::Mya POV::


Finally we all got on the bus and were on our way to the zoo. The teacher 発言しました that as we traveled we have to do a worksheet as we go along. I sat in the front of the bus によって myself looking outside the window. I could feel my lip throbbing. I could feel someone staring at me. I looked to my right to see Jacob on the シート, 座席 right across from me. See, I told あなた this chico doesn’t give us easily. I wish I could’ve gotten to know him もっと見る though. Oh, who am I kidding?! He doesn’t want me just like Briana said! He only feels bad. Speak of the devil, I turned to my right and saw Briana trying to talk to Jacob. He looked like he was very interested. Hm, I guess he would give up after all. Oh well…


::Jacob POV::


I have to find a way through her. I hate when she blocks me out. She looks so lonely sitting there all によって herself. For some reason I just wanna go over there and hug her, rock her and キッス her. I think that I developing serious feelings for her. But I barely know her and that’s what makes me want her more. The one time I saw her smile was the most beautiful thing ever. Seeing her blood made my ハート, 心 hurt. Making me think about how I was bullied. Her bullying was worse. I just sat there thinking and all of a sudden I felt someone someone plump into the シート, 座席 次 to me. I saw Briana sitting there smiling. “Hello, handsome” she said. I really didn’t want to talk to her with all the stuff she’s put Charlene though but I didn’t want to be rude so I answered her. “Hey…What’s up?” i 発言しました not interested. “Nothing…so what a gorgeous boy like あなた sitting all によって yourself?” batting her eyes lashes. She was creeping me out again. “Nothing, just thinking.” all of a sudden i felt her hand rubbing on the back on my neck “Well, how about I get あなた off what ever is on your mind.” she 発言しました trying to sound somewhat sweet. “Um, I’m ok. Thank あなた though” i 発言しました uninterested. I can’t stop thinking about Charlene. I looked at her sitting with her fist under her cheek looking out the window. Gosh, she’s so beautiful it’s not even funny. Briana saw me looking at her and her facial expression immediately changed “Why are あなた looking at her?! Why do あなた even like her?! Your suppose to like me I’m way prettier then her and from the looks of it if あなた guys were ever to be together she would crush あなた wit her fat a*$!” Again people on the bus started laughing. I looked at Charlene and she just looked at Briana “Got something to say あなた dirty maggot?!” She just sighed heavily shaking her head with tears running down her cheeks. now I was pissed. Why doesn’t she ever defend herself? Well if she doesn’t want to I will. “Don’t say that about her, あなた don’t even know her! She’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen! あなた just mad that she has curves that あなた wish あなた had!” Charlene looked shocked beyond shocked and scared. “No..” she mouthed shaking her head quickly. Briana looked pissed. She just got up and walked back to her シート, 座席 not saying a word. Charlene slapped her palm on her forehead and dragged her hand across her face.


::Mya POV::


Why did he do that?! Now Briana is going to go after me…hard. I can’t believe her did that! But…he defended me. No one has ever done that for me before. He 発言しました I had…curves. He 発言しました I was the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen. Did I believe that? HELL NO! Did あなた not hear what Briana 発言しました and what other people laugh at. They agree with her. I honestly don’t know why he 発言しました that, but I don’t think he meant it.


