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Riku114 発言しました …
I'm alright and all XD But honestly, I'm so bad at asking for help I dont really promise people I will anymore.

Sister: "Call me if あなた ever need help."

Me: "Honestly probably wont."

Sister: "I mean if someones following あなた または something."

Me: "I mean I guess I can say Ill probably promise that if Im in big danger I can."

I'm just not used to または really comfortable when I need help actually telling people I need it and actually receiving it. Its not like I dont think I can 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Its just that when I think I should my mouth freezes up, my brain starts telling me all the reasons I shouldnt, and just a bit of personal pride and stuff. Thats kinda why its a huge thing when I go "Hey I need あなた help / advice" または "Hey can I be honest about how I feel about this" (<-usually something negative) 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Cos most of the time when I get to that point, it means I put active effort into both getting help and active effort into getting past my natural discomfort and inability to mention it in order to share which is actually a lot of trust XD 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Its not an offense for me not to since sometimes I just dont feel like getting help and that isnt odd since I like to handle my stuff on my own fairly often, but still XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
*curls up in corner*

Davis dorms wont let me bring my knives

*depression* 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
によって the way I dont think 雲, クラウド is gonna live too much longer. I think his age combined with his disability and stuff is getting to him. Hes notably weaker lately 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Sorry to know about that. I have been through it. In the end, it is simply innevitable. Pretty sure he lead a contented Life so far. I believe this counts a lot when taken into consideration !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Yeah XD I got him knowing his life span would be shorter than the others and that he was probably not the healthiest due to birth defects. It was pretty much the reason I chose him in fact. Cos the people selling him was tyring ot hind him under a 表, テーブル and I knew it would be hard to find an owner that would take good care of him または ones that could take care of him better than me so I took him to make sure that despite his health condition, I could keep him happy and alive as long as he could 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
So if he dies, itll be sad, but Ill be glad I gave him a good life and a better one than he probably would have gotten otherwise. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Am I too flamboyant at times?

*throws glitter in the air* 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
That's a given. I do not believe anyone in here would say otherwise !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Nothing helps もっと見る than waking up to having your parents having a really loud stupid argument right in the morning than looking through an old お気に入り JRock band again that あなた some how forgot about for a while.

#LetsGoT.M.Revolution 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Fuck I wanted to write and ended up watching Sengoku Basara Game scenes and listening to their OPs again. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
For the record, I did start 書く 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
It honestly kind of shocks me and scares me at the same time.

Am I going to have an actual friend irl that is close to me?

Of course I have my boyfriend, but theres a difference between that and a friend. Like for a boyfriend, it becomes much like a partner または family member

Like... an actual friend... Its been so long since I've had an actual close friend irl, I dont really remember what it is like 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
So looking into who was the lead writer for the Hollywood Undead songs, most of my お気に入り were made によって Johnny Three Tears followed によって Danny prolly.

Makes sense that most of the ones that I love, have a lot of amazing verses, that also were done によって J3T XD

Seriously tho, J3T's choice in lyrics are amazing. Hes a Milton ファン too apparently. I might add John Milton's Paradise ロスト to things to do soon prolly. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I've had that book on the 上, ページのトップへ of my 一覧 of things to read for a while. I jsut kinda got scared of actually trying to read cos when I fail または cant focus または struggle to it has a chance of making me panic over my mental health progress または my future XD 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Who here thinks an 記事 where Riku and I try to guess each others tentative 上, ページのトップへ 10 Video Game OSTs would be cool?

Warning tho. She has no time. 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Video Game OSTs huh? As someone who loves that particular aspect, I would certainly find it pretty cool. 記事 like these are always welcome !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
:sad:

Ronnie, A Game Theorist, killed himself and from what MatPat says, he was in a really similar situation to me so I feel the pain since his battle parallels a little too closely to that of which I do. Personality, problems with personality, and role with フレンズ and all...

