I couldn’t believe what I had done, but I was so hurt, angered, betrayed. I couldn’t believe how angry I was as I watched him 移動する closer, then I 発言しました it.
“ I hate you, ii hate あなた so much!” I yelled, and ran home. I kept running, my eyes full of tears. I got ホーム and stopped before entering. What would I tell them? What would I do? I decided to make a break for it and hope that nobody would notice my tears. I opened the door and saw them all happy and I broke. I fell to the ground and broke into tear’s. I had just ロスト my first love, best friend and brother. I did 愛 Harry, but I loved Niall to. I wouldn’t ditch Niall for Harry, because I was glad that he liked me to. I was in tears when I felt someone pick me up. I looked up and saw Niall. He carried me to my bedroom and laid me down. He got in the ベッド with me and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me close to him, and I let him. I laid there, sobbing into his chest. I felt his warmth radiating and I felt safe. After a while I stopped crying, so much. Silent tears fell as I thought of what I had done.
“ What happened?” He asked. I just shook my head.
“Come on, あなた can tell me” He 発言しました lifting my chin with his finger, so that I would face him. I starred into those magnificent blue eye’s.
“ He 発言しました he hate’s me.” I 発言しました as もっと見る tears made there way down. He looked shocked.
“ Why would he say that?” He asked me.
“ Because he 発言しました あなた knew” I told him.
“ Knew what?” he asked clearly confused.
“ あなた knew he loved me. Is that true?” I asked him. He hesitated but then spoke.
“ He told me, yah. Sorry, I didn’t mean for this to happen, I just knew that I loved あなた to, and I wanted you.” He 発言しました looking at me with sincere eye’s.
“ It’s ok, because I 愛 あなた to” I 発言しました to him with a smile.
“I just wish he hadn’t told me I was worthless and stuff.” I accidently said.
“WHAT?!? What else did he say to you?!?” he asked me. Great.
“ Look, he was just blowing off steam he did-” I was cut off.
“please tell me” He 発言しました with his 子犬 dog eyes, I gave in.
“ Well, he 発言しました I was worthless, unloved, never going to be worth anything nor loved, and that that was the reason my own parent’s didn’t want me.” I said. I felt him tense up. He got up from my ベッド and stormed off slaming my door. I ran downstairs in time to catch him leave. I felt even worse now. Niall was going to do something dtupid and it was my fault. I ran back to my room and called Niall. It went to voice mail. I called Harry and he picked up.
“ Look Harry, I think Niall is going over there to do something stupid.” I told him.
“ WHAT?! What did あなた do now?? HUH?? あなた know what , if something happens , know that its YOUR FAULT!” he 発言しました and hung up. He was right. I had been the one to screw thing’s up. I walked over to my bathroom, and broke my perfume bottle. I piked up a piece of its delicate glass and examined it. I sat in the corner of my bathroom and cut, 1,2,3,4,5,6 parallel lines on my wrist. I watched as the blood ran down my arms. Everything Harry had 発言しました was right. I sat there, crying silently, waiting for someone to save me.
I had just left Harry’s house. We had gotten into a fight but I had one. I was walking ホーム and I checked my phone, 1 missed call from Viv. I called her back, no answer. I continued and got home. Everyone was waiting in the living room.
“ What happened?” asked Sydney.
“ Where is Viv?” I asked her.
“ Upstairs she wont come down,” she said. I ran up the stair’s and knocked on her door.
“ Viv, can I come in?” I asked. She opened the door for me. I looked down to see her wrist. My ハート, 心 shattered.
“ Viv, im so sorry, Viv, I didn’t mean to hurt you.” I 発言しました and pulled her into a hug.
“ I did it because of other thing’s, not you,” she whispered. I pulled away and kissed her. She let me, but then pulled away.
“ im tired, can, we sleep?” she asked me. I chuckled and laid down with her. I had my arm’s around her waist. I fell asleep, feeling like she was 安全, 安全です in my arms.
I was furious. They had hurt me, so know, it was my turn to hurt them.
authors note: PLEASE VOTE FOR A DRESS ON CHPT 2!! I NEED HELP CHOOSING ONE!! thnx!