Advices plzz :(

Making new フレンズ isn't something that can happen right out of thin air. Making フレンズ takes time and effort, and through it all, あなた should be able to find someone who can relate to あなた and understand who あなた are, and accept that.

Your fake フレンズ were not people who could understand who あなた are, shunned あなた as something foreign, and chose not to understand who あなた are, thus harming あなた in the process. あなた may not have meant to do anything bad, but to them あなた live a life and have interests and beliefs that aren't appealing to them.

It's good あなた have a big ハート, 心 and 愛 others. I consider that a rare trait nowadays, since people have grown cold towards each other. Heck, this site is a good example of how far hatred can really go. Seriously have あなた seen the shit on here?

If it makes あなた feel any better, I've had a rough past with フレンズ as well, with all of them leaving または moving away. I can understand what you're going through, and if it helps, I'll be your friend.