Anyone, if あなた ever feel like あなた need to talk to someone, send me a message. I dont care if Im unrelated または anything into the topic. Ill hear あなた out and support あなた <3 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
^ Always remember that the same applies for あなた too, Riku. We're here for あなた !!!! 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Once again, my deepest condolences for Ronnie !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
あなた ever get anxiety over a good thing? Like... all the physical symptoms of anxiety but like... in no where on bad reasons?

Like chest tightening and stuff... Is that just excitement then? Uncomfortable excitement?

Google, what is understanding emotions? XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Rihanna312 コメントしました…
Since I have SVD in light form, it sometimes turns good moments into really unpleasant and sometimes even frightening. But it happens rarely and out of my control. But still sucks a lot. Especially when it gets hard to breathe. 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
I have. Quite a few times really. Mostly because of my worrying that I will mess things up somehow and turn a good thing into the exact opposite. The kind of feeling あなた get when あなた try something for the first time. It usually subsides when I have already gotten into it !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Shit. Ninja caught Ligma... 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Really, everyone - especially those who are new - just want someone to 愛 and accept them. If あなた also can provide the confidence and skill to 表示する yourself capable of guiding, you'll quickly find there are people willing to follow and heed what あなた have to say.

If anything, that is what leadership is. Accepting and guiding. It actually has little to do directly with responsibility または giving out orders または anything. They just tend to come with maintaining those two. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Also at this point, I dunno who I relate to in Pandora Hearts anymore.

They are all relatable in different ways.

With that being said, I think Xerxes and Vincent are my お気に入り XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
That very fact makes あなた quite Relatable yourself XD I understand that !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Me: *watching "Best of Johnny Three Tears Verses"*

Me: Like... all of them? Why not just say "all of Best of J3T" cos his verses are god???"

Honestly I 愛 J3T too much

...

I also may have been geeking out on Hollywood Undead 音楽 with my roommate last night since neither of us really ever met anyone else who liked their 音楽 投稿されました 1年以上前
Rihanna312 コメントしました…
Well... あなた may have found another one. :D HU has been one of my fave bands for like 8 years. Recently went to their コンサート and yes, there isn`t just one best J3T verse, because he`s 火災, 火 in all of them!!! But when I think about it I also don`t know anyone in partocular who`d be as big ファン of them as me. 1年以上前
Rihanna312 コメントしました…
particular* 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
^Yasss もっと見る ファン 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Im sleepy 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
I'm dopey 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
I'm both of the above !!!! 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Wrote a story for Riku titled "Two Venezuelen Uncles Fliped the universe away to the Beat" but she was too tired and didn't read it. #Shaming 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
It's kind of nice that I can say literally anything to Riku at any time and have zero repercussions. Man I unleash so much shit XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
What is that game called where あなた have a picture of some things and when あなた put them together it makes a phrase? 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Why is it so early? 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Me: *tapping my fingers impatiently even though I was told it wont happen until after the fall quarter* HMMMM. WHEN WILL I SEE MY AP CREDIT APPEAR ON MY DEGREE TRACKER FOR COLLEGE 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Time to play a game I like to call "Riku または her bird?"

"Small, cute, with a couple issues that acts tough and is super confident"

Riku?

または her bird? 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
I'll say both !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
So 雲, クラウド also had a badly broken blood feather so I did the procedure myself cos hes old, underweight, and disabled and Im pretty sure theyd want to try to put him down.

#Successful 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
I'm too good at Sonic 3 and Knuckles 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Final Destination probably shouldnt be a childhood nostalgia for me XD

But it is XD I grew up watching these 映画 and they were like a regular hype and one of the few family traditions. Watched every single one as they came out. Probably watched all of them at least three times each and the pointless gore and creative yet unrealistic gory ways to die just get better.

I dont really like horror または pointless gore, but Final Destination is special 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Im not gonna say its a well made movie, but god do I like watching it XD 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Riku watching Rated R Gore films since they first came out 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Why do I watch this like a comedy XD 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Theres just so much solid irony 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
*Final Destination at the Racing Speedway*

"You come here to see a crash?"

