I’m finally on my own, alone. I just turned eighteen a couple of months 前 and I got a job offer in Los Angeles California. I’ve been 書く since I could write and when I reached junior high I joined the new paper and I did the same in high school and in my 秒 年 of high school I was offered a job as a reported for the Salem New Hampshire news paper and I accepted. My job threw the years had grown and now that I’m done high school I can take the job offer.
Ya my parents were pissed when the found out I wasn’t going to collage but if あなた think about it I was only going to go because I wanted to be a reporter and I got that before I ended high school so if あなた think about it I only have to go to collage if I get fired または quit from my job now. It took a couple months to pack all my stuff but it happened and I’m on my way to California right now.
Okay were am I, I know I’ve been to New York and Ohio and I was just または am in Illinois… wait MISSOIRI. Okay I know were I am. Maybe I should start 読書 the signs that are around me. I don’t have the best sense of directions; I get that from my mother. I was thinking to my self every thing like what it was going to be like living a walk away from the Pacific Ocean and the people there the heat was defiantly something I couldn’t wait for. Living in New Hampshire the only heat あなた got was in the summer and some days it could be beautiful in the morning and when lunch hits there could be a huge thunder storm and then in the after noon it could be gorgeous but it would be soaking wet and the only thing my mother would let us do it go swimming. I was the only person in my family that could wear black pants and a black long sleeve シャツ out in the sun with the tempter of a hundred and be fine.
Déjà vu was something I got very often and it was right… most of the time. But I was felling it again. Here only in Missouri, why? Did I know some one here? Have I been here? I was driving know were I wasn’t heading to the high way I was fallowing my senses. I stopped when I came to a little lake. There were little kids splashing in the water and laughing the parents were sitting in the shade watching them または 読書 doing something. I took my shoes off and walked over to the sand. It was hot but to be it was just a nice 日 out no to cold または to hot. I walked to the waters edge. The water lightly slid over the 上, ページのトップへ of my feet and I was gone. Every one in the water was gone but for…me and a boy about the same age I was at the time. Great another flash back vision. I was watching not remembering what または when this happened. I could feel something bad about to happen but yet we all looked happy. Every thing was fine minuets passed and nothing happened. I was about to snap myself out of it when I saw a figure in the trees. I’ve never seen him before, have I? No. I was just about to fallow him but I was snapped out of it and back on the ビーチ just like before. I looked over to where I had seen the man and walked over to the forest end. Nothing.
“Annabella?” I stopped froze. Maybe I did know some one that was here. “Yes?” I turned around to face a familiar face I hadn’t seen in years. I had a huge smile spreading across my face and I walked toward her. “Grandma.” I had my arms open for a hug. “I knew there was a reason I had to stop a while here.” my grand mother had a smile on her face and held my with her hands on my arms. “Another feeling?” she asked wrapping her arm around my shoulder to walk into the shade. “Ya and I just had one of those flash back visions like あなた get.” We were sitting on two fold up chairs she had brought for her and grandpa and from what I could tell grandpa was busy playing with the little kids in the lake.
Grandma was the only family member I could relate to, because she got the visions like me I apparently get it from my dad’s side of the family. But she was there when I first got them. In fact I lived here with my grandparents for a little bit when I first got this “gift”, and that’s why I had to stop because I remembered this place subconsciously. I remember when ever something happened または if I was bored my grandma would take me here and we would just sit in the water and talk.
“Grandma did I know any one ells here like a male adult?” No あなた don’t remember あなた only had a couple of フレンズ and they lived in the neighbor フード and the only male adult あなた really knew was your grandfather. Why?” I was looking at the forest and then looked back at my grandmother to see that she was confused. “I was just wondering that’s all.”
We talked for ever and it started to get dark and I was getting hungry. “I would 愛 to stay and talk for ever but I have to get something to eat and start back to California.” I stood up was about to say good bye to my grandpa but I was cut off “Why don’t あなた come back to are house and あなた can eat there for free and get a comfortable night sleep and then leave tomorrow unless your on a deadline. I smiled at her and gave her a tight hug. “I would 愛 to.” She smiled back at me and yelled out to Grandpa. “Wendell your granddaughter is staying over tonight.” He stood up and walked towards us “Great that gives me and excuse to make my Zucchini Salad.” He walked up to me and wrapped his arm around me and hugged my tight. “Yes I haven’t had that in years.” I 発言しました giving him a huge.
