I'm not supposed to 愛 you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing あなた were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where あなた are and what あなた do. I'm sorry, i can't help it, I'm so in 愛 with you.
Yes, I 愛 him, I 愛 him もっと見る than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on him forever. But I know it's not for the best. so no matter ho much my ハート, 心 is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I 愛 him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, i can make it through this.
I keep myself busy with things to do, but every time I pause, I still think of you.
I don't want to lose あなた but I don't want to use あなた just to have someone によって my side.
I keep myself strong so that someday when we meet again, i can keep up with you. But I failed.
I told myself that I don't 愛 あなた but I never stopped loving you, I just stopped letting it show.
Now my last breath are slowly fading away. i will smile for you. When I see あなた smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss あなた the most.
The sky isn't always blue, the sun doesn't always shine, it's alright to fall apart sometimes.
As I started to picture the trees in the storm, the answer began to dawn on me. The 木, ツリー in the storm don't try to stand up straight and tall and erect. they allow themselves to bend and be blown with the wind. They understand the power of letting go. Those trees and those branches that try too hard to stand up strong and straight are the one that break. now is not the time for あなた to be strong, Sakura, または you, too, will break.
But still I want to let あなた know that あなた were and will always be my soul. Being the past still my present it's あなた whom I will turn to for love.