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Riku114 発言しました …
"Yeah, youre probably right. [...] Were probably all insane.. broken. But whose fault is that!? The adults are the ones who broke us! あなた want to hear the truth? .. We're scared" ~Nagisa Shingetsu (DRAE) 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Was gonna make my プロフィール "Just Riku" entirely cause I felt like it but nah. I felt like mixing it up since I didnt have a Danganronpa-specific background.

... quite shockingly actually. 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
^ I'm shocked myself !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
... I just realized now after 読書 'scientific literature' for an Animal Science Assignment a few weeks 前 that I find 読書 "scientific literature" for psychiatry and psychology as just like... a hobby XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Just a reminder of the stream on Saturday 2 PM 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
On another note, getting a double major in Animal Science (Avian and Behavior specialization) and Psychology in 4 years seems a lot easier than Pre-Vet in 3.5 years XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I THINK I FINALLY FIGURED OUT EXACTLY WHAT I WANT TO DO FOR FUCKS SAKE FINALLY THE AMBIGUOUS PIECES OF ANIMAL SCIENCE MATCHED. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Okay so like I am going to complete my major in Animal Science, Avian Science Specialization and BEHAVIOR Disciplinary Focus. All of that is necessary for the Animal Science degree btw. A specialization and a Disciplinary Focus. But listen here - Im either going to minor または double major in psychology just like I used to plan to for the majority of my middle / highschool career and carry on to get a Doctorate in Animal Behavior and / または Psychology and then go into research for the both of them and essentially try to bridge the 質問 marks between animal and human psychology and see how the two could better develop, grow, and understand when looked at each other in a parallel manner. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
This solves a lot of my issues and pretty much combines my main two interests, obsessions, overwhelming passions, and ties in my otherwise 'random' goals into a larger circle. Like one of the issues with being a Veterinarian was that I felt I would get bored being specialized in that and just working commercially and I wouldnt be learning at the rate I like to. My brain would get bored and Id start to feel like life is dull. As for genetics and convservation, it just seems fun but half baked. I wasnt passionate または THAT curious about it. BUT WHEN あなた GO INTO ANIMAL BEHAVIOR AND PSYCHOLOGY, THEY ARE BOTH HUGE PASSIONS OF MINE AND THEY ARE BOTH RATHER UNEXPLORED TERRITORIES SO THERE IS A LOT OF 質問 AND THINGS TO FIGURE OUT 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Okay enough of me being a nerd. I just felt some of youd be curious XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
But yeah for those of あなた that dont fully understand how problematic dissociative amnesia is when getting mental help

Therapy: So how was your week?

Me: ??????? I can check my notes if あなた like????????

Psychiatry: Okay lets track your progress. In the past two weeks have あなた felt this?

Me: ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Me: WHAT IS TWO WEEKS. HOW COULD I REMEMBER THE PAST TWO WEEKS. MAYBE IVE BEEN GOOD MAYBE I HAVENT WHO KNOWS 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I can probably maybe answer for "The past two days" confidently at best XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
On a 秒 note, we have a "stale" (someone who joined the band post-Summer Retreat) and my motherly "adoptive" instincts kicked in and I think he thought I was an "upper" / "returner" for a bit until I was like "Oh yeah Im new too so I know how あなた feel" 投稿されました 1年以上前
BlueDopamine 発言しました …
97th. Was waiting to be the 100th, but knowing the growing community fanpop's active members number , this might take forever. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Understandable XD 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Honestly Ive ロスト a member または two so its kinda been staying around 95-97 for the past long while 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Me: *rambling about 前 mental states to boyfriend* Ah... 10th grade was like the most peaceful 年 even though I dont remember any of it.

Me: ....

