"You know what your useless!!! Get out of here!! I can't stand to look at あなた anymore!!!", My mother yelled as I ran out the back door of our house, tears streaming down my face. My feet ran as far as they could until, on got caught on a rock and I landed face first into a dirt plot. Slowly I dragged myself to a nearby 木, ツリー and leaned against it.
"Useless.... How am i useless....", i thought to myself. It all just happened so quickly... The words just spilled out of my mother's mouth.... This is what had happened..
"I'm going to go across the 通り, ストリート to help Grandma Ofelia with her groceries.... Watch the kids for me?" My mother asked.
"Sure.." I waled outside and sat on the steps where the kids were playing tag at. I pulled my earphones out and put them in my ears as I read my book like I always did.
"Thanks." My mother ruffled my hair and left across the street.
My mind reeling on how my book was going I didn't even notice as one of the kids climbed the 木, ツリー my フレンズ and I use to always climb until we figured out it was infested with 火災, 火 ants... Which my brother and I were allergic to.
5 分 later my mother came back and smacked me in the head to get my attention since my Ipod's volume was cranked up all the way and I couldn't hear a thing.
I yanked out a headphone,"What was that for!?!" I glared at her.
"Your brother!!! He climbed that god damned 木, ツリー and got bit によって those damn ants!!! He feels out the 木, ツリー and sprained his ankle!! And now he can't breath!!"
"I.. Bu... Hi..." I was speechless.
"I told あなた to watch him and the other kids!!!!!", she hollered at me as she ran over to my brother who was now in the car lying on the back seats getting ready to leave for the hospital. My mother gave him a キッス on his forehead and shut the car door as my Aunt Hilary got in the driver's シート, 座席 and drove out the drive way with such speed.
"Mom! Why aren't あなた going with them!!" I looked at her as she walked to a lawn chair and sat down gingerly.
She sniffled,"Well... I can't leave あなた with the girls can I.."
"You... Nevermind!" I yelled grabbing my book and ipodの, ipod as I stomped inside making her follow with もっと見る rage.
"Well I can't!! If I did you'd probably let one of them get kidnapped and raped for all i know!!!" She yelled at me.
I turned,"I would never let that happen!!!"
"But あなた let THAT happen to あなた brother!!!"
My eyes started to blur with tears at the time,"I didn't mean for it to happen!! It was an accident!!"
She snorted,"I bet あなた let it happen!! あなた never cared for him!! But he cared for you!! And look where あなた got him!! IN A HOSPITAL!!!"
I put my book down on the ソファー, ソファ i was standing によって along with my ipod, "How could あなた say that..."
And that's it...
I stared up to the clouds, i didn't mean for my brother to get hurt. I 愛 him too much... But my mother doesn't think that. She thinks I hate him.. I don't give a crap about what he does または what happens to him... But i do. I 愛 him with all my heart.
I get on my legs and manage a slow stride farther away from my house... Away from my mother. I walk, until i wonder... Why am i still walking? If I'm so useless then what's the use in doing anything? What's the use... In living?
It starts to dawn on me... If the person who gave me life thinks... I'm useless.... Then why am i still here....
My arms take action with my conscience giving her say in it. One arm lifts my シャツ up and over my head and the other grabs the nearest sharpest object it could find... Which was a pen i had in my pocket from signing my name on my 本 to indicate they were mines.
With all my strength I plunge the pen into the left side of my chest. The pain was fierce. Sharp and piercing I took out the pen and feel to my knees, coughing blood.
My mother thought I was useless.... The person who gave me life..... Now there's no need to regret ever bringing me into this world..
2 hours later her mother went out looking for her daughter and found her body cold and still and wept.. Regretting the words that made her daughter kill herself...