I drove my car to there house and we cooked out in the night. “How old are あなた know.” My grandfather asked over at the grill. I leaned my head back so I could see him “Eighteen two months ago.” They both looked at me in shock. “Wow I thought あなた were turning sixteen two moths 前 I was off によって a couple of years.” My grandma said. “So why あなた to California?” I turned in my chair trying to get comfortable. “I got promoted and I have to go to California. Instead of doing stories for a small town I get to write for a city. It was good timing to because I got the offer a week before I turned eighteen, though mom and dad aren’t to happy about me not going to collage but I don’t see a point I would just be quitting my job to do the same thing I’m doing right know I told them that if I stop doing this job I will be going to collage but I’ve been doing this for a very long time so I think I’m good plus I never really liked school so this works out good for me.” “Wow so あなた have every thing planed out don’t you?” I took a sip of レモネード and smiled and my grandpa. “Yep and I’m going to be living in a nice apartment a half a mile away from the ビーチ so with me loving to swim and the heat every thing just seems to be perfect but it’s like it’s to perfect like something bad is going to happen and rune everything.” Grandpa shut the grill 上, ページのトップへ and walked over to us with a bowl full of his famous Zucchini Salad. “Well luck seems to be on your side right know just enjoy it while it last.” “Ya I know I learned that from あなた two.”
We ate and talked for three もっと見る hours after and went inside. We talked about what was going to happen when I got to Los Angeles and that when I go ホーム to visit my family I would have to stop in Missouri to visit them.
“Here あなた go あなた can sleep on the pull out ソファー, ソファ tonight. We still have a couple of blankest あなた use to sleep with when あなた lived with us and two pillows. あなた do still sleep with two pillows right?” I smiled and nodded my head as I walked to the fridge to get a cold drink. “Why don’t あなた guys have the air conditioning on?” grandma raised one eyebrow and looked at my grandfather “He refuses to buy a new one he keeps saying he can fix it but it’s been a 月 and he can’t get it fixed.” I walked over to the 表, テーブル and set my drink down and walked over to it. “Can I have a screwdriver?” My grandfather walked over to his tool box and walked it over to me. In a matter of 秒 it was working and on. “Look at that あなた granddaughter can fix it in 秒 and あなた can’t fix it in a month,” she 発言しました hitting with the back of her hand on his chest. “Well we all know that didn’t come from are side of the family.” I laughed and hugged them good night.
I walked into the bathroom and took my clothes off and turned to water on to cold. The water felt good considering I was hot and sticky and I smelt. I got changed and headed back to the ベッド and pulled out my note book and wrote down every thing that I had done to 日 including my flash back vision from how delicious the my grandfathers Zucchini サラダ was and then stuffed it back into my little duffle bag.
That night was the best night sleep I had ever had since I started this trip. Sleeping in my car wasn’t comfortable because it was small and most of the beds in the motels weren’t comfortable and I didn’t have enough money to sleep in a hotel every night. One night would be about half of my money I had for 食 and gas and for motels.
My eyes slid open slowly to face the blinding sun that was right on my face. I stretched and then I caught the smell. My grandmother was making her French toast. That was my お気に入り thing to eat in the morning when I lived here. I still have it every other morning except for the last couple of weeks I’ve been eating at diners and fast 食 places. It was good to smell 食 that wasn’t made my sweaty old guys in the kitchen.
“Good morning. Where’s grandpa?” Grandma was moving things around in the fridge to find something. “Oh he’s out in the ガレージ playing with his car. Go take a シャワー and then come back down to eat. Okay sweetie?” I nodded and started to walk to the stairs. I stopped remembering that when I lived here that he was working on a car too. I turned to face my grandma. “Wait is it the same car that he was working on when I lived here?” She put her hands on her hips and smiled at me. “Yes every morning before breakfast and ever night before and after ディナー he works on it.” I smiled amused at the fact that it had been もっと見る then eighteen 年 and he was still working on the car.