Me: .... maybe it wasn't peaceful after all and I only say it was because of all the years, I dont remember any of 10th grade. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
My boyfriend is too cute to be depressed または mopey when talking to on video chat 投稿されました 1年以上前
BlueDopamine コメントしました…
I'm so ゼリー 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
The depressing thing is when あなた pause for a moment and realize あなた wont remember your own proposal. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
"therapist: so how was your week

me: susan i just told あなた last time that i have dissociative amnesia i don't know how あなた are expecting me to answer that question"

That is such a mood 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I legit take notes 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I will take a note of this and legit not really remember it and in my session go "OH YEAH THAT lol. That was funny." 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I honest to god do not know how most of the world does it. I am trying my damn hardest here to see if I can get myself to ACTUALLY remember a significant childhood memory with genuine episodic memory and all Im getting is a factual, third person, emotionally barren, summary of what it is using the same words that I use to describe it everytime cause its how my mind registers it

How do あなた people remember stuff XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
How do あなた people do this XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Fun stream XD Hope あなた guys enjoyed it. 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
I certainly did. Looking フォワード, 前進, 楽しみにして to 次 time as well !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Im honeslty SUPER hyped to play DRAE for those that can make it XD

I mean Im hyped for the stream but I personally 愛 DRAE a lot and it seems like such a fitting game to play through since there are people I know who planned to go through the story and all and I just appreciate a lot abotu the game

Plus あなた might get to hear me growl at [her] 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I might try to 移動する the weekly time an 時 または two earlier to see if I can make the time work for もっと見る people 次 week. Currently trying to figure out a good time for everyone XD 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
A relatable feeling. Still having mixed feelings about anyone who hasn't gone through the first two Games. Regardless, having just the general idea about the first entry at least will still make the experience enjoyable enough !!!!. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I decided Imma gather a Live National Dex on PokeBank cause someone on my floor did it and I helped them evolve the last few they needed and it sounded fun XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
TFW あなた find a song that tears あなた between your 愛 of クリスマス and あなた 愛 of nicely edgy songs XD

Why so edgy about クリスマス XD Its so nicely edgy that its kinda enjoyable but like :v I like it but :v Why hurt クリスマス like this :v 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Guys 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I might 愛 my man もっと見る than birds 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Idk its genuinely hard to say, but I just homestly might. Maybe notably もっと見る idk. I shouldnt claim such things when fluffy 1年以上前
Zeppie コメントしました…
Fluff is the realist yo v: 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I NEED TO STOP GETTING ALL FLUFFY OVER MY MAN BEFORE BED. I NEED TO SLEEP DAMN IT 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
*collects steam cards while working on really long and tedious Animal Science 記事 reading* 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I dont think anyone on here really understands how much I 愛 mt boyfriend and how blessed I am to have him in my life.

Lowkey may または may not now be kept up thinking about it 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I cant wait to make him my waifu officially 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Riku: *complains how tired she is*

Riku: *stays up playing Showdown with Lefteris* 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I can not stop listening to 大砲, キャノン in D XD Its too peaceful 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
.... why do I have a better emotional memory for my RP characters than I do for my own life?

XD Like Ive always loved Pachbell's 大砲, キャノン in D, but there was a really sweet scene over a wedding in one of my RPs where it was played and the sheer joy, happiness, and warm peace amongst chaos and terror for the groom was just so great and it boosted how much I loved 大砲, キャノン in D 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Maybe I RPed so much it was bad for me and encouraged dissociation, maybe the reason I could get THAT far into feeling the emotions of my characters came at a huge cost, but I wont say I dont have some good memories and emotions through them. Especially during a time when everything else in the world was distant, numb, and empty. Sure it probably caused some harm, but in the moment it was the savior to my world and I did get some good memories - albiet not mine - out of it 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I used to be a severe maladaptive daydreamer 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
For those that haven't kept up with the polls, if anyone wants to 登録する in and watch me play through some games, I will probably be playing games on Saturdays Pacific Coast Time.