"Nah I like to watch them go around and around in circles OF COURSE I want to see a crash" 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
"The trumpet is widely known for drawing in もっと見る extroverted children. They can be bold, brash, have nervous energy and even tend to be dominant and ambitious. This is due to the nature of the trumpet, which is usually a lead instrument playing a higher melody."

Yep 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack_ 発言しました …
There is something about pandora hearts and bungou stray イヌ xD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Oh? 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Is it that it tries to fit 10 volumes of information into the first three chapters of the manga? 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
^XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Negative Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus struggle to remain consistent in therapy and conversations and arguments and can rarely hold my ground to long term major decisions that might be hard

Positive Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus pretty much 'reset' each morning despite negative moods / thoughts 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
It actually もっと見る so a habit I apparently picked up when I was really young. According to my older sister horrible shit would happen one day, then Id go to sleep and remember none of it. Much less severe these days as its only really my emotions and will and any emotions related to anything the prior day, but its much mroe tame 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
And thats regardless of if the 日 was really good または really bad. Very few things actually register in my memory with emotions attached 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Pandora Update

Unsure on Gil. He 発言しました some relatable shit but like...it kinda like spawned a little thing where I created a もっと見る accurate version of what he 発言しました so like...unsure on Gil 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
I tried rewriting the quote but it didn't flow well 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Eh nevermind. No new point for Gil 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I dont think I've ever written a gay couple I 愛 もっと見る than Nora and Lu Stevenson in the RP Wanta and I have.

While Nora never appears in the main cast, the two of them make an adorable couple and even cuter and better parents. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Neewwww プロフィール 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack_ コメントしました…
愛 it. 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
It really looks great. I 愛 it as well !!!! 1年以上前
BlindBandit92 コメントしました…
Noice 1年以上前
GDragon612 コメントしました…
OMG I fucking 愛 it!! *-* 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Honestly, Lucy is so attention needy XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Seriously tho. Its still laughable my dad thinks あなた can get a decent computer for $200 投稿されました 1年以上前
Rihanna312 コメントしました…
This makes me feel bad, because a few months 前 I was about to buy a new computer and in my book decent started from €700 and up 😳 Have あなた showed him what specifics fall under $200? Maybe he`ll understand that あなた can only play solitaire on that. Even there sometimes tends to be really good deals for extra cheap prices. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Oh yeah Im like 99% sure hes trying to low ball me XD Since he refuses to let me input money, he promised hed work with me and honestly I know how to get him to be reasonable XD 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
In my book, barely decent starts at like $500 and up when on discount XD 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
If only there was a newly Full Time employee who offered to match whatever あなた put in for the computer 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
:v I'm mad at Riku. 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
She 発言しました I'm not allowed to pitch in to get her a good computer for Davis since her dad only wants to pay $200 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Nah its very easy to pull strings on him. 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Humph 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Can someone get me a pillow? Apparently that wore me out from "could sleep but not at all tired" to like...

"Im so tired I cant figure out any new ideas for stories または really create words to speak, I wanna sleep and am yawning every minute" 投稿されました 1年以上前
GDragon612 コメントしました…
welcome in da club riku need so much sleep these days too, feeling that i ate drugs または drunk to much 1年以上前
GDragon612 コメントしました…
kat buys riku a bunch of pillows 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
"Do stuff I guess" - Wantadog2018 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
こんにちは if anyone wants to know one variation of dissociation and depersonalization, Im right here.

I somehow ended up entirely numb cause my brain kept working me with unnecessary trauma shit and I took too long to determine if I wanted to dig deeper and ruin my mental state for processing something, cutting it off entirely and dissociating unnaturally which is worse than this, または just letting myself sleep and forget it all

And now Im just sitting here pretty darn empty. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
And that actually turned out to be a really short thing cos between my boyfriend and Wanta both stubbornly being stupid concerned dumbasses kinda ended up clicking with me and kind of giving my traumatized shithole brain a little bit of what it needed 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Its nice to see some people have my back and genuinely really care for me as much as those two do. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I am honestly tired of PTSD and trauma and feeling extreme anxiety and lack of safety for no reason.