After driving we finally arrived at the zoo. I could feel Jacob staring at me still. Each time he tried to get closer to me I tried to get as far away from him as possible. That dizziness was coming back but this time it lasted longer. I haven’t eaten in about 4 days and I’m noticing a difference. I weighed myself and it seem like I’ve ロスト a couple pounds. Maybe this is working. My stomach hurts sometimes but that’s ok. I’ll do anything to make them leave me alone. But then there’s one thing…my face. I guess i’ll just have to live with it. My mom just sits there watching me. She keeps telling me that I need to stop and that I’m beautiful, like I 発言しました bull! But anyway i just wish she didn’t nag me about so much. Anyways, we were right about the end of our trip. i could feel Jacob’s stare again. We were going to one last stop which was to the gorillas. I stood there and admired everything. I was having a little fun. There were little kids everywhere some waving at me I had no idea why but I just waved back. “Is it me または do Mya and the gorillas look exactly alike?! こんにちは Mya i think we found your family! Maybe あなた can give あなた mother a break so she won’t have to look at a ugly fat piece of sh*t all day!” Briana screamed at the 上, ページのトップへ of her lungs smirking. I felt my cheeks burn with frustration with tears running down my face. The class bursted out with laughter some were laughing to hard that they were crying. Adults just shook their head at the comment. あなた already know I ran out of there embarrassed. I ran down the hallway and finally stopped. i banged my back on the ウォール sliding down it clutching my knees into my chest. I don’t think I can take this anymore. The torment…the embarrassment…..the abuse…..the hurt. I suddenly felt two strong arms ラップ around me. “Shhhh it’s ok bonita…shhhh” he 発言しました rocking me. This is all his fault! “Leave me alone, Jacob” I 発言しました my voice cracking and shaking. “Stop it, Mya. I’m trying to help you.” “what if i don’t want your help, huh?! Your the reason she’s doing this to me! Why did あなた have to defend me?! Why couldn’t あなた just ignore it like I asked あなた to?!” I didn’t want to yell at him but it’s like he just kept coming back, even when i asked him not to. Plus, I was just so frustrated. “Please…just calm down.” he 発言しました rubbing my back again. “No. Just leave me alone like I asked あなた please?!” “I can’t…I won’t” “Why not?!” I 発言しました getting frustrated “Because I-” the teacher cut him off. “C’mon guys. I think it’s time we go.” she 発言しました while staring at me. I quickly walked behind her not looking back at Jacob. Why won’t he just listen?! I wonder what he was gonna say before the teacher cut him off though. We got back on the bus and I felt the stairs. I looked back and saw Briana’s smirk. “Why didn’t あなた stay with your family like we told you? No, no I take that back. The gorilla was better looking then you. I feel bad that I actually compared him to you. Fat, ugly cow.” I put my head down in shame. I didn’t want to face anybody. Tears were uncontrollably coming from my eyes. I looked down at my necklace. It had a picture of my grandmother on it. She’s the only person that gets me but unfortunately she passed away a few years ago. I kissed it, hoping I would find some kind of strength. Nothing. When we got back to the school it was already time to go hime so I automatically started running home, still crying. I got there in no time. My mom wasn’t there she’s probably working late again. I ran up my stairs and slammed my door closed. I through my backpack on the floor in frustration. I can’t take it anymore. it’s too much! I need to let out some frustration. And i know exactly how. I went to my bathroom and opened the cabinet under the sink. I 検索 through it until i found what I was looking for. I unwrapped the paper taking a small blade out of it. I stared at it for a while. All of Briana’s コメント echoed in my head. I got so angry. I head the blade against my wrist and began cutting. I felt the excruciating pain on my wrist, but I didn’t care. “Ugly. Fat. Gorilla.” I 発言しました while cutting. I felt the blood traveling don my hand over my black nail polish on my nails, onto the floor. It felt warm after a while. Kinda like after あなた come out from the cold and have a nice cup of hot chocolate. The way the warmness goes down あなた throat. That’s exactly how I feel. I had done cutting before but not this big. I did it before i found dance and then I just stopped. Cutting was like my drug and my dealer was….the blade. I just sat there, on the edge of the tub near a puddle of blood…soon everything started to became dark.


::Jacob POV::


She’s frustrated. But why won’t she let me help her. They embarrassed her again. Briana called her a gorilla and more. But she was truly gorgeous…but it seemed that she never once believed it. Then it hit me. Maybe that’s why she didn’t want me to call me bonita. She didn’t think she was beautiful because of all the things Briana has 発言しました to her. I ran my hands though my fro thinking about our little augment in the zoo. She looked like she was about to crack. My ハート, 心 clenched when she told me to leave her alone. I can’t do that. i can’t leave her alone. If i don’t do something she might hurt herself. I can’t stand the thought of it. I don’t care if she doesn’t want me to…but I will be there for her. She special…she’s strong….. and weather she likes it または not she’s my Bonita.