I think this week I might start Danganronpa Another Episode again for あなた all XD Time is still to be determined

It depends if I am kept in the football game または not. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
link 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I think Lefteris caught a lot of the first playthrough I did XD 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
And Imma go through [her] again for yall to share the game with あなた XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Im so honestly sleep deprived. How am I awake rn? XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I'm a Queen. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Nah not really though XD Im so weak to flirtatious begging though. ((Also may have been a bit of a residue from calming down from a snap to which I was five 秒 from making my dad grovel)) 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Honestly, for those that know, Lacie from Pandora Hearts looks almost scarily like Aderis so Im usually really careful about using her icon, but I kind of feel like its a good fit for my mood and honestly I 愛 Lacie XD 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
#Himedere !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Ah yes, it wouldnt be me coming ホーム if my dad doesnt throw something.

RIP the cute japanese animal cup 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Actually I dont think the cup broke cause its probably like some really good plastic または something but now theres wine all over the floor which IS NOT my problem. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Honestly tho. Great boyfriend helped a lot XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
APPARENTLY WE GOT A NEW BIRD TO THE FLOCK 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Awwwww Avery and Lucy were preening each other in an awkward manner XD Seems like they MIGHT be dating XD

Well もっと見る like Lucy was preening Avery buuuuut XD Its cute. Theyre growing up. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
.... HMMM

>goes ホーム and back to college for three weeks before coming back for Christmas
>has a paper due on the 30th
>has a week of marching practice for the last game on the 1st
>has finals on the third week
>dying? 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Also behind as hell in Chem XD But yeah. Ill figure it out XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Also the thing about my therapist is that he calls me out on somethings. Such as "You use your memory as an excuse a lot but あなた can remember. あなた just dont want to. And even if あなた dont know how, it doesnt mean あなた cant."

Im not going to lie. I kinda try to hide it from myself but there are some occasions that I know that if I push I CAN remember something but there is a lot of natural resistance to it and just an extreme distaste to thinking about it even just on the surface level so 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I often allow myself to go "Welp, it took もっと見る than five 秒 and a tiny tiny bit of effort to remember. Guess I cant remember it". Its not always an excuse that I try to keep from admitting to myself that its an excuse, because a lot of the time I really cant または I can only barely remember または I just flat out dont know how to find the memories または how to connect with the emotions of the time 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
But I do know I compulsively let myself throw the "Cant remember it. Guess we cant think about it" really quickly and often prematurely. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Im in a constant journey of going to things I find normal and being ".... is that normal または is that part of my messed up mental health" 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Its weird. Being ホーム literally feels like I was moved to an entirely different world but in a like... good way I think?

Was I really that shit 尻, お尻 dissociated to hell and back at college? 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
It honestly makes college just seem like some odd dream I had または something like that. Its really odd. I mean its not THAT odd for me since cognitive distortions and attachment to the world / my memory has always been odd 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
MY ANKLE HURTS LIKE SHIT FOR SOME REASON XD

I mean it is my hurt one but like :v Its been recovering and suddenly it started hurting again ;-; 投稿されました 1年以上前
SilentForce コメントしました…
Did あなた overwork it? 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Probably tbh XD 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Kill me XD Jkjk 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Honestly Im kinda glad I have gotten better at keeping myself from freaking out / getting depressed over things I can't control and things I know Ill manage / survive through. Not to say I do it all the time as well as Id like, but it saves me a lot of breakdowns that quickly build upon one another

Probably a good part of it is actually being on medication, but it is also a good part also just handling myself better I imagine. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Cause when あなた let your opportunity to relax または have fun because something makes あなた upset, あなた get even もっと見る upset cause of that and it just builds up like a mountain that just doesnt work 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
So yeah. Kinda figured out that for the 次 two years I might be stuck between working and being uncomfortable and relatively isolated to being extremely drained and a bit easily overwhelmed until I can get my boyfriend up north and thus have my environment もっと見る stable 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Cause uncontrolled unplanned breakdowns are bad, but like... controlled, timed ones are really helpful and useful when あなた dissociate a lot and can get comfortable enough. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
.... Ive been away from ホーム for two months and it legit feels like I was only gone for maybe a week at most save for the first few 分 of "Holy shit human touch".

