I was expecting the kind of reaction I used to get when I'd say those kinds of things. But she just looked at me. Speculating. Was she actually thinking about it?! My ハート, 心 beat faster as I grabbed at the oportunity.
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless あなた wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If あなた did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would あなた tell Charlie, Bella?" She 発言しました as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to ラップ my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do あなた think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she 発言しました after a 分 または two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things あなた don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He 発言しました he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can あなた get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. あなた could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. あなた can do it. Don't あなた think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will あなた really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do あなた really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed あなた myself?" she was panicing. She was 芝居 so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The 年 of あなた being a newborn?"
I was confused によって her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I 発言しました it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The 火災, 火 in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And あなた would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I 発言しました with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, または had he 与えられた up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she 発言しました skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless あなた wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If あなた did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would あなた tell Charlie, Bella?" She 発言しました as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to ラップ my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do あなた think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she 発言しました after a 分 または two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things あなた don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He 発言しました he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can あなた get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. あなた could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. あなた can do it. Don't あなた think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will あなた really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do あなた really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed あなた myself?" she was panicing. She was 芝居 so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The 年 of あなた being a newborn?"
I was confused によって her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I 発言しました it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The 火災, 火 in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And あなた would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I 発言しました with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, または had he 与えられた up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she 発言しました skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
Alice and Emmett Get Cozy?!
Uh oh... does Jasper have something to worry about?! What are Alice and Emmett doing together — as a couple?! Do we have a Cullen controversy on our hands?! Have we caught them red handed (and we ain't talkin bout blood)!?
No worries, Twihards, no steamy SCANDAL here! While they're brother and sister in the Twilight Saga, Kellan Lutz and Ashley Greene are set to 星, つ星 in a movie called Warrior... and they'll play 愛 interests!
Kellan plays a 星, つ星 lacrosse player who joins the Navy; Ashley is his beautiful girlfriend. We've heard rumors about them hookin' up in real life, though they swear they're just BFF.
Brother and sister... BFF... boyfriend and girlfriend... the whole thing has got us confused! What do あなた guys think?
Uh oh... does Jasper have something to worry about?! What are Alice and Emmett doing together — as a couple?! Do we have a Cullen controversy on our hands?! Have we caught them red handed (and we ain't talkin bout blood)!?
No worries, Twihards, no steamy SCANDAL here! While they're brother and sister in the Twilight Saga, Kellan Lutz and Ashley Greene are set to 星, つ星 in a movie called Warrior... and they'll play 愛 interests!
Kellan plays a 星, つ星 lacrosse player who joins the Navy; Ashley is his beautiful girlfriend. We've heard rumors about them hookin' up in real life, though they swear they're just BFF.
Brother and sister... BFF... boyfriend and girlfriend... the whole thing has got us confused! What do あなた guys think?
This seemingly minor blip of news is going to be very exciting for a lot of あなた readers. The third movie entry in the “Twilight” series, “Eclipse,” will shoot at Vancouver Film Studios between August 17 and October 31 (Halloween wrap!), Coming Soon reports. The David Slade-directed adaptation of Stephanie Meyer’s novel will come from a script によって series scribe (and occasional “Dexter” writer) Melissa Rosenberg.
The ハロウィン ラップ is perfectly timed to coincide with what will likely be the start of a massive publicity push leading into the release of “New Moon” on November 20. “Eclipse” is currently set for a June 30, 2010 release, a fact which I’m sure that many of あなた readers are already well aware of. So mark those calendars if あなた haven’t already, and prepare for an increasing onslaught of “Eclipse” news as the wheels spin faster and faster.