Is there a place I could waiver out of it または like.... give it to one of those tumblr shitlords that think having mental disorders is cool..? 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Fuck. Took way too long trying to decide which way to go with it and now Im just emotionally numb again. Ah well. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I really want to kinda just sleep even though Im not tired または anything. Seems easier that putting effort to keep myself entertained または to dig deeper into that crap pile 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Munakata: "Sorry for making あなた do this"

Chisa: "Say my name and it's even!"

Munakata: "No"

Riku: "Sorry for making あなた do this"

Wanta: "Call me your best friend and we're even!"

Riku: "No" 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Lefteris: ''Call me によって a nickname like I do for あなた and we're even!'' 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Riku: ''Maybe 次 time'' 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I do a lot of things I mean to do out loud just in my head 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
I scared Riku with how badly the Aoi thing is taking its toll on me 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I am so bored 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
#RelatableAsAlways !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
FUCK I WAS PLAYING FORTNITE ON SOLO AND GOT SECOND

THE GUY WHO WON HAD LIKE 5 HP AND SINCE HE WAS RUNNING FROM ME I WAS PRETTY SURE HE WAS LOW ON AMMO または SOMETHING

SO FUCKING CLOSE UGH 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Me: Haha. Yeah the diagnosis with PTSD still is sometimes hard for me to believe since my mind has trouble believing it was really that bad.

Therapist: Well when あなた start to 質問 it, just ask yourself [insert pair of 質問 that blantantly Bpoint out that it was very shitty]

Me: *spending the rest of the 日 frequently and randomly getting pulled into fixations and bad memories of 発言しました shiftiness* Aha... あなた are right. 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
I'd like to give a quick shoutout to a special person in my life that really has helped me throughout the last couple days when I've been going through a rough spot and facing some big decisions in my life. This person always made me laugh, made me emote even in anger, kept me on the straight and narrow, and even showed me their weak side.

So Remae from the game Spiral Scouts. Thanks! あなた made me feel good for a bit.

#BuyTheGame 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
あなた really got me there, I must admit !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
So the official final set of diagnoses from the probable last session with my therapist is PTSD with Dissociation, OCD, Trichotillomania, and GAD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Oh and Chronic Stress 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Take the shitty hand あなた get dealt, accept it, and make something amazing from it.

Life is really never ever a fair thing. Some people are born with a shit ton of wealth, loving families, and everything they could want. Some people are born in absolute poverty, abusive and broken households, and in the middle of the perhaps a deadly war または gang territory.

The thing is, あなた cant really change what hand あなた were dealt. All あなた can do is adapt and morph it. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I dont have the worst hand. I have a less than ideal and kind of shitty hand but not the worst. As do others who follow this club and all. The thing is though, its possible to change 発言しました weaknesses into strengths and use it to grow if あなた think about it 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Personally, I take the hand I was dealt and use it to push reason to grow and to use it as a basis to let myself reach out to others better. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I'm the kind of friend that to get close, あなた have to pay increasing work and effort into understanding and figuring out the bumps that naturally come with being close to me, but once things smoothen out I am also the type to pay it off extremely XD

Cos Im really driven and really goal orientated and good at planning and getting thigns done. Im also really good with mental health and struggles and have heard SO many stories of people both with mental and non mental health struggles 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Monetary issues? I can probably help. Mental health issues? Gotcha. Suicidal? Talk to me, Ill make sure あなた walk out alive. Cant get your life together? Lets figure out something we can do. No passions in life? Lets figure out something for あなた to work towards. Never seen things in life? Lets fix that. Family issues? Gotcha. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Then even better, if [I] cant help you, I have contacts that probably can help me help you. 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Riku is a Formula One.