Like Im not saying "Everythings just as it was left" cos there actually isnt much. It just legit feels like that whole time vanished :v I know I was at college for two months and it was long and tiring :v Weeeiiiirrrddd 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I swear to fucking god XD My brain better not throw away those two months already. Theres some interesting shit there :v 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Dude so excited to go ホーム tomorrow XD I get to see my birds again as well as my boyfriend and even some of my old band kids probably \(-- 3 -)/ 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
That is great to know. Have a good time. Make the most of it !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Bad Memory?

Cons: A lot of things mainly obvious

Pro: I can still be surprised at the end of an アニメ Ive already watched twice over 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
.... to be entirely honest I dunno how braced Ill be for Smokey's inevitable death in like.... 5-15 years from now :v

Like Im alright not taking her with me since shes considerably old and well integrated into the current flock cause the 移動する up north could be dangerous for her and cos my mom can take care of them well, but I dunno. She was a major part of the good things of my childhood that I dunno. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
For all of あなた that dont really understand how old parrotss live, even cockatiels, one of the shortest living parrots, Smokey, potentially one of the oldest that I got in the summer of 3rd-4th grade ((was probably a little under a 年 old))

I got her when I was about 8. Shes currently about 10 years old, maybe a bit older. She will live anywhere from until Im.... 23 up to 38.

Lucy, who hatched July 2017, is a little over one 年 and will live until Im 42 if cared for right. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Maybe even longer for both of them. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Honestly, I am ever thankful for it, but the whole "wounded, cold person who can be helped and fixed to be soft" is a huge trap and like.... 90% of the time it doesnt really go out to the end. A small but notable amount of the population are like "Id 愛 a traumatized partner" または "Oh Id 愛 a yandere" または what not, but its honestly not a good idea

My boyfriend was honest to god crazy for taking the chance with me after half the things I did and staying after I did other things. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Quite honestly if I wasnt stubborn on getting better, it could have easily turned into a long term abusive relationship faster than I could have held myself back. Yeah I have an amazing relationship with him now that we worked through all of that, but seriously... not something あなた should put your bets on. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Its honestly kinda gross how romanticized the "cold and cruel traumatized" character is. 1年以上前
Rihanna312 コメントしました…
This is so true! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Okay so its likely that I actually do have genuine multiple personalities and in this session, for the first time in years and possibly to my memory, I actually roughly experienced a general vague memory that had almost all of the emotion behind it

And while that sounds horrible, its legit what Ive been kind of wanting because its the only thing I have been unable to work on in my mental health cause I resist so naturally against it myself that even in this session 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I had to very forcefully make sure I didnt dissociate または let myself escape it 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
It took him not letting me dodge it and escape it and a very forceful but balanced amount of me forcing myself without letting myself get distracted and escape によって focusing too much on forcing myself 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Very interesting. I see now what あなた mean によって him doing a good work !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Man its been so long since I so quickly and suddenly cut off emotion. 投稿されました 1年以上前
2ntyOnePilots コメントしました…
Relatable. Good luck ‘big sis- Riku’. Hope that gets fixed up for あなた soon. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Well Imma get fucked in the 尻, お尻 によって a 60% weighted final. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Which wouldnt be a huge deal if either A) I didnt get a C+ on the last midterm because of one stupid calculation error (cause I would have otherwise gotten an A) and B ) If I wasnt learning from fucking textbook because my professor has an accent あなた cant fucking understand 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
What a fucking 日 ruiner. 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
^ 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
IM SAD

I CANT 登録する THE "Mental HEalth in Award Winning Movies" FIRST 年 SEMINAR BECAUSE IM TOO AHEAD IN UNITS AND CAUSE I HAVE TOO MANY CLASSES

I JUST WANT TO DISCUSS AND TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH AND WATCH 映画 REVOLVING IT :VVVV 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
NOTE TO SELF CALL COUNSELING AND FIGURE OUT HOW LATE I CAN キャンセル IN CASE MY MIDTERM GETS PUSHED BACK AGAIN.

ALSO FIGURE OUT PASSING PERIOD.

