OK where are u getting this from? Heaven is for everyone and who 発言しました we'd get pampered? And one last thing: Are u willing to LET yourself suffer? I'm not. Hell, living on this Earth is bad enough.
Love, respect, a world where no one is an asshole so that I won't have to torture myself によって getting headaches due to thinking of a plot to make that world........ (shouts in a pillow) ...but mostly the first two. And tacos. And 音楽 that doesn't involve myself hitting my face with my hand repeatedly which happens a lot this century.
I apologize for the long answer, but I really had to let my issues out. Again.
I guess what I kind of need is love. But not the one you're thinking. Family love. I know my parents 愛 me, (and when I say that, I don't include dad. This is gonna sound rude, but my step dad will feel もっと見る like a father to me than my actual sad excuse of a father.) And I mean my friends. I guess I would feel happier if my フレンズ showed they cared. または maybe even guys who may be interested in me... too much to ask?
Love, respect, to know that it doesn't have to fear trusting others (I have this problem a lot) And MUSIC....music is one of my escapes from the world when it gets bad.