I took a cool シャワー this morning to a little warming but still cold. I brushed my teeth and put my hair up in a ポニー tail and then twirled it into a bun to get my hair off my neck because of the heat it would just make me hotter. I slipped on my knee long brown shorts and a plane dark green tang-top. I walked down to the キッチン and the 食 wasn’t finished so I decide to go see how much work my grandpa had gotten done on the car.
As I walked towards that car there was some one ells in there he was leaning right up agents the roof of the car. He was shirtless and had shorts on and had a cup of オレンジ ジュース in his hands. I was half way to the ガレージ and screamed out to my grandfather. “Still working on the car ha?” my grandfather slid from under the car and the shirtless guy turned around and I looked up and him and froze right there the 秒 I saw him.
“No way Mitch?” he recognized me and smiled. “Oh my gosh.” I ran right to him and jumped right into his arms “It’s so good to see あなた again it’s been nine years since the last time I saw you. あなた look great. What are あなた doing here? How have あなた been? Did あなた go and see the world like あなた 発言しました あなた wanted to?” He just looked at me and softly laughed. Mitch was twelve when I was nine he was the 次 door neighbor before we moved to the neighbor フード that my grandparents are currently living in.
“Ya I know it’s been to long. I come here every morning and help your grandfather with the car since あなた went back home, I’ve been great everything’s been good for me and unfortunately I never got the chance to see the world like I hoped. How about あなた how have あなた been?” I was still shocked to see him I was having a hard time focusing. “Great, umm actually I got a job down in LA and I just stopped here to say hi to my grandparents.”
“Breakfast is ready.” I heard my grandma holler from the キッチン window. “I can’t believe あなた remembered him but yet あなた can’t remember that あなた lived here for five years.” “Well my life has been very busy plus I was young I don’t even remember where I was two days ago.” Breakfast was great and I told Mitch everything I had done since he last saw me and where I was heading he told me about how he was now engaged and has a baby girl on the way. I couldn’t believe everything I was hearing he did everything.
I packed up my stuff that I used and threw it in my car. “I 愛 あなた guys.” I 発言しました standing right in front of my car door. I hugged them all goodbye and promised to visit soon. I got in my car a drove out of the drive way and blew then a キッス before I turned the corner.
I plugged in my I-pod to my car and turned up the volume. I had All time low’s Poppin Champagne and McFly’s Lie some Jesse McCartney’s new stuff and all the Backstreet Boys 音楽 a couple もっと見る artist were blaring from my car. I decide to turn off my air conditioning and open the two front window’s. I was now on my way to Kansas and heading to California.
Ya my parents were pissed when the found out I wasn’t going to collage but if あなた think about it I was only going to go because I wanted to be a reporter and I got that before I ended high school so if あなた think about it I only have to go to collage if I get fired または quit from my job now. It took a couple months to pack all my stuff but it happened and I’m on my way to California right now.
Okay were am I, I know I’ve been to New York and Ohio and I was just または am in Illinois… wait MISSOIRI. Okay I know were I am. Maybe I should start 読書 the signs that are around me. I don’t have the best sense of directions; I get that from my mother. I was thinking to my self every thing like what it was going to be like living a walk away from the Pacific Ocean and the people there the heat was defiantly something I couldn’t wait for. Living in New Hampshire the only heat あなた got was in the summer and some days it could be beautiful in the morning and when lunch hits there could be a huge thunder storm and then in the after noon it could be gorgeous but it would be soaking wet and the only thing my mother would let us do it go swimming. I was the only person in my family that could wear black pants and a black long sleeve シャツ out in the sun with the tempter of a hundred and be fine.
Déjà vu was something I got very often and it was right… most of the time. But I was felling it again. Here only in Missouri, why? Did I know some one here? Have I been here? I was driving know were I wasn’t heading to the high way I was fallowing my senses. I stopped when I came to a little lake. There were little kids splashing in the water and laughing the parents were sitting in the shade watching them または 読書 doing something. I took my shoes off and walked over to the sand. It was hot but to be it was just a nice 日 out no to cold または to hot. I walked to the waters edge. The water lightly slid over the 上, ページのトップへ of my feet and I was gone. Every one in the water was gone but for…me and a boy about the same age I was at the time. Great another flash back vision. I was watching not remembering what または when this happened. I could feel something bad about to happen but yet we all looked happy. Every thing was fine minuets passed and nothing happened. I was about to snap myself out of it when I saw a figure in the trees. I’ve never seen him before, have I? No. I was just about to fallow him but I was snapped out of it and back on the ビーチ just like before. I looked over to where I had seen the man and walked over to the forest end. Nothing.
