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TomboyYaoiFan56 said:
I've told so many people to never feel lonely. Never become saddened. What empty アドバイス that was. No one can become happy if あなた tell them to be happy, they must seek it and bathe in it. I promised myself I'd make this 年 the most enjoyable, and I failed. I lied to myself saying I'd never feel a single each of sadness. I was stoic and only allowed myself to feel happiness, but then I realized, あなた can never control your emotions. I've heard several people around me telling me "You must control what あなた feel. It's not impossible." and it didn't work. None of it. Years after years of hearing that, and achieving it for months, here I sit, sad. Angry. Wanting people to relate to, but wanting to shut the world away. But in all of my loneliness, there is hope. I should never give up and spend my life thinking like this. Eventually, I'll find someone who relates to me. Accepts me. The thought of that makes me tear up. I never cry. I rarely do. And here I sit, on the verge of tears from my words and thoughts. Blinking my tears away as I finally see a silver lining in the grey 雲, クラウド above that says "You will always be alone." now I know it's not true. I'm not depressed, and I'm tired of waiting for happiness. I refuse to sit here and let myself soak in despair. I refuse to let this temporary depression get the best of me. I know what I want now, and I know what I need. It's time to stop feeling sorry for myself, and time to act.
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