Im a Ford Pickup thats left in the backyard till あなた need a lift 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I dont think Ill ever die TRULY satisfied with life. I can be 90, saved ninty bird species, millions of birds, changed many lives, warped and washed away the stigma of mental health, had a family, mastered forty languages, mastered multiple instruments, mastered multiple combat styles, got multiple PHDs and all that

And I will STILL find things I would have wanted to find more. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
If I dont keep learning and dont keep evolving who I am and developing, I dont feel like Im living. And thats NOT bad. Its WONDERFUL. I feel so alive chasing goals and plans. Its not that whole "Once I get all this, I can relax" - no. Its "Once I get all this, I can explore もっと見る of the amazing interests of this world". 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
When I die, Ill be glad I did everything I did and its posisble for me to be at peace (cos theres a chance I wont if its a shitty death) but I dont think there will ever be a time in my life where I no longer have any strict goals 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
That is quite Relatable. It makes me glad to see others feeling that way as well. Life is a constant struggle. Constant Improvement is a major part of it !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Huh. Despite being someone who isnt one to believe conspiracy theories and never was quite into Avril Lavigne, the theory that she died and was replaced ACTUALLY has some notable evidence XD

Its interesting. I could somewhat buy it 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Personally, I try to make it out to be the best that it can be and accept it, but its quite painful and frightening to know your problems with memory and knowing youll probably forget many things much faster than one shout and things no one else would

If あなた go off to Davis, will あなた actually remember all the fun あなた had with people and how much あなた care about them when あなた return 3 months later? Did あなた forget または did it just not happen? What was it like being depressed? What about happy? 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
The bright side of it is I am very nicely trapped in the moment and future plans. I can get myself excited for my goals and plans. I can enjoy whatever is in the moment cos I things that happened a few hours 前 feel like days, and days feel like months and months feel like years 前 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Anyways Imma go to sleep 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
I am Rikus memory 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Tfw あなた FEEL that night time depression sneaking up

But あなた ALSO wanna read some Pandora Hearts 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Prolly read some then sleep 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
USB = Unsuspectingly Saucy Butthole 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Honestly shocked and disgusted with people. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Major faith in humanity and フレンズ ロスト 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Seriously anyone who thinks thats funny and okay is disgusting as hell 1年以上前
GDragon612 コメントしました…
same here 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
One a 秒 note, Im incredibly disgusted, sickened and pissed off with people from my band cos one of my band children and his family had a small song bird fly into their house and instead of saving it (even when it was easy to save and grab) they decided to FILM the ネコ hunting and killing it while finding a shit ton of amusement out of it.

One kid was like "Oh should we grab the hat (that it was sitting on)?" and then the mom owuld be like "No let it hunt" and everyone had cameras 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Like... are they REALLY finding amusement in watching a helpless bird get killed によって a cat that PROBABLY wont even actually eat it? Seriously? I mean its KINDA okay if it did because サークル, 円 of life, and honestly, I wouldnt mind that bad if they filmed it または something. Because こんにちは maybe its an idea of recording nature and shit. Like a snake eating a マウス または whatever. But the commentary PISSED me off. "Oh let it hunt" "Oh lets watch it" "Oh look it got killed lol" 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
And of the 36 people that liked it, only one bothered to コメント "Why didnt あなた save it? ;-;" while everyone else either didnt care または found it funny as well 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
I could say a lot about this but あなた already did yourself. People like these disgust me as well !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
On one note, its Lucys birthday today and he got all sorts of toys and has been 歌う all 日 like he knows it is his birthday and its great.

Im glad to have such a wonderful bird in my life...... BUT 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Happy Birthday to him. May he continue to grow and be healthy !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Also, I 愛 the look of slender builds on men.

I'm just saying that.

While I like rounded and curved women cos I 愛 thick thighs and boobs. ((That being said, my taste is much less strict for women than men since I do 愛 the extremely flat too and only a bit less than curved))

Slender builds are great. Perfect hugging size. A bit もっと見る to the feminine side. Less domineering look. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I really cant stand the idea of being the 'woman' in a relationship. It either has to be off the charts of being able to figure it out and balanced, または I'm the "man" in it. And personally the big and bulky look, while I dont hate it and its not a deal breaker または antyhing, tends to put me on guard. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
And im not saying no to muscles. Muscles are nice too XD I just think slender frames are niceeee. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
^^ 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
While I DO 愛 Davis and STILL 愛 Davis and had a wonderful trip there, I do have to say the sheer amount they pushed the liberal ideologies and agenda onto everyone was a little... concerning.