“Annabella?” I stopped froze. Maybe I did know some one that was here. “Yes?” I turned around to face a familiar face I hadn’t seen in years. I had a huge smile spreading across my face and I walked toward her. “Grandma.” I had my arms open for a hug. “I knew there was a reason I had to stop a while here.” my grand mother had a smile on her face and held my with her hands on my arms. “Another feeling?” she asked wrapping her arm around my shoulder to walk into the shade. “Ya and I just had one of those flash back visions like あなた get.” We were sitting on two fold up chairs she had brought for her and grandpa and from what I could tell grandpa was busy playing with the little kids in the lake.
Grandma was the only family member I could relate to, because she got the visions like me I apparently get it from my dad’s side of the family. But she was there when I first got them. In fact I lived here with my grandparents for a little bit when I first got this “gift”, and that’s why I had to stop because I remembered this place subconsciously. I remember when ever something happened または if I was bored my grandma would take me here and we would just sit in the water and talk.
“Grandma did I know any one ells here like a male adult?” No あなた don’t remember あなた only had a couple of フレンズ and they lived in the neighbor フード and the only male adult あなた really knew was your grandfather. Why?” I was looking at the forest and then looked back at my grandmother to see that she was confused. “I was just wondering that’s all.”
We talked for ever and it started to get dark and I was getting hungry. “I would 愛 to stay and talk for ever but I have to get something to eat and start back to California.” I stood up was about to say good bye to my grandpa but I was cut off “Why don’t あなた come back to are house and あなた can eat there for free and get a comfortable night sleep and then leave tomorrow unless your on a deadline. I smiled at her and gave her a tight hug. “I would 愛 to.” She smiled back at me and yelled out to Grandpa. “Wendell your granddaughter is staying over tonight.” He stood up and walked towards us “Great that gives me and excuse to make my Zucchini Salad.” He walked up to me and wrapped his arm around me and hugged my tight. “Yes I haven’t had that in years.” I 発言しました giving him a huge.
I drove my car to there house and we cooked out in the night. “How old are あなた know.” My grandfather asked over at the grill. I leaned my head back so I could see him “Eighteen two months ago.” They both looked at me in shock. “Wow I thought あなた were turning sixteen two moths 前 I was off によって a couple of years.” My grandma said. “So why あなた to California?” I turned in my chair trying to get comfortable. “I got promoted and I have to go to California. Instead of doing stories for a small town I get to write for a city. It was good timing to because I got the offer a week before I turned eighteen, though mom and dad aren’t to happy about me not going to collage but I don’t see a point I would just be quitting my job to do the same thing I’m doing right know I told them that if I stop doing this job I will be going to collage but I’ve been doing this for a very long time so I think I’m good plus I never really liked school so this works out good for me.” “Wow so あなた have every thing planed out don’t you?” I took a sip of レモネード and smiled and my grandpa. “Yep and I’m going to be living in a nice apartment a half a mile away from the ビーチ so with me loving to swim and the heat every thing just seems to be perfect but it’s like it’s to perfect like something bad is going to happen and rune everything.” Grandpa shut the grill 上, ページのトップへ and walked over to us with a bowl full of his famous Zucchini Salad. “Well luck seems to be on your side right know just enjoy it while it last.” “Ya I know I learned that from あなた two.”
We ate and talked for three もっと見る hours after and went inside. We talked about what was going to happen when I got to Los Angeles and that when I go ホーム to visit my family I would have to stop in Missouri to visit them.
“Here あなた go あなた can sleep on the pull out ソファー, ソファ tonight. We still have a couple of blankest あなた use to sleep with when あなた lived with us and two pillows. あなた do still sleep with two pillows right?” I smiled and nodded my head as I walked to the fridge to get a cold drink. “Why don’t あなた guys have the air conditioning on?” grandma raised one eyebrow and looked at my grandfather “He refuses to buy a new one he keeps saying he can fix it but it’s been a 月 and he can’t get it fixed.” I walked over to the 表, テーブル and set my drink down and walked over to it. “Can I have a screwdriver?” My grandfather walked over to his tool box and walked it over to me. In a matter of 秒 it was working and on. “Look at that あなた granddaughter can fix it in 秒 and あなた can’t fix it in a month,” she 発言しました hitting with the back of her hand on his chest. “Well we all know that didn’t come from are side of the family.” I laughed and hugged them good night.
