Personally, I feel being "Good" is just something a little too overpushed and a little overrated and unnecessary thing. Not to say being "Evil" is something that people should be. To be honest, being too "good" leads to a lot of problems in its own.
I think its best to live によって your own standards and find a good balance between "good" and "evil" that allows the preservation of self and others.
Also Blind and I are apparently both irresponsibly staying up together in an unplanned fashion but thats coolio. I should probably sleep soon tho cos tomorrow Im getting dragged out to watch the Chinese New 年 celebrations and all with my family and that shit gets tiring XD
God Totsuka Tatara's Theme "Circle of Friends" touches me to much XD That song used to be one of my favorites. I know it in both English and Japanese. Sadly they removed the Japanese version.
I wanna sit down watch K, read K, and play video games but like :v I had a band バスケットボール, バスケット ボール game today, tomorrow I have Chinese New 年 celebrations, and after that I gotta work at the bird rescue place :v
Im not talking about the people who really believe in God and all that. Religious people dont bother me.
The ones Im talking about are the ones that go yappering all 日 about their Christian belief and how thats not Christian like and how they are so superior because they are super Christian like as if being religious makes あなた a better person and/or they try to shove their ideologies down your throat
Sometimes I wonder if Im not mentally wired the same as most people in もっと見る ways than Im currently aware of due to my dissociation and all.
Because the もっと見る I get into this stuff, the もっと見る I realize things Ive seen as just normal things in my life that I assumed was the same for everyone is almost the opposite and they almost always tie to dissociation.
Oh my god XD im laughing too hard XD I was playing the Nagito "What the Hell" MMD for Lucy and he wsa so alert, uncomfortable, and unsure that I felt it was mean to keep him there XD He was just stressed and its funny
With Monaca, I now somewhat understand certain users need to let everyone know how much they hate a person / character and somewhat sympathize. I still dont approve and believe it shouldnt be so public, but Im going to let myself burn out my hatred on this club cos it my personal club
To be honest, I dont think I dislike/disapprove any Nagito X someone ship (okay except Monaca cos shes a 雌犬 and maybe like... the kids cos thats pedophilia). That being 発言しました Im not a ファン of all of them または anything, I just dont particualrly care for them enough that Id be okay with collecting the 画像 of them. X Mikan, X Junko, X Hajime, X Chiaki
X Junko is a little odd but I could see it so Ill respect it.
Personally I just kind of like X Hajime cos
Really tho XD Obsessing about things that really dont matter and characters like Nagito, Akashi, Misogi, Kano, Kylo Ren, etc is one of my strongest neutral coping mechanisms. Not really negative, but not necessarily a good coping mechanism XD
Cos while they arent as bad at making me fall out of touch with reality as RPs can get as a coping mechanism, they do let me dissociation, distract, and ignore issues. That being said, at this point, the issues Im ignoring are okay to ignore XD
UGH I HATE MY LIFE XD XD NAGISA FROM DANGANRONPA ANOTHER EPISODE FITS ME TO A LITERAL PERFECT T. I MEAN AT LEAST BACK TWO または THREE YEARS BEFORE I ACTUALLY GOT THERAPY または TRIED TO EVEN WORK WITH MY ISSUES AND TRAUMA AND SHIT.
SAME SHIT FROM WHAT I COULD FIND IN THE PERSONALITY.
SAME. FUCKING. EVERYTHING.
IVE GOTTEN BETTER COS IM LESS OF A CHILD THAN THEN AND CAN HANDLE IT BETTER BUT
I REALLY respect Danganronpa for their head on attack and approach on the topics of trauma, child abuse, and abusive "friendships". Cos that stuff isnt talked about much in media and when it is, its usually done as a reason to make an antagonist crazy.
Outside of a few false details with MPD / DID for Toko, I havent really seen much of anything that cant be fairly explained from characters who have such traits.
Mikan, Junko, Nagito, Toko, the Warriors of Hope...
Also, my therapist actually 発言しました it was probably better and he was hoping Id dissociate away from the stuff that were bothering me earlier XD Cos I accidentally had a small bit of a traumatic situation brought back to the surface and it was kinda really bad for me cos I was getting anxious and/or depressed over the smallest things that were completely unrelated that somehow became related.
I have a lot of obscue and odd things I take a lot of pride in that I can sometimes feel slightly insulted if such thing is put in 質問 または assumed otherwise
Usually things I closely identify with as large traits of my character. Like mentioned before, I 愛 tragedy. Thats one I can feel irrationally slightly insulted of if someone assumes something about me against it. Same thing with birds and 音楽 as a whole. I can get a little insulted when people diss either of them.
I am both tired and laughing at the fact so many shows are pushing so much tumblr-like, buzzfeed-like ideologies of like "WOMEN ARE SUPER POWERLESS IN A MAN WORLD" and pretty much spin the Social Issues wheel every episode.
Like this one is about race! This one is about women being treated unfairly! This one is about transgenders!
Like stfu. I just want to watch my medical TV show. Cut this pushing of an ideology and lemme enjoy my 表示する
Also anyone else remember when my 愛 for Pride from FMAB was really pronounced? Most people forget I still adore that child. He barely didnt make my 一覧 and now that I think about it, he probably should have made Honorable Mentions at least XD But ah well. Mistakes were made in that 記事 like accidently leaving Mikoto Suoh out XD
First we draw cards to choose the order to claim "careers" to research in Stats and I get the King of Diamonds (highest). Then we choose cards to find our new seats for the semester and I get the シート, 座席 次 to the people I like. Then I play Danganronpa: Another Episode and get a foil card worth quite a lot.
So I managed to get Nagito properly loaded and functioning on MMD to the point I can make him dance to Popipo, Ievan Polka, etc but I do not know how to change it to MP4 to share nor do I want to try in actually making ORIGINAL content
Cos last time whenever I did that, I got the モデル to take a half a of a step
THEN OUT OF NO WHERE THEY WERE BE A スパゲッティ BALL IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SKY FIDGETING AROUND
Btw if あなた kind of want an image of how I act irl, take like... Mondo Oowada, Ryouko Ookami, Fushimi Saruhiko, Leonhart Theobald, and Nagito Komaeda and あなた probably can get an image of the general me around like... my bandos and a few other closer but not super close people irl
Its weird how severely different levels my online self and irl self are at handling and thinking and processing certain things. Like Mental Health Problem A to my irl self can pretty much drive me into major depressive spirals, maybe a little suicidal ideation, breakdown, maybe a little dissociation, maybe a few bad coping mechanisms, あなた know, the usual.
Meanwhile, if Im on my computer and actively interacting with someone who I know online, its like
Difficulties make あなた the better and もっと見る well developed person. Each thing あなた live through adds to your 一覧 of experiences youve learned from and experiences あなた can handle. The もっと見る あなた handle, the もっと見る あなた grow and strengthen. Knowing that, sometimes Im thankful for my issues and history.
tfw あなた really get annoyed with your hang going up to pluck, have trouble not doing it, and dont trust yourself to not do it to the point あなた have to bandage your thumbs up even though あなた know that wont stop it just as a bit of a punishment and troublesome medium