As someone who is moderate, probably a little leaning towards Libertarian, I found it kind of honestly uncomfortable. It was almost cult like to be honest. Talking about lines and verses and explaining what they mean and what they make us feel like and why they are true 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
RATHER than discussing it thoroughly and properly, there was a whole "Do this, または else" and a "This is the objective response to the topic / idea and not subjective, so tell me why its right" 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
It was just so super PC 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I just feel people are too quick to be driven to be nice and make everyone happy and all they miss a chunk of reality 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
When Wantadogs fucked up mind comes up with shit so weird and unexpected that both he and Riku can't even bring up the energy to acknowledge its existence. 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
上, ページのトップへ that, Davis band chick 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
[Riku gets boners] 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
[Wanta gave Riku a boner] 1年以上前
zanhar1 コメントしました…
Put ur weiners away there are aces here :v 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
XD Wanta was denying his ability to write smut, and while it wasnt smut, it was a sensual scene and he did really good so I have to call him out on it cos I got an empathetic boner for my character :v 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Having seen it, I can attest to its Sensuality. Not bad at all. It was certainly a nice part !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
That feeling when the ランダム person あなた met in a UC Davis band chatroom is pretty much on a ファンポップ Friend level basis with あなた and あなた openly discuss and share many similarities and opinions on mental health, music, classes, etc.

She noticed my extreme passion and drive to learn :v

Is it really that obvious? Shes talked to me in IM for like... less than a week :v 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
I've been replaced already..... 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Hasn't even started at Davis and Wantadog is already old hat 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
#TheOldModel 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Great to know. It doesn't really surprise me. Your Passion on certain Subjects has a way of really standing out. One of your charms. Many in here could attest to that !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
On another note, I tore / bit my finger nails and fingers way too much yesterday out of stress of how annoying the schedule builder was.

My eyebrows are a given.

But my fingers hurt. Especially the right thumb which hurts like a betch, 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
あなた shoulda stayed up with me all night XD Clearly the smart play. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
HUNGER GAMES FOR 大学 CLASS SEATS BEGINS IN 22 MINUTES

LETS SEE WHO WINS THE TWO CHEM CHAIRS OUT OF THE LIKE 300 STUDENTS WHO WANT IT

I mean there are もっと見る like.... eight seats for like... a hundred people but still. 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Whoa. Fortnite got crazy... 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
*lays head down in a depressed manner* 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Put me out of my misery :V 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
あなた need to fight it, Rikubun !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Made it to Sacramento XD Tomorrow starts Davis' Orientation 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack_ コメントしました…
Let the new journey begin. 👏🏻 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Also my anxiety over college has mostly subsided now that I found ONE person who I am a lot like and get along with online XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Personally, if あなた ever get concerned of how pointless and meaningless life is, think of it like this.

Life is less like an RPG game または story game

Life is much もっと見る like a sandbox game. It has no real point または goal, but it is full of opportunities and game mechanics that allow あなた to do so much, experience so much, and explore freely. If あなた learn to work the game mechanics well, あなた can pretty much do anything.

Heck, if あなた work the physics engine 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
あなた can do things that might seem impossible 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Its sad that I am so uncomfortable being alone with my parents for もっと見る than half an 時 without something actively distracting me または someone to balance it out / distract me 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack_ コメントしました…
Daydream might com in handy.. 1年以上前
JetBlack_ コメントしました…
link 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I LITERALLY HATE THAT MY お気に入り 食 IS BIRD

AND THAT MY お気に入り THING IN THE WORLD IS BIRD

WHY HAST GOD FORSAKEN ME 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
LIKE. I COULD STOP EATING PIG. I COULD STOP EATING COW. BUT STOP EATING POULTRY KILLS LIKE 90% OF MY DIET 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
NO BIRD LIFE IS BETTER THAN ANOTHER. ITS LIKE EATING COCKATIELS JESUS. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
And no, I dont care. XD Dont get me wrong, I 愛 cows and pigs too. Its just that there isnt the strong instant emotional connection または strong obsession and 愛 that I have for birds that makes me feel guilty wheneveR I eat it XD Plus I dont eat pork and beef NEARLY as much as I do chicken 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I just realized I no longer remember any of the physical abuse I witnessed a lot as a kid huh...