I walked into the bathroom and took my clothes off and turned to water on to cold. The water felt good considering I was hot and sticky and I smelt. I got changed and headed back to the ベッド and pulled out my note book and wrote down every thing that I had done to 日 including my flash back vision from how delicious the my grandfathers Zucchini サラダ was and then stuffed it back into my little duffle bag.
That night was the best night sleep I had ever had since I started this trip. Sleeping in my car wasn’t comfortable because it was small and most of the beds in the motels weren’t comfortable and I didn’t have enough money to sleep in a hotel every night. One night would be about half of my money I had for 食 and gas and for motels.
My eyes slid open slowly to face the blinding sun that was right on my face. I stretched and then I caught the smell. My grandmother was making her French toast. That was my お気に入り thing to eat in the morning when I lived here. I still have it every other morning except for the last couple of weeks I’ve been eating at diners and fast 食 places. It was good to smell 食 that wasn’t made my sweaty old guys in the kitchen.
“Good morning. Where’s grandpa?” Grandma was moving things around in the fridge to find something. “Oh he’s out in the ガレージ playing with his car. Go take a シャワー and then come back down to eat. Okay sweetie?” I nodded and started to walk to the stairs. I stopped remembering that when I lived here that he was working on a car too. I turned to face my grandma. “Wait is it the same car that he was working on when I lived here?” She put her hands on her hips and smiled at me. “Yes every morning before breakfast and ever night before and after ディナー he works on it.” I smiled amused at the fact that it had been もっと見る then eighteen 年 and he was still working on the car.
I took a cool シャワー this morning to a little warming but still cold. I brushed my teeth and put my hair up in a ポニー tail and then twirled it into a bun to get my hair off my neck because of the heat it would just make me hotter. I slipped on my knee long brown shorts and a plane dark green tang-top. I walked down to the キッチン and the 食 wasn’t finished so I decide to go see how much work my grandpa had gotten done on the car.
As I walked towards that car there was some one ells in there he was leaning right up agents the roof of the car. He was shirtless and had shorts on and had a cup of オレンジ ジュース in his hands. I was half way to the ガレージ and screamed out to my grandfather. “Still working on the car ha?” my grandfather slid from under the car and the shirtless guy turned around and I looked up and him and froze right there the 秒 I saw him.
“No way Mitch?” he recognized me and smiled. “Oh my gosh.” I ran right to him and jumped right into his arms “It’s so good to see あなた again it’s been nine years since the last time I saw you. あなた look great. What are あなた doing here? How have あなた been? Did あなた go and see the world like あなた 発言しました あなた wanted to?” He just looked at me and softly laughed. Mitch was twelve when I was nine he was the 次 door neighbor before we moved to the neighbor フード that my grandparents are currently living in.
“Ya I know it’s been to long. I come here every morning and help your grandfather with the car since あなた went back home, I’ve been great everything’s been good for me and unfortunately I never got the chance to see the world like I hoped. How about あなた how have あなた been?” I was still shocked to see him I was having a hard time focusing. “Great, umm actually I got a job down in LA and I just stopped here to say hi to my grandparents.”
“Breakfast is ready.” I heard my grandma holler from the キッチン window. “I can’t believe あなた remembered him but yet あなた can’t remember that あなた lived here for five years.” “Well my life has been very busy plus I was young I don’t even remember where I was two days ago.” Breakfast was great and I told Mitch everything I had done since he last saw me and where I was heading he told me about how he was now engaged and has a baby girl on the way. I couldn’t believe everything I was hearing he did everything.
I packed up my stuff that I used and threw it in my car. “I 愛 あなた guys.” I 発言しました standing right in front of my car door. I hugged them all goodbye and promised to visit soon. I got in my car a drove out of the drive way and blew then a キッス before I turned the corner.
