CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 分 and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the 秒 most powerful ヴァンパイア in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving または breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are あなた thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I 発言しました again with もっと見る convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known あなた for almost for 8 years. Don’t あなた dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are あなた sure あなた want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. あなた asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed あなた and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous ヴァンパイア in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. あなた guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful ヴァンパイア one によって one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a 分 rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in ベッド and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t あなた dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t あなた dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I 発言しました was right.” I screamed. “Don’t あなた DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just によって the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know あなた don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, あなた have not failed. あなた have won. あなた have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, あなた belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed あなた have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make あなた a crazy monster. It makes あなた the wife that I 愛 and makes あなた the amazing mother あなた are. It makes あなた the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if あなた had to take down Aro and あなた won. Though let us help あなた when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, あなた are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that あなた are not alone. That あなた have a whole big family downstairs and あなた have Neisse and I. I will always be によって your side. If あなた let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble あなた are in. あなた got to help. Even though what あなた did out there was killer. It was amazing. あなた got to teach me how to do some of that crap あなた did.” I laughed and 発言しました maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from あなた missy. I understand あなた are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn あなた were when あなた pushed us all away. Though just because あなた as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy くま, クマ that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the 愛 had for my お気に入り brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about あなた come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I 愛 あなた baby girl” I 発言しました and hugged her again. Edward sat down 次 to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 分 later
Everyone filled into the room taking any シート, 座席 available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is 愛 and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 分 and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the 秒 most powerful ヴァンパイア in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving または breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are あなた thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I 発言しました again with もっと見る convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known あなた for almost for 8 years. Don’t あなた dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are あなた sure あなた want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. あなた asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed あなた and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous ヴァンパイア in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. あなた guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful ヴァンパイア one によって one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a 分 rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in ベッド and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t あなた dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t あなた dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I 発言しました was right.” I screamed. “Don’t あなた DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just によって the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know あなた don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, あなた have not failed. あなた have won. あなた have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, あなた belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed あなた have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make あなた a crazy monster. It makes あなた the wife that I 愛 and makes あなた the amazing mother あなた are. It makes あなた the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if あなた had to take down Aro and あなた won. Though let us help あなた when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, あなた are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that あなた are not alone. That あなた have a whole big family downstairs and あなた have Neisse and I. I will always be によって your side. If あなた let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble あなた are in. あなた got to help. Even though what あなた did out there was killer. It was amazing. あなた got to teach me how to do some of that crap あなた did.” I laughed and 発言しました maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from あなた missy. I understand あなた are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn あなた were when あなた pushed us all away. Though just because あなた as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy くま, クマ that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the 愛 had for my お気に入り brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about あなた come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I 愛 あなた baby girl” I 発言しました and hugged her again. Edward sat down 次 to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 分 later
Everyone filled into the room taking any シート, 座席 available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is 愛 and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
I'm sooo sooo sooo sorry i haven't 投稿されました in like forever but I have a MAJOR writer's block. I will try to post もっと見る of my Unspoken story when i do not have writer's block
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
Hello, My Name Is: Death
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Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I 発言しました to ヒイラギ, ホリー who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
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Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I 発言しました to ヒイラギ, ホリー who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
Hear out my tortured soul
For I have nowhere else to go
あなた captured my dead, アナと雪の女王 heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
あなた took my breath away
And in my ハート, 心 you’ll always stay
あなた are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My メリダとおそろしの森 and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When あなた called out my name
My life had never been the same
あなた kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your チョコレート brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How あなた irrevocably 愛 me
For I have nowhere else to go
あなた captured my dead, アナと雪の女王 heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
あなた took my breath away
And in my ハート, 心 you’ll always stay
あなた are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My メリダとおそろしの森 and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When あなた called out my name
My life had never been the same
あなた kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your チョコレート brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How あなた irrevocably 愛 me