asked.

"I'll do my best," she 発言しました as she danced into the kitchen.

Then i sat on the ソファー, ソファ and cried my eyes out. And was greatful when jasper tried to make me feel better.

"Thanks jasper," I sniffed.

"Anytime ness," he replied.

When alice came out of the キッチン i was releived to see that she didnt have a frown on her face. I sat there waiting for her to start talking.

"They dont know where he is but there going to...
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posted by LoveTwilight_xx
I turned around and buried my head into Emmett’s chest. I tried my very best not to but I burst into tears, Emmett stroked my hair and told me it was going to be okay but I couldn’t believe him. How could I? My own dad just pushed me away. I looked over to him and Alice who’s eyes had turned black. How the heck could they have turned black, they have just hunted, and they should be that gorgeous golden colour.
Just then I went blind. I couldn’t see または smell または even hear a thing. What was happening? Where’s Emmett and Jasper and Alice and Dad? Where is Heidi and Felix and Demetri and...
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posted by hellopuppy_78
I had to go to a school where they had a elemantry,middle,and high school are squished together only a few feet apart.I sighed and asked Sofie a favor,"Will あなた help me on my homework?Like do my homework cuz I have to work to put 食 on the table."She rolled her eyes,"Fine if あなた say so."She found her homeroom and waved goodbye.I turned around and I bumped in to a girl.Great the first 日 of school and I messed up."Sorry.So sorry I am kinda new here."I studdered.She giggled and handed me my schedule."Well,if your new here let me help you.Reneesme Carlie Cullen."She sticked out herhand.

GOTTA GO BYE!!!
(CHECK OUT RENEESME CARLIE CULLEN'S STORIES.)
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posted by teaerra1
whatever our souls are made of his and mine are the same and litons is diffrent as a moonbeam from lighting または frost from 火災, 火 thats all for today but i will hit あなた up with page to tomorrw bye
hi it is me again have yall saw pics of rensmme
she is the cutest girl in twilight jacob was cryin.edward had to chew his way thourh this story is so not fanfiction if a real live girl does it well anyway i 愛 breaking dawn fgbwuxi9xcgnw0nj8qhrFROBGYWHGHKSGFIBNHDTBGNIVWRHGVWGDBGBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBHVU P8EGTCVNYFHRY6564518489745841854154XGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGJGBJDHZGBSIDUFVLADYIIIIIIIIIIIIByEGFLBIaylgbv Vyn SdGDawumfikjfwgvcrt7wd ayfugbcrnjdhskbnnnCHJWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRF4 SORRY PEOPLE I RAN OUT OF WORDS TO SAY BUT AT LEAST I CAN 公開する THIS
posted by marvel517639
K so i was thinking that it's 13 years later and all the オオカミ have imprinted except for seth. Jake and Nessie. Quil and Clarie. Sam and Emily and have one boy Alex Uley. Paul and Rachel. My friend Karen is a Shapeshifter Werewolf Eri Raeka and Brady. My friend sharon a hybrid and Collin. Jared and Kim. Leah and nahuel. My friend Natalia a hybrid and embry. Edward and Bella. Emmett and Rosalie. Alice and Jasper. Esme and Carlisle.Lydia is a vampire Hope Collins and micheal a human. They live in fork washington still. Nessie, natalia, Sharon, Eri, Clarie. Lydia and micheal are in their last...
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HEY! SORRY I HAVEN’T 投稿されました ANYTHING IN SO LONG, IT’S BEEN LIKE A 年 SINCE MY LAST POST. I DON’T REALLY HAVE ANY EXCUSES BUT DON’T WORRY I’M BACK NOW! ANYWAY THIS WILL BE THE LAST CHAPTER IN THE MY TRUE 愛 SERIES- I’M SO SAD! ALTHOUGH I 愛 IT VERY MUCH AND HAVE REALLY ENJOYED 書く IT, I FEEL THAT I HAVE EXHAUSTED NESSIE’S STORY NOW. BUT I WILL BE 書く ANOTHER, TWILIGHT RELATED SERIES WHETHER IT WILL BE ABOUT NESSIE または NOT, I DON’T KNOW. ANYWAY THANKS FOR STICKING WITH ME FOR SO LONG AND I KNOW THIS HAS BEEN A VERY LONG MESSAGE BUT IF ANY OF あなた ARE GOOD AT ART OR...
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Jacob pov

As me and edward walk back into the house I look around the room for Nessie and I couldnt find her then I notice that Nahuel was missing to.God was I going to kill him. "where Nessie and .....Nahuel"I spit out his name"I think they leaved"Bella answer me"why"alice ask."because I'm going to kick his ass"I spit out once again now I was pissed."why?" Alice ask again."cause he in 愛 with renesmee"Edward answer for me"where did he go?"I ask.saw everyone wondering if they should tell me then everyone look to the door and I walk out the 秒 they looked.

Renesmee pov

We walk for a bite...
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posted by missing_99
I didn't sleep well last night, my once peaceful dreams were invaded によって nightmares.I was awake at three o' clock.Glancing around my room, the pale blue walls that were gray from the sun's absence, my white dresser.That withheld my once many pleasures.A mirror hanging above, a light blue sofa によって the window.My jewlery box was filled with pretty things; very pretty little things.Rings, necklaces, charms, and bracelets.Even earings.

Out of all the things lying carelessly on my dresser, only one thing caught my eye:a picture frame.Not the three medium-sized chapter 本 piled on 上, ページのトップへ of each other,...
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posted by bamagirl5899
ok this is chapter 2

Lexi's pov

I walked in my room to change my clothes for the foot ball game.I changed into a blue tank 上, ページのトップへ and some blue jeans.Then I went to do something with me long red hair but it was point less so it was kept down. When we went their I remembared the way to the field.The game was boring we won still I didn't really like our team, so when we got ホーム I was going to sleep on the couch.Than I heard Alice screaming to some one on the phone that black haired pixie can be mean.She 発言しました FINE あなた CAN COME OVER BUT IM NOT LETTING あなた IN.I thought man is she talking to her boyfriend...
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Jacob's POV

"Ness run"I yell to her,she stoped and started at me"Nessie run"I shout again then some one came behind her.This person wrapped there arms around her and snapped her neck,

I screamed and changed into a 狼, オオカミ and ran after the person,but I just kept running and running after the person.Then every thing looked the same and I didnt know how to get back to Nessie


I open my eyes and notice that Iam in 狼, オオカミ form and Eric isnt around,I chage back and Try to catch my breath

"Shit"I 発言しました Looking around the room ,The pillows are all ripped open and feathers are every where,we are going to need...
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posted by elizasmomma
hiya im renesmee carle cullen black, well everyone calls me ness または nessie it was something that jake made up when i was little so it just stuck but my full name is a mix of my grandma's names: esme and renee, my middle name is a mix of my grandads, carslile and charlie also my official last name is cullen but i like to add black on the end for jakey (but dont tell mummy または daddy cos they will get mad) jakey's my little 狼, オオカミ boy and i 愛 him soo much. alots happening at the moment, mummy, daddy, auntie alice and uncle jasper are figuring out what i have to pretend to be when i start high...
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