I plugged in my I-pod to my car and turned up the volume. I had All time low’s Poppin Champagne and McFly’s Lie some Jesse McCartney’s new stuff and all the Backstreet Boys 音楽 a couple もっと見る artist were blaring from my car. I decide to turn off my air conditioning and open the two front window’s. I was now on my way to Kansas and heading to California.
I thought it would be a good idea to try and write goodbye
but i was stuck when I realized there were too many lovely things to write about.
and not enough words invented yet to say them aloud.
and i know there are a number of things wrong with this,
but i really don't want to fix it right now.
i don't feel like doing anything but sitting upside down
but trust me, when it comes down
to having the choice of being right..
または protecting you, I'll be wrong every single time.
Because it's just who I am...
but i was stuck when I realized there were too many lovely things to write about.
and not enough words invented yet to say them aloud.
and i know there are a number of things wrong with this,
but i really don't want to fix it right now.
i don't feel like doing anything but sitting upside down
but trust me, when it comes down
to having the choice of being right..
または protecting you, I'll be wrong every single time.
Because it's just who I am...
OK so i was walking down the street...all alone...in the rain...not happy but not sad ether...when suddenly I ran into a モクレン, マグノリア tree!I don't know how I didn't see it...or why it was in the middle of the road-but it was there and when I looked at it I saw it was the biggest モクレン, マグノリア I had ever seen;it was absolutely GINORMOUS!it to be at least as tall as a skyscraper. I couldn't even see the top.Now what is the easiest way to get past a tree? Go around it of course! but when i looked there was a wall!Two walls!on ether side of the 木, ツリー that prevented me from passing(again,how didn't I see this before?)It was not an ordinary
ウォール ether,and must have taken allot of work to build because it was as tall,or taller than the tree!so I was stuck with a モクレン, マグノリア and two walls
what was I to do?turn back?I had come too far!so knowing this,what do あなた think I did?What would あなた have done?
ウォール ether,and must have taken allot of work to build because it was as tall,or taller than the tree!so I was stuck with a モクレン, マグノリア and two walls
what was I to do?turn back?I had come too far!so knowing this,what do あなた think I did?What would あなた have done?
I look at the old photographs. It kills me to see him smile. I've only heard about him. I hear he would have loved me. I hear he was nice. I hear that he was a good dad. I hear he was an okay husband. I hear that he would have made a good grandfather. It's not fair. It kills me when my dad talks about him. My dad 発言しました one of his last words to him were "Dont miss me when I'm gone." Those words run through my head. 日 and night and keep me up thinking of him. Why did he have to go? I pray he's okay and fine in heaven. I pretend he's still here. If only he were ... I miss him....
I guess he's just....
Hard to Let Go
Dedicated to my grandfather I miss あなた ... even if I never met あなた =,[
次 journal entry coming up in few please
R&R
Thanks!!
I guess he's just....
Hard to Let Go
Dedicated to my grandfather I miss あなた ... even if I never met あなた =,[
次 journal entry coming up in few please
R&R
Thanks!!
Asperger's Syndrome is a mild form of autism with a bit of learning disability. It is the same as social anxiety. People with this kind have difficulty learning academics, socializing with other people, and forming friendships.
What does it feel like to have this? You'll be sensitive to loud sounds, lack of interest in to many things, difficulty understanding sarcasm and jokes, you'll feel lonely and alone, あなた see the world differently to other people, and the most overwhelming is あなた feel different in the world. It is also a lifelong condition and can't be cured. But help is a guide of their life. あなた will realize that those people have もっと見る intelligence and will grow up successfully in their life. And also they have a great ハート, 心 of understanding on people's problems. They will also be kind and patient from what we are.
See the outside, and know deep the inside. There's no nothing than a reason behind.
It's better to be UNIQUE!
What does it feel like to have this? You'll be sensitive to loud sounds, lack of interest in to many things, difficulty understanding sarcasm and jokes, you'll feel lonely and alone, あなた see the world differently to other people, and the most overwhelming is あなた feel different in the world. It is also a lifelong condition and can't be cured. But help is a guide of their life. あなた will realize that those people have もっと見る intelligence and will grow up successfully in their life. And also they have a great ハート, 心 of understanding on people's problems. They will also be kind and patient from what we are.
See the outside, and know deep the inside. There's no nothing than a reason behind.
It's better to be UNIQUE!