“I’ve loved あなた from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt. あなた know, loving a girl. I learned how to become a sarcastic 雌犬 to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work.
When we got together, it scared the shit out of me, because あなた were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed あなた away. I made あなた think things were your fault. But. Really I was just terrified of the pain.
I screwed that girl Sophia, to kind of spite あなた for having that hold on me. And I’m a total fucking coward because… (takes tickets out of bag) I got these. These tickets to go for us three months ago.
But I, I couldn’t stand…I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can あなた understand?
あなた were trying to punish me back and it’s hard. It’s so horrible. Because. Really. I’d die for you. I 愛 you. I 愛 あなた so much it’s killing me”