Do あなた Believe In After-Life..?

Okay ,what i am thinking about that , if i do kill my self then able to with my 愛 one forever .. , he can't see me but , i can see him forever.. , well i have problem that i can't be with him in realife , i cant make him happy または give life time happiness so he'll be fine with other girl ,happy in her hands . so thinking about it..
I Know This Things I'm Asking IS Ridiculous !! :D okay Vote Me Please ? !! :)