Emma the ペンギン Article: this was a rant, now im just using it as a timeline of my headspace throughout the years

this was a rant, now im just using it as a timeline of my headspace throughout the years

posted by ILUVKOWALSKI

2016 me was angry, and 201X whatever me made it もっと見る delicate, but 2020 me is gonna change the whole thing again to something else entirely

i like thinking about this place every now and again...the people here....no one my age that i meet seems to have heard of fanpop, so i wonder how we all found this place, i cant for the life of me remember

im glad i did in the end though. a lotta wild stuff happened here (including that time i rigged the pom ファン club's election so i could win gjkfdnhdfh) i think dylan dated like 4 girls, me included (jokes on あなた im not a girl anymore OHOHOHOHH)

i think about the people who left and i never saw again sometimes...sammie/goldie, with the イルカ oc? i hope they're okay...

i've heard from kait and lexii and mya recently, and that was nice, and i've always stayed in contact with jessy/anya, which is something im hugely grateful for

i just...i do miss the community here....i cant exactly remember when it started dipping off, but i feel like there was a first gen of people (lilly, icicle, bluepenguin, hannah, lt kowalski, etc) and a 秒 gen (me, jessy, lexii, dylan etc) and it was nice being part of that 秒 gen

i think willy vagued me for posting too much art once which is....very funny honestly, like. how dare i be an enthusiastic kid kjgnfdhd

i know there was drama with them/kait/willy and honestly i still dont know the whole picture, i dont think i ever will

i wonder how y'all perceived me back then? was i too loud??? was i nice?

i like to think im nice now, または at least, im trying to be

i've put my contact details on my profile, so if y'all ever want to say hello, ou know where to find me <3

im pretty much really into hollow knight at the moment....quirrel is the best boy...i think its funny i've come full circle, having a iggay crush on another non human character

YellowCrimson, _Lexii23_ and 2 others like this

mostar1219 Woah, that's a lot to get off your chest. I agree with some of these

MadagascarGirl Totally agree :)

ILUVKOWALSKI ^^I know right? :3 I was only planning the first bit, then I just decided to rant about everything that annoyed me. XD ^:D Yay! :3

Kait_Wolf I agree with you, Em. :) I hate it when people get 'too sexy' with each others, especially at my school. Now I know I`m a bit jealous cause I`m single and it feels like no one cares for me. -_- And it creeps me out too..... I do get grumpy, but I try not to let it control myself. But at least I`m not rude or anything. :)

ILUVKOWALSKI ^Thanks for agreeing with me Kait. :D And at least you have a reason to be grumpy, and not be mean to others if you're feeling grumpy. I'm just annoyed with those who lash out at others constantly, because they're constantly grumpy for no reason.

_Lexii23_ I agree :) I hate it when people (I think I know who you are talking about) are rude like that. It makes me so irritated >_<

ILUVKOWALSKI ^:D Yeah, you probably do know. XD Some people really need to lean some manners. >.<

pomfan2 I totally agree with you there !

ILUVKOWALSKI ^Yay, thanks! :3

iloveprivate I agree with how people shouldn't post things unrelated to POM on the POM club! That's so annoying! You made a lot of good points, and this is a good way to get your frustration out! I agree with a lot of things you said. :)

ILUVKOWALSKI ^Thanks Kate, it's good to see that others agree, and I'm not just some ranting crazy person. XD And yeah, that gets me soo annoyed! >.< There's been quite a bit of non Pom stuff on there recently, hopefully that will stop soon. :P

YellowCrimson Hey I'm pissed for the same things too cuz these things can get preetty annoying and you sound really angry(Vulgars and stuff O^O) but I really can't blame you. Som uh yeah, great rant~!

ILUVKOWALSKI ^Yeah, I was pretty angry when I posted this, but letting off the steam made me feel better. :D And thanks. XD

ILUVKOWALSKI oh my god when did i write this why was i so angry i can't stop laughing oh my god

ILUVKOWALSKI i just edited it to call out all the bullshit in a more 2016!emma way aka me giving no fucks and bitching bout all y'all that did this stuff lmao damn i was so innocent and pure in 2013 look at all those XD and :D and :3 faces what happened

ILUVKOWALSKI this is kinda funny bc 2017 me is just...tired??? clinical depression maybe???? but yeah just??? idk be nice to people

ILUVKOWALSKI 2018 me says be gay do crimes 420 69 hell fuckin yeah

ILUVKOWALSKI 2020 emma also goes by luke and i have a lot of love in my heart.... ngl???? its interesting seeing this and watching my change in demeanor over the years....im the only one that checks this, but its fun to see what headspace i was in each year i feel a lot more mellow now, and i do miss this place

ILUVKOWALSKI 2021 me ONLY goes by luke, thats a fun inevitability huh? im still feeling the same way i did in 2020 really. i guess that's the whole like, mellowing out as you grow up kinda thing. i like how this place has become something of a journal for me, albeit an incredibly infrequent. i love y'all, genuinely, i loved this site and the pom club, and fans of pom. any drama/things that annoyed me back then have just been wiped away by nostalgia i suppose. we were so young huh? its funny how everything back then felt like these big deals, like the end of the world. i really hope y'all are doing okay. i dont expect anyone to check this, its been so, so long. but if any of you ever do,. im here. like i said in the post, you know where to find me. im the type to dig in and just, never really leave sites as long as i have a few people around, (deviantart, tumblr, discord) its just..well...everyone i knew kinda left huh? i still dont know where most of you went. i guess maybe i never will. still into hollow knight X] againt, hit me up for anything honestly, but especially if you like the game too, im a huge nerd for it

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Emma and Kowalski: I Won't Give Up

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Source: Me

Tallulah.

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Source: Me. :)

Ella.

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Source: Me.

Elle.

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Source: Me. :P

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Emilie.

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Source: Me.

Eve.

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Source: Me.

Jade.

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Source: Me.

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Emma with Ryan :3

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Source: Me

Derek.

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Source: Me. :P

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Emma as a lion cub. :3

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Source: Kamirah on Da's game. :P

Fern.

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Source: Me. :P

Happy bday dad. :D

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Source: Me. :3

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Emma as a MLP. :3

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Source: A game on Dolldivine. :P

No もっと見る Heroes: Chatpers 16-17

posted by ILUVKOWALSKI

After a few agonizing seconds. Emma opened her eyes uncertainly. Nightshadow had stopped moving towards them, and cocked his head to the side, watching them curiously. Emma looked at Kowalski, who's face was full of confusion. Nightshadow sniffed the air and took a step closer to them. Emma's ハート, 心 pounded in her chest as he got nearer. He looked thoughtful, an expression she hadn't seen on him yet. Emma thought about something that Ashley had told her.

He's got a good sense of smell. She remembered, feeling a little less scared. And smells are the biggest trigger of memory. She realised, looking...