Thank you, this as been a reminder from Riku who wants to go back to sleeping after her classes got canceled at 7 AM and couldnt go back to sleep out of both joy and her brain not letting her since there were things to do because of it. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Honestly Yandere Dev is miserable and I stopped being a supporter cause I kinda gave up on the fact his project would be completed but honestly I might go back to supporting him more. または at least giving his thing a 秒 chance. I kinda felt bad before but at least hes aware and working on things. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Ugh. When あなた are here trying to keep a decent sleep schedule and your roommate wont get off the phone on a school night at 1:30 AM after あなた asked nicely at 1:00 AM and just passive aggressively asked again. 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack__ コメントしました…
Why not use ear plugs? 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Cos I couldnt sleep with earplugs 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I could honestly live with only birds and my boyfriend and I would be happpppy. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I want my flock back ;-; 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
ALSO THE LIKE BURNT / CHAFED / DAMAGED SKIN FROM USING CRUTCHES WITH A TANK 上, ページのトップへ BURNS SO BAD WHEN I PUT LOTION ON ジーザス CHRIST I FEEL LIKE ITS ON 火災, 火 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
*heavy conversation and analysis about the cooperate religion of BTS*

*sends a ランダム bird video three 秒 after* 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
That actually happened and is the best summary of me 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I swear to god my mom gave me a ハート, 心 attack XD

She abruptly started calling me which isnt TOO odd and I was like "Im busy, what is it?" and she just 発言しました "Lucy" XD

So I quickly dropped everythign and answered it and it was just Lucy hanging out with her and being a really good bird XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I honestly dont understand how people can just sit and piss their life away online.

Id be もっと見る producitve if my piss 尻, お尻 brain would function and actually get motivated but the lack of physical movement is making me honest to god unmotivated mentally and thus cant focus または really enjoy anything >.> 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Honestly kinda hate my leg right now. I have a three 日 weekend Im spending being a hermit in my house cause I cant go out anywhere and socialize または so anything. Im literally just sitting on my 尻, お尻 watching anime, watching youtube, and occasionally doing some homework または whatever. No real video games to play since Im still doing Hakuoki and not interested in any others. No real socialization cause Im a cripple. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
Without class または band または anything I just lowkey kinda realize how shit as boring life is. I need something to be passionate over または something to learn from または something / someone interesting but Im just fukcing sitting here doing the same thign over and over again. Like wtf 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
If Im just gonna sit and waste these 次 few days can I at least not be involved in it and just fastfoward? I get a bit weird when I realize how monotonous life is and I dont particularly like it 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Krul might make my waifu 一覧 XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
IM SO SHOOK. WHY ARE MY FIRST BATCH OF ROOKIES DOING SENIOR SPEECHES?! ARENT THEY STILL LIKE FRESHMEN

WHY DID THEY GROW UP ALREADY?!?! 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I request a bird 動画 in my club's video section if anyone has any. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
"a bird videos" 1年以上前
JetBlack__ コメントしました…
Sure 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
So Im trying to analyze BPD, OSDD-1B, and DID to see if what I do and experience is もっと見る fitting to one of the three または just seeing them in the context of eachother and its honestly really interesting. I dunno if Ill post it on "Just Shut Up" または as an 記事 but wow.