I REMEMBER remembering it. But I dont remember it itself.

I KNOW it happened, but no matter how much I 検索 my memory files, I genuinely cant find it.

Youd think somehting like that would be embedded deeply but I guess tis the way of repeated trauma. 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack_ コメントしました…
Same 1年以上前
JetBlack_ コメントしました…
A weak memory in certain situations is blessed I truly believe that because it deletes all the awful things that a person went through. 1年以上前
laugh
GDragon612 発言しました …
Good humor is the health of the soul, sadness is its poison. 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
^ Stay humorous. Stay healthy !!!! 1年以上前
laugh
GDragon612 発言しました …
I'm a sarcastic person, and people don't get my humor sometimes. 投稿されました 1年以上前
cool
GDragon612 発言しました …
The secret to humor is surprise. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Body = Tense 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Body = Primed 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Body = Naked !!!! 1年以上前
GDragon612 コメントしました…
bodycontrol ^^ 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Man being stuck in the situation where あなた are not being energized sucks ass. I find that I'm not 100% introverted in that even if I'm alone, I still am not necessarily energized. What recharges my battery is my environment. I could do the same thing with the same people in one setting and not get revved up the same as I do in others 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
But right now I'm not in any environment that gives me energy it seems cuz with each passing 日 I'm もっと見る and もっと見る worn out and もっと見る and もっと見る drained. 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
A ランダム ramble about one of Wantadogs RP characters.

I just really like Kumau because of how he is the most accurate embodiment of his nation that we have so far. He's a patriot. He can do anything because he has the support and strength of his people, urging him on to new heights. Likewise, his people can accomplish whatever they set their mind to because he is there supporting them with all the power he possesses 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I am still learning a lot about my mental health and even もっと見る specifically on what is normal and what isnt normal and what is likely due to past trauma and shit 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Ugh now Im bingeing Versailles ギター solos. Why do I have such bad impulse control XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Called it 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Why does Kamijo look so young? 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Brain: Remember that song that back in 9th grade even though we werent severely または actively suicidal, almost helped あなた really screwed up mind and the many fictional things in your head that あなた talked to 24/7 that it was both good and okay for あなた to kill yourself?

Me: Yeah.

Brain: It was pretty lets go listen to it again.

Me: Okay.

Me: ...

Me: Wait.

Me: THIS IS A TRAP. :v ITS NIGHT TIME AND あなた WANT ME TO LISTEN TO A POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS SONG 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
My hobby is spraying myself with a spray bottle または shooting the spray bottle above me and letting the water fall nicely down on me on hot days

It feels so nice 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Quite frankly dealing with the issues that arise on the アイコン Contest and trying to go about them diplomatically is quite a pain in the ass. There is a process Wanta and I go through that makes things relatively simple

Not gonna say the idea of canceling the contest didnt occur to me. Im not going to, but I did contemplate it. 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
The bitchy 返信 are getting annoying. Stop chewing us out simply because you’re 芝居 suspicious. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
^Not even that. Its just the annoying defensiveness. If あなた didn't do it, just say so and be like "Hey I think this is a missunderstanding" instead of feeling the need to pull up an entire argument that is just sooooo over the top. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
link 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Heres the thing though guys.

Its hard to judge someone, または at least it should be. If あなた think about it, every person in the world is human - every person in the world has emotions - every person in the world have their wants, loves, desires, etc - every person has struggles.

