A poem of a sad man

Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.

Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...

Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...

Broken,
My ハート, 心 is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...

Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen によって the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...

Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...

Darkness,
I am ロスト in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to 飲み込む me forever

There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if ハート, 心 is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with 愛 that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart

Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
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Only knew あなた for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
あなた always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
あなた always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
あなた just laughed and helped him
And always forgave

No one knew あなた would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying

We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
あなた and I were fine

I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
あなた ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never 発言しました goodbye

I wish i could of 発言しました goodbye
For あなた are here
No more
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In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss あなた and あなた will never be forgotten

When I talk to my フレンズ I pretend I am standing on the wings

of a flying plane. I cannot be trusted to tell them how I am.
または if I am falling to earth weighing less

than a dozen roses. Sometimes I dream they have broken up

with their 恋愛中 and are carrying 食 to my house.
When I open the mailbox I hear their voices

like the long upward-winding curve of a train whistle

passing through the tall grasses and ferns
after the train has passed. I never get ahead of their shadows.

I embrace them in front of moving cars. I keep them away

from my miseries because to say I am miserable is to say I am like them.

—Jason Shinder

I am mysterious yet sweet
I wonder what the future brings
I hear オオカミ 歌う to the moon
I see diamonds swimming in a black sea above me as I lay in the grass.
I want people to understand me completely

I am ランダム yet shy
I pretend I am always going on new adventures
I feel misunderstood
I touch shards of my past, remembering them
I worry that I won't find someone who can view things the way I do

I am courageous yet cunning
I cry because the blames fall on me
I understand people's problems
I say witty things that persuade people
I dream of an absolution & life of adventure
I try to fit in but it's just so boring
I hope to travel around the world making もっと見る フレンズ along the way.

I am all that I am, I am all of me

The Cure



Good and evil
愛 and hate

The balances of life
Makes everything flow just right
Until misery takes control of your world...

Misery is a parasite
Feeds off other's to become stronger
It hunts for those who are happy
Only to bite and infect them
With it's disease

It penetrates deep into your mind
Death and despair flood the thoughts
The virus spreads further...to your soul

あなた are sick with misery
Contagious
あなた don't want to infect
Forced into isolation
A weak body and a weak mind
There is no cure for あなた to find

Until the 日 comes when an antidote called Love
Finds it's way inside
And kills the virus

But cures are hard to find
Like any 愛 is...

my ハート, 心 beats clear and frees me
to see, feel, hear, touch and taste
your eyes, your lips, your hands
あなた are everywhere

a touch, soft and tender
a whisper, full of desire
a gasp of sweet surrender
as passion fuels the fire

and though we still have far to go
that's alright, we'll take it slow
and though the days are often long
with あなた here I can be strong

there's no time in life to judge
only time enough for love
so as another night slips by
let’s dance beneath the sky

in our secret garden
愛 took power over our will
progressively, gently, tenderly, lover to lover

love, you’re all I ever needed
and I want あなた now. now being forever.

this is my eternal vow.

A silver glint in your eyes; heartbeats clean.
A simple chord enrages me; warm smiles.
The melody plays slow; performed quite keen.
I stop midway, but memory redials.

The octave jumps to brilliance; intense.
They 愛 attention and thought; quarter notes.
Continuous trills and glissandos; dense.
Already chosen hum no other votes.

To accidentals for wit; humor dark.
Yet, the もっと見る necessary; balance sweet.
Some kindness with speed; held out at the hark.
Released the pedal to kill the soft beat.

All are strong to my heart’s will; every song.
The echoes beneath that for which I long.

天使 and demons were circling above me
through the thorns to the stars
The only one who doesn't know happiness
is the one who couldn't understand its call

I am Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer...

Stand alone... Where was life when it had a meaning...
Stand alone... Nothing's real anymore and...

...Endless run...
While I'm alive, I can try not to fall while flying,
Not to forget how to dream... how to love
...Endless run...

Calling Calling, For the place of knowing
There's もっと見る that what can be linked
Calling Calling, Never will I look away
For what life has left for me
Yearning Yearning, for what's left of loving

To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer.......