I could honest to god write a thesis paper on this with how interestingly similar the three - especially BPD and OSDD - are on an outward level. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
#TripleHealRainDishPelipper 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
#SpamProtectAndHealUntilThereIsn'tAnyMorePP !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
>Sugar Daddy Riku 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Lets play the game of "Is this the dissociated part of is that the dissociated part" 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
I honestly need my flock back. 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Apologies about the Satou Matsuzaka gif spam XD The wiki feature wasnt working 投稿されました 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
No need to apologize over adorable Waifu Gif spams. あなた did well !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
FUCK IM SO DISAPPOINTED. HAPPY SUGAR LIFE WAS SO CLOSE TO THE CLASSICAL SHAKESPEAREAN TRAGEDY ENDING WITH THE WHOLE CAST COMING TOGETHER AT THE END AND DYING ALL TOGETHER IN ONE PLACE BUT THEN THEY YEETED OUT OF THE PLAN AND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFUL 投稿されました 1年以上前
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EEEE. ITS ALMOST THURSDAY. 投稿されました 1年以上前
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I 愛 therapy so much when I have bad weeks on mental health XD 1年以上前
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Ive kinda been pulling myself through the way I usually do and kind of using band and the trumpet as a crutch a bit. Cause honestly they give off such a nice healthy environment and air. Its soft and I feel so much もっと見る relaxed around them. Like when the topic of mental health comes up its always sympathetic, empathetic, and just "Oh its good to care for yourself" and all and the world just needs so much もっと見る of that. 1年以上前
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Im very grateful. 1年以上前
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Im still honestly kinda 苦い I was disarmed going to college. I like to have at least one ナイフ on me at all times for just general use または for emergency use または just as a bit of a "dont fuck with me" if Im alone at night. 投稿されました 1年以上前
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GOD. Happy Sugar Life thus far is GREAT. Like the stylistic choices to display emotion and mental snaps are really great and as someone who has had very... lets say vindictive / aggressive mental snaps, I feel it is really good representation XD

Also I really like Sato as a Yandere. Better than Yuno I believe. 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Holy shit is it amazing. All the characters are mentally fucked and the アニメ goes about its own ways of addesssing it 1年以上前
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And displaying it and I fucking 愛 it but like 1年以上前
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I need to go to sleep XD But Im fucking hooked god help me 1年以上前
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Debating between adding もっと見る to characters または watching Happy Sugar Life. I decided that one since it interested me the most even though I am slightly concerned of certain things not workign well with me but... Ya know #Yolo 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Pretty much had a one-on-one sectional practice with one of my section leaders cos no one else showed up and it was actually pretty awesome. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Also I realized one of the best types of people to have around あなた in the case あなた get into an accident または bad situation is someone with like.... anxiety または PTSD cos we are always either mentally braced または physically braced to deal with it.

Cos dude I have pretty much a first aid kit with me whenever I do anything remotely dangerous XD

Like I heard the bike breaks behind me screech like there was an accident turned around and was like "ARE あなた GUYS OKAY I GOT BANDAGES AND SUPPLIES" 投稿されました 1年以上前
JetBlack__ コメントしました…
I am so doing a meme of this xD 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
^ 👌 !!!! 1年以上前
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XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I was most definately not almost late for class despite being there 20 分 early because I got too into checking out the birds and psychology 本 in the bookstore across the 通り, ストリート from my class 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Me @ My Brain: Make serotonin and dopamine あなた lazy fucker 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Honestly it feels like I missed three consecutive days of anxiety medicine and while my ability to remember to take medicine the past week has been bad, I do not think I missed three days.

Cause apparently if I miss three days in a row it resets または something and thus I never missed three days in a row since I started taking it like... a 年 and a half 前 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Its honestly been a while since Ive been in a point of instability and my mind messing with itself that I have so strongly marked a 日 to 'survive' with it to. 1年以上前
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Like this is all minor compared to before and its pretty bad so like.... serious リスペクト to younger me 1年以上前
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She was a beast to deal with all this 1年以上前
JetBlack__ 発言しました …
When あなた own a Cockatoo someday name it Riku xD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Why XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Im honestly not cut out for living with people other than like.... birds and maybe my boyfriend. I could probably also manage living with my PTSD best friend, but unless Im really bonded and/or really really trust them and are comfortable around them, it takes a huge toll on me in the long run

And things get really hard to manage when Im not fully stable because the small things trigger things to start again that I just have to keep to myself and it greatly slows down recovering. 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Cause unless its someone I trust and am comfortable with, I get easily set off when Im not fully stable and I know its usually ridiculous and overresponsive due to being unstable and just end up having to keep it to myself 1年以上前
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But honestly I cant wait to get my own studio. I can handle things so much easier that way. 1年以上前
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I 愛 my roommates and they are great people but I dont think its that good for me and all 1年以上前
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WHY THE FUCK ARE ALL THE UNREQUITED 愛 ROUTES WORSE THAN THE BAD ROUTES