Some might be smaller than others, some might be insane または invalid. The thing is that somewhere in their head, their behavior and beliefs make sense and are something they feel is necessary, whether 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
they are aware of it または not 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
So personally, I have trouble full on judging someone (at least long term) for things they do and all. Personally, if I wasnt so open and so genuinely trying to figure it out myself, Id probably be disgusted with myself and my actions, but personally, I know I am working my hardest on figuring out what feels right and what is okay. People behave interestingly based on their stories, what they want, what they lacked, what they never had, what struggles theyve been through, または what struggles theyve never had 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Well said. Personally, I always try to place myself in the shoes of others before I judge them. It has certainly 与えられた me もっと見る insight !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
That feeling when あなた get up to brush your teeth and grab something to eat cos あなた are hungry

But instead go pee, then go back to your 机, デスク and now have to try again. Ugh XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Honestly Im not even gonna keep it a secret since its not my natural personality to do it

Im 読書 Pandora Hearts cos its actually an アニメ I loved and intentionally neglected for years so I could read without much memory of it. It also had a huge impact on me like... three または so years 前 so its really interesting

Its likely going have my new アイコン Contest entry 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Hype 👍 !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
REALLY good time at the Fourth of July celebration yesterday. It was a lot of fun and the peopel there were great. Kinda felt like a normal family for once

....

Also I somehow dont remember much of any of it still tho.

Just a huge fog.

Thats the level of my memory 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Riku has really put me into a dilemma. She compared me to a character from an anime/manga I haven't seen so I can't even look into it to see how accurate it is 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Same lol. Although I did some research on each Character. Just for the Personality part though. I'm planning on getting on with this Series soon. Seems quite interesting !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
^Muahahahaha 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Rikus new 説明 of my personality: "Mopey poutiness" 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Dude, for all the things I find New York to be kinda dumb for, requiring elementary, middle, and highschools to teach their students about mental health is definitely one I am NOT on that ボート for. 投稿されました 1年以上前
laugh
GDragon612 発言しました …
banging your head against a ウォール burns 150 calories an 時 投稿されました 1年以上前
GDragon612 コメントしました…
ouch XD 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Being as obsessive as I am is monotonous. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
To be honest, I just want my free meat and chips and soda Ill get at the 通り, ストリート party my boyfriend's family invited me to. Like... the carnivore in me is happy. The "Drinks Dr. Pepper Like Beer" in me is happy XD

The me who loves absolutely loud noises is happy especially since the neighbors have a literal 大砲, キャノン they light and try to get the loudest noise out of.

Is it legal? Maybe, maybe not.

Do they keep running it back and forth between the ガレージ and the street? Yes. 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack_ 発言しました …
Is お茶, 紅茶 even good for parrots? 🤔
I’m watching YouTube 👀 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Well some but I would typically avoid it since there are a lot of things あなた have to keep an eye out for that ARENT in the お茶, 紅茶 to make sure they are okay for the bird to have (caffinee, flavors, specific chemicals, etc) 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
It could be good for them if あなた find the 安全, 安全です ones but not too much to my taste 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
For those that I didnt tell, 次 session with my therapist we are going to go over the possibility of a dissociative disorder diagnosis rather than leaving it as just 'dissociative tendencies' to perhaps make my transfer to a new therapist easier when I get around to it.

So こんにちは we might see if I fit into one または not XD

Cos it might just be C-PTSD. Might have gotten extreme enough to be もっと見る than just C-PTSD which has dissociative symptoms. *shrugs* 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes makes me want to die :v 投稿されました 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Trust me. We tried 1年以上前
GDragon612 コメントしました…
boom!! 1年以上前
wantadog 発言しました …
Me and Riku are playing Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes.

Riku: "It looks like a サークル, 円 with a little toupee"

Me: "?"

Riku: "Or like an upside down 9"

Me: "...you mean a six?"

Riku: "...oh ya" 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
ME AND MY MOM MANAGED TO CONVINCE MY DAD HE MIGHT BE GROWING A TAIL 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Oh man, taking advantage on his lack of any science-based education made up for his snotty コメント on the vet bill being not worth it 1年以上前
wantadog コメントしました…
Well if あなた think about it... 1年以上前