UNREQUITED 愛 SOUNDS LIKE THE MEDIUM ONE BUT IN EDO BLOSSOMS ITS THE WORST 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Okay so Okita and Hijikata are pretty neck in neck relatable 1年以上前
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I decided that after I finish Okitas route Imma take a break and watch Happy Sugar Love. Ive been wanting to watch it for a while and just remembered it now that its finished XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Maybe not actualyl Ill see XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Id probably think Im some Tumblr self diagnoser with all the diagnoses I have but I really dont bring up most of them :v Im actually really shy about askign about them cause I dont wanna be a self diagnoser to the point my first therapist knew I had PTSD for a while but it technically wasnt official for over a 年 XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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And Im pretty casual with them cause its just a label, something to look into and understand and reflect on, and somethign to aid in planning further recovery progress 1年以上前
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Ooof. Apparently the new trumpet section leader this 年 in my old highschool band is hospitalized with a collapsed lung and he has a solo for the fieldshow that no one can replace 投稿されました 1年以上前
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.... tfw your お気に入り college professor has a lot of negative "Rate My Professor" ratings despite him being literally one of the best public speakers and most engaging teachers???

And its not only me. Like everyone who sits around me also agrees??? 投稿されました 1年以上前
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How the fuck XD 1年以上前
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Imma give him five stars when I finish the class cos tbh sometimes I just go to his class for the energy and engagement in the class. Hes a wonderful lecturer and its a good escape from life for a bit XD 1年以上前
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Honestly glad I have chickens this morning for lab cause my brain is being fucking retarded cause yesterday was long and a bit problematic plus I got half the amount of sleep I usually do >.> 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Starting therapy again after 3 months off and shit is messing with my mind a bit :v 1年以上前
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She was such a precious hen 1年以上前
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Also Okita is too relatable too XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Me: I shoudl actually get a referral for psychiatry before I come close to running out of medication and risk having to go over three days without it. Imma go get that appointment

Me: *goes to the health website*

Website: We have these appointments tomorrow. If they dont work, contact this number for assistance

Me: O-O HOLY SHIT あなた DONT HAVE TO WAIT A WEEK PLUS FOR A DOCTOR APPOINTMENT? IS THIS WHAT NOT SUPER SHITTY MEDICAL SERVICE IS?! 投稿されました 1年以上前
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#DowntownDavisDay 投稿されました 1年以上前
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I miss my better half XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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My mentally-healthy lifestyle is harder to manage without him XD 1年以上前
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Cause honestly Im actually like.... 5x もっと見る efficient with my time and もっと見る productive and もっと見る active. I actually study a bit, Im ahead on my homework, and I work well on my projects of interests because I dont spend time just laying down doing nothing または napping または taking pointless walks または other things that are otherwise considered inefficient usage of time 1年以上前
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Personally I just dont have much of anything better to do XD 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Bro I need to chill XD

I mean I know I did most of my homework today that I had to do tomorrow so I can make Thursday an almost free day

But like... When I suggest we play something casual and shit like Sims again

Dont go off and be like "Nah we could work on developing characters more" and almost start doing it when あなた have a damn headache XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Me: *explaining to my innocent roommate about THAT corner of tumblr*

Her: Doesnt it trigger あなた ever?

Me: It actually has in the past but yeah

Conversation: *turns to topic of she who should not be mention*

Me: ha..hahah....ha. No brain lets not get like this 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Cntrl Alt 削除 that. I do not need to think about it XD 1年以上前
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Roommate: Do あなた ever write down your feelings または anything?

Me: Do あなた want to see what it looked like when I did?

Roommate: .... with how あなた 発言しました that, Im honestly scared and will decide to pass on that. 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Boi between TwinkleStar mentioning it and Okita's route, Im really remembering how bloodthirsty I used to get when I was really emotionally and mentally unstable. 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Honestly as much of a shitty developer that YandereDev is, he hired a good person to create a good theme for the Delinquents and I really honestly 愛 the theme for its composition and shit 投稿されました 1年以上前
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:vvv That feeling when あなた go to sleep and 20 分 later your trumpet chat has one of those great night time ランダム bullshit discussions and now あなた wish あなた didnt sleep :v XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Also my new therapist feels OCPD is a もっと見る fitting diagnosis than OCD (excluding the fact Trichotillomania is a subtype of OCD) 投稿されました 1年以上前
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To be honest might look もっと見る into it and discuss it もっと見る with him at some point but I lowkey dont want to accept it XD 1年以上前
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If I do have it (cause we barely talked about it in the run through of who I am on the first meeting) but I dont want to add one もっと見る general branch of disorders to my 一覧 XD 1年以上前
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Imma be sad is I become an even larger ball of mental health XD 1年以上前
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:3 I served as a pivot point for moving my roommate's 日 from depressive as fuck to good again :3

It did cost my Hakuoki time I had scheduled but its nice to see I could help.

Shes now talking to her aunt about stuff and フォワード, 前進, 楽しみにして planning and thats good :3 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Me: Well shit having trouble sleeping

Me: I guess Ill just do the entire week's worth of Econ homework ahead 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Homework shouldnt be as calming as it is XD 1年以上前
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My brain was keeping awake festering on dumb anxieties so I just fed it something else to think about and be busy with XD 1年以上前
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BTW GAD is short for Generalized Anxiety Disorder 1年以上前
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I relate to Okita's Tuberculosis rn with how bad my lungs got fucked up によって my cold XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
Personally I feel that the older あなた get, the larger the responsibility it should be for あなた to provide for the younger generations. Not necessarily so strictly as said, but its part of what makes humans special. We are so capable at passing down information for years to come.

Its the responsibility of older members of society to provide as much learning experience to their youngers so progress can keep moving and everyone's life in net can be easier 投稿されました 1年以上前
Riku114 コメントしました…
In that way, its an older person's responsibility to guide and help the younger people as much as they can because as someone who is older, あなた have a higher ability to be stable and have learned how to manage your own life. On the other hand, kids to young adults are shakey on it and just a little aid in that struggle can leave a large impact 1年以上前
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Its a bit why Im always a mother that adopts younger people a lot to be honest. I may only be a 年 または two older often, but everyone could use a "big sister" "big brother" または "parent" and such a relationship dynamic can help a lot. 1年以上前
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And Im not saying responsibility like I usually do where its something I know is probably toxic and I feel I have to. I think its just a good rule of thumb. We ourselves might not have our lives together, but もっと見る often than not, I feel they are もっと見る ロスト in life. Some might not have faced the major things like money, work, and all, but if あなた think about it, a little kid loosing his お気に入り toy is super distressing and that in itself is something weve learned to handle and thus its our responsibility to help them and guide them in their way 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
Amen to that !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
I think I succeeded in taking a break today 投稿されました 1年以上前
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Mainly because my dormmates were out pretty much all 日 and thus I was able to finally have a 日 to just relax and all so its KINDA cheating, but fuck I did it XD 1年以上前
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So I didnt really overcome my mental health obstacles and stuff like I wanted and what would normally be the situation, but I did at the very least complete the task of giving my brain a break and taking a 日 to just relax XD 1年以上前
TheLefteris24 コメントしました…
A cookie has been earned !!!! 1年以上前
Riku114 発言しました …
YEp Souji shows potential for beign relatable too as I expected XD Im starting his route now 投稿されました 1年以上前
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I honestly 愛 my boyfriend and how much he accepts my weirdness and bullshit XD He literally just openly accepted and went along with me calling him "my uke" XD 投稿されました 1年以上前
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He is quite honestly just everything I could ever want in a partner and stuff I didnt think were necessarily even possible to actually find XD 1年以上前
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BFRBs + Athletes foot REALLY isnt a good combo XD 